Depression, anxiety, self thoathing
Feel fucking useless. Every time I try to go do queer shit so I'm not so chronically lonely I get most of the way there, barley holding myself together from anxiety, then it all bursts and I have to struggle not to break down right at the door. It always ends in me being so mentally fucked while I'm there that I don't talk to anyone and nobody talks to me, or I am so broken down mentally that I don't go and leave crying. Just dont understand how the fuck people do this shit. Just feel constantly burnt out and lonely
Gonna try taking another break from the bearsite as I have some queer shit IRL planned so I wanna see if I can start doing that to help my burnout. Also think its time for me to say goodbye to this account as its getting too old opsec wise. Sucks because I like this user name :(.
Maybe I'll look into if I can just delete all my posts or something and not make a new account but that still has opsec issues do idk
I would simply not get pied in the face
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Might want to put a cw because of the reddit comment
I ALSO STRUGGLE WITH TALKING TO PEOPLE IN LOUD ENVIRNMENTS. I HAVE SENSORY ISSUES SO THAT SORT OF SITUATION WOULD NOT BE FUN FOR ME
Yeah
Oooo nice
Bit idea: Geoguesser streamer who whenever "Israel" turns up they keep getting confused and keep saying that it doesn't exist
Chelsea stays winning
I crave dog and catgirl literature so I think I might get back into reading unjust depths.
Winder if there is Unjust depths lesbian fanart....

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