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[–] [email protected] 15 points 6 days ago* (last edited 15 hours ago) (8 children)

hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i'll add you to the list!

the list as it stands:

AshenWolf*  (12/23 - 12/29)
SadArtemis (12/30 - 1/5)
Eco* (1/6 (The Darkest Day in Our Democracy.) - 1/12)
Yukiko (1/13 - 1/19)
oscardejarjayes* (1/20 - 1/26)
SwitchyandWitchy* (1/27 - 2/2)
SILLY [email protected]* (2/3 - 2/9)

EstraDoll (3/2 - 3/8)

​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

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[–] [email protected] 4 points 27 minutes ago (1 children)

I think my brain is melting, it's not good. I am distressed and exhausted. Not feeling good. I don't really know why or how, but them's the breaks. I am flattened. I just feel like it isn't going well. Is there drugs for this? Why haven't I gone to the weedstore yet?

I'm just fuckin stressed and worn out which I hate. Idk what to do.

lightly nsfwAlso shaving my bits is really fuckin annoying and difficult and I still get nicks everywhere, but the feeling of being smooth is fuckin awesome. I have not arrived at a real solution if there is one; using Nair down there all the time seemed like a bad solution.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 9 minutes ago

I initially shave with a regular razor and then use an electric one every day or two to keep it smooth.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 38 minutes ago (1 children)

I got beaten by the flu on my day off, figures you don't sleep for long enough and eventually shit like that will come for you, ended up having to take a day off work too, which sucked.

Now for the day's weak rant, on some reddit shithole people were praising some bourgeois redditist scumlord for being able to drive home on a Canadian freeway since some shit on his Tesla gave out so he had no heat nor front windshield defroster, he comments he wouldn't have been able to go home without AI and everyone was liek 'so brabe', he had to do that one day, I do that near every fucking day in winter, no AI, its called use a sharp Dollar Tree squeegee every so often to scrape the ice from your inner car window and a rag covered with deicer. Also, dress like an Antarctic explorer while your coworkers giggle that you're from California, too soft to be in the midwest. If it wasn't here I told the Korean war vet that's a regular shopper at work story I'mma tell it again, deal, supposedly he was a tank driver and they abandoned the tanks because heat stopped working and he loved to go on and regale everyone how cold it was. I was reminded of the Lake Tianjin film.

The heatercore in my usual antique for the mid 90s has been clogged for years and its a pain and a half access hoses out and its already a cobbled up precarity since some other mechanic de jour probably broke something, so not happening, and this winter no front windshield defroster for me as well (good thing I got that clank truck with half of everything wrong with it right?) Damn truck's is partially clogged, and I haven't had a chance to look at it, I'm either sick or working like a donkey, so its much of the same shit but at least when I get home like 40min later the heat might kick on, if I get blessed by the right Frost-based deity, vs in my precious classic I've driven 3-4hrs like that, it be like 6F outside and body-heated car inside. Its fun closing and my angry coworkers waiting on me (we all gotta drive away safely), they don't seem to comprehend the idea of no heat, 'tee hee tamagotchi, just wait for your car to heat up', listen buddy, I don't want to wait until Spring. Mechanics here would charge what I make in a month to maybe fix shit, so nah.

Shit always makes me think of the Martian, though its a poverty-induced survival deal. Just lil babies need to get on my level, wouldn't damn survive.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 16 minutes ago (1 children)

Cortisol, stress hormone, can temporarily reduce symptoms of illness. If you're really stressed from work, you probably just got some relief getting sick until you finally got time off and cortisol started getting reduced

[–] [email protected] 1 points 4 minutes ago

Yes and being able to sleep 12hrs due to being sick helped me catch up on my long-standing sleep deficit some, restock a few neurotransmitters lol. On my day off I was too sore to even move, all I was able to do was get caught up on movies and read, my perception of time even slowed down shit was so cash, 10/10 would get sick again.

[–] [email protected] 4 points 1 hour ago (2 children)
[–] [email protected] 3 points 45 minutes ago

I love the slight boiling in Rankin/Bass films, their hair and fur getting just barely grazed from being moved around by human hands, I think its very charming.

[–] [email protected] 3 points 1 hour ago (1 children)

i prefer films where animals don't sing

[–] [email protected] 2 points 46 minutes ago

Whew you're gonna love Bambi

[–] [email protected] 5 points 1 hour ago (1 children)

this week's mood:

i don't pass and i am determined to make it everyone else's problem

[–] [email protected] 3 points 1 hour ago* (last edited 18 minutes ago)

doctor related stuff, not gender I guessI feel like I have no frame of reference for letting things go. Like, a couple of years ago my insurance got rejected and I had to stop seeing a doctor that I had seen for well, most of my life.

I was scheduled for an appointment and walked in and got turned away. I almost flipped out. But I never saw my doctor again, and that's frustrating, it's like, you were my doctor, did you care? I liked this person and they didn't address the abrupt nature with which things ended. They still see my mom! but probably forgot about me

Like, to me, in the bigger picture, there is no moving on without addressing how things end. I do not like not understanding. I feel betrayed when things change and I am kept out of the loop. How am I supposed to trust a doctor to talk about more serious stuff if they can just deny me and then my medical history and everything is sitting in the office of someone that I don't wanna call because they don't wanna see me anymore.

Like, yeah, no wonder people disengage from health as a concept. Because it's a goddamn business in this country and that makes people cynical about wasting their own money on something that they need. Unbelievable.

It is frustrating to feel like nobody even conceives any of this in the same way as me. Am I supposed to be grateful for the wealth of perspectives this world has to offer? Can't someone be on the same page as me? There's a first time for everything.

[–] [email protected] 9 points 2 hours ago

Guy who thought he was cishet all his life despite all friend groups being lgbtq+

spoilerthat was me blob-no-thoughts

[–] [email protected] 9 points 2 hours ago* (last edited 2 hours ago)

My gf says my hair can be kind of wavy.
I feel like I should do co-washing or something different to it to better take care of it, but idk what.

[–] [email protected] 12 points 4 hours ago

been feeling very gender today catgirl-happy is nice

[–] [email protected] 13 points 4 hours ago

Didn't realise a pfp could give me genuine irl gender euphoria wtf

[–] [email protected] 13 points 5 hours ago

Today is so doggirl-sleep

[–] [email protected] 17 points 6 hours ago (1 children)

Y'all, I've been talking to this girl and I think she fixed my sleep schedule??? I used to stay up until like 2 or 3 at least every night, but now i go to sleep before midnight so that I can be up when she sends me a good morning text.

[–] [email protected] 15 points 6 hours ago

how adorable ⁄⁠(⁠⁄⁠ ⁠⁄⁠‒⁠⁄⁠-⁠⁄⁠‒⁠⁄⁠ ⁠⁄⁠)⁠⁄

[–] [email protected] 9 points 6 hours ago

I know there was a whole thing about Nirvana and Kurt Cobain and Gender but I was listening to The Smashing Pumpkins and damn, some of the lyrics and songwriting smacks of Gender

I know part of it is my own feelings and being really into them as a kid and teenager but like

It all goes wrong, she sets things tragic

She is Venus, she is Mars

She's electric and the struggler

Upon the face we leave no trace

But in her stomach Mercury aged

She holds the blood, she carves the knives

She digs the wires in our babies

("Annie-Dog" from Adore)

More from that and Mellon Collie and the Infinite Sadness really read as uh, at least conflicted about gender stuff

[–] [email protected] 10 points 8 hours ago

every so often i'll see a cool image from warhammer 40k and think that i want to learn more. every time i choose not to, and that's probably for the best

[–] [email protected] 8 points 8 hours ago

i don't think that people are born for a reason, but if they are i hope mine is to publicly stone michael mcintyre to death for crimes against humanity

[–] [email protected] 10 points 11 hours ago* (last edited 10 hours ago) (1 children)

alcohol, nicotine, self crit, bit of preening too, dysphoria and some weird sexuality discomfort stuff

Telling myself "I'll stop drinking and smoking again after New Year's" pain yes-honey-left

Neglected my upper body shit and just did cardio today but honestly had my best session ever??? Hit 1111 kcals burned on incline treadmill in one sesh and was going for more than an hour without a break

Did good on household chore stuff and the kitties were pretty good today

Feeling weird about myself tbh

Like, not even necessarily bad but odd, I've felt a bit more masc/butch than I usually do lately and I dunno what to make of that

Part of it is presenting kinda more androgynous and spending a lot of time in proximity to gym bros and not wanting to stand out too bad in an uncomfortable way and masking my gender shit and queerness

Part of it could be endocrinology shit from exercising a ton and my levels might be out of whack in a more masc skew

Libido's been higher than usual? Kind of an annoying chore tbh, I've kinda felt like I did fairly early into both of my puberties where it was like "goddamit, seriously again??"

Feel bad about looking at random ppl with some thirst, especially women and feel bad about feeling like my attractions and impulses are too male and feel bad for the women like in the abstract just from being attracted to them

Feel bad about weird smut shit I've looked at that was hot and then immediately off-putting after uh, interest wore of because off uhh, accomplishing the goal there

Have some weird feelings and thoughts about gender and sexuality and idk if I wanna get into them now but idk, feel weird

I neglected some self care grooming shit today just out of exhaustion and feel bad about it

I feel like I'm craving some feminine social interaction and femmy stuff for myself, I don't remember the last time I wore makeup or dressed up or did a manicure and I feel like I'm neglecting part of myself and feel kinda sad about it

Generally lonely and weird feeling

Idk, but I'm glad to be able to post here and interact with you lovely ppl cat-trans

[–] [email protected] 7 points 11 hours ago (1 children)

test post please ignore

Part of it could be endocrinology shit from exercising a ton and my levels might be out of whack in a more masc skew

Someone can correct me if I'm wrong but I'm pretty sure exercise doesn't do anything to your hormone levels, so being a gymrat likely isn't related??

feel bad about feeling like my attractions and impulses are too male

Do u wanna talk abt "male" attractions and impulses............

Have some weird feelings and thoughts about gender and sexuality and idk if I wanna get into them now but idk, feel weird

If u do wanna get into em I wanna listen, could be good. I find your feelin a bit more masc/butch to be interesting tbh.

You should get some feminine social interaction and femmy stuff for yourself as well, you deserve it cat-trans Hope the loney and weird feeling doesn't last long

[–] [email protected] 7 points 11 hours ago (1 children)

meow-hug

sexuality/gender stuff, masc/butch feelings being kinda dysphoric stuff

If u do wanna get into em I wanna listen, could be good. I find your feelin a bit more masc/butch to be interesting tbh.

Yeah, idk? I know part of it is just from being more masc masking socially lately but feeling attracted to a woman "in a male way" makes me really uncomfortable

I feel like my sense of self is like, 65% femme 35% queer uh, not-man but kinda masc?? "Boi" maybe? Idk. Whatever that blend is pretty much describe my sense of enbyness and self though, I'm definitely not a guy and I don't really think of myself as a "woman" ever per se but I frequently feel like I'm "lady-adjacent" kinda? Maybe a third thing or in the middle a bit slanted towards femme-ier?

Anyway the attraction impulses towards women make me uncomfortable partially because it reminds me of feeling like a "straight" "boy" as a teen before I realized I was queer and not really a guy actually

Uh sorry if TMI too but uh, the impulses being uh, kinda top-y is strange to me too

(I find women beautiful and lovely but uh, kinda a bottom and am most attracted to like, futchy top energy women generally and the thought of topping is strange and dysphoric to me, it's like, the sexuality equivalent of writing left handed to me mentally and makes me uncomfortable and weird feeling about "seeming like a guy" or "not really a trans femme)

((I don't think this way about other trans femmes who are tips or vers, it's just a weird internal hangup)

Idk, I wanna do better at self care

Might do a home spa day thing tomorrow and paint my nails or something

[–] [email protected] 2 points 1 hour ago

waow

I know part of it is just from being more masc masking socially

I dunno if I know this one but I think I kinda do. When I had guyfriends in the past, it was kinda draining to talk to them. It's probably hard to explain without illustrating in detail how profoundly fuckin weird I am, but they weren't talkin about stuff I wanted to or in ways I wanted to. This that we're having now, LocalOaf, would not happen with The Boys. They could never catgirl-peace

Anyway I'm being a pithy asshole but I'm still waiting on a good definition of "male attraction". Usually people do just mean being top-y, and so I've never really managed to nail down what attraction models are gendered how... In split attraction model, is purely sensual-sexual a MALE attraction? Idk... (annoying annoying) To quit being a huge dickhead for a sec:

make me uncomfortable partially because it reminds me of feeling like a "straight" "boy" as a teen before I realized I was queer and not really a guy actually

Yeah I mean that's understandable honestly, not really a pleasant reminder. I realise now that one of the reasons I'm so chill (relatively speaking bulborb-stare ) is that there's a pretty solid dividing line between the "me now" and the me that everyone thought was a guy. I guess the difference for me is, I stopped feeling a lot of the weird shit I felt when I was 14 years old. If you're still feelin the same ways and unlikely to change, disentangling those feelings from your past could be a project. By the same token though:

the thought of topping is strange and dysphoric to me, it's like, the sexuality equivalent of writing left handed to me mentally and makes me uncomfortable and weird feeling about "seeming like a guy" or "not really a trans femme

I mean, it doesn't make you seem-like-a-guy or not-really-trans-femme, y'know. You are ALLOWED to think and feel and do, it is allowed. But also if it's dysphoric and unpleasant for you, again, project... Idk like, are you gonna stop feeling these types of sexual attraction?

Also lmao of course, it is ALWAYS only a weird internal hangup that applies to ourselves...

I'm definitely not a guy and I don't really think of myself as a "woman" ever per se but I frequently feel like I'm "lady-adjacent" kinda? Maybe a third thing or in the middle a bit slanted towards femme-ier?

Pretty cool if u ask me =) and I can relate to the selfcare thing, I feel like an unkempt street animal somewhat frequently which I do not like. I haven't really built up the inner want to just dress pretty around the house though, Idk sweatpants comfy..........

[–] [email protected] 17 points 15 hours ago

Got a compliment on my hair, which I am generally self conscious about. That was pretty nice blob-no-thoughts

[–] [email protected] 9 points 14 hours ago* (last edited 14 hours ago)
[–] [email protected] 12 points 15 hours ago (2 children)

body dysphoria, weight dysphoria

doggirl-gloom Weighed myself and I've gained 50 pounds in 7 months. Fucking rough. Like I'd prefer to be healthier but I wouldn't mind being this weight, the main issue is most of the fat still goes straight to my stomach, so it just makes me feel dysphoric. Need to get back into exersizing and watching what I eat. Maybe that'ld help with my depression too.

[–] [email protected] 4 points 4 hours ago (1 children)

weight dysphoriaI don’t think I’ll ever be comfortable with myself until my BMI is like….19.
Kind of hope I am wrong, but I still feel gross no matter how much I lose.

[–] [email protected] 3 points 3 hours ago* (last edited 3 hours ago) (1 children)

19 is reeeeeaaal skinny. That's like world-class marathon runner skinny. You would lose all ass and boob. I think anything below 21, unless you're some kind of specialized athlete, is just not worth it and would make you miserable trying to achieve and maintain it.

[–] [email protected] 3 points 3 hours ago

Like I said, I hope I am wrong.

[–] [email protected] 6 points 12 hours ago (1 children)

fitness shit, mental healthI've dealt with being overweight since childhood and most of my early adult life and also have spent probably more than half my life clinically some severity of depressed and I know it can sound patronizing and like "hey um sweaty have u tried yoga??" blob-no-thoughts as advice but masochistic gymrat shit has honestly been the biggest improvement to my mental health and self esteem

Like I'm also anxious af and weird and dysphoric in public generally, but knowing that I put in the work at the gym and am pushing myself and improving makes all that shit so much better

I have some trauma shit that makes me generally kinda uncomfortable and nervous around strangers and (larger) men specifically but I'm kinda tall and buff and it's rare now that someone makes me nervous because I feel pretty confident about my ability to defend myself and handle a scuffle with like 99% of the guys I see

(not trained really either besides basic beginner boxing and scrapping as a teen that went to a ton of metal and hardcore shows but it's rare for me to see someone now where I think "damn they might be able to kick my ass"

Please feel free to ask me anything about diet and exercise shit of you want, I love to help ppl

lady-doge cat-trans

[–] [email protected] 3 points 3 hours ago

Calorie shit, body dysphoria, bingingHow do I remove snack food binging? I have a problem with doing thaywith chips, and really anytime I buy snacks. I've been recommended eating celery which gets the crunch I like, but doing from the chemically engineered addicting flavoring to just celery is a leap that my brain doesn't like.

And then as for exercising, is there stuff I can do you build muscle strength at home? (Ideally a more leg workout routine). With the dysphotia its rough for me to get out to a gym, and then I'd also have to buy gym clothes and that's gonna be another layer of shit that's gonna be tough on my mind.

Thanks for the offer of advice :3

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