Today is my transiversary! I dont remember when I started HRT, but I do remember the day I decided to socially transition! 6 years ago I stopped boymoding permanently and forever~

I think my first 6 months after I broke up with my ex (wed been together for 11 years), I dreamt of them every night and we were always still together, and they were boring dreams of our daily life. Nothing cool or like metaphorical. I still felt so connected to them more or less for 3 years. Its not nearly as bad anymore and I still get dreams about them every once in a while, but I also go months without thinking about them. It all takes time.

No??? Why are you asking lol

As a kink thing, thats different because its roleplay obviously

I consider myself trans, and I dont think its a bad thing to outrun or a "permanent mark on my existence" or a "permanent scar" 😌 - and I pass the vast majority of the time, I had the surgeries and years of HRT, I accidently stealth now at work (sometimes it doesnt come up so Ive had coworkers whove known me for years and didnt know I was trans lol).

I like being trans! I would like being a trans (in small letters) woman if I can describe it like that, like its just another part of me. Im a nurse, I went to my alma mater, Im from where Im from, I like nerdy ttrpgs, Im a transgender woman, I like dogs and babies, I can kinda speak french with a horrible mostly Anglo tiny slice parisienne accent, etc.

Anyway, trans just means the doctors and your parents fucked up when they gendered you as a baby and it took longer for you to figure it out yourself.

They did it on a completely horrible reality TV show called The Swan, and it really does fuck with peoples brains.

I went to trans swim night at a pool that uses non chlorinated water (somehow) and my hair looks sooooo good today. Its so wavy, ooooooo. I look super cute!

A friend of mine works at Costco and apparently they do cover laser but it takes a lot of back and forth more or less every time. Dunno if thats true everywhere or even every Costco.

When I went to my first HRT intake like 6 years ago, the centre there had very cheap laser. It was subsidized, which was very helpful. It is very expensive aside from that. Hopefully theres an aesthetician school or something who can get you treatments at cost or free... one of my trans friends started her own laser hair removal business because of how expensive it is but she ended up mainly serving cis women (she was surprised but hair removal is a highly sought after service apparently). The cis women are indirectly paying for the trans women because she charges her trans clients significantly less lol

I never got the E that makes you good at computers, but I did get to be the trans femme that drives and owns her own car so... balancing I guess

When I was doing patches, some alcohol swabbies worked but so did mineral oil/baby oil. Maybe makeup remover wipes work?

I have to wake up at 5 and if I dont get in bed around 830 or 9 pm Ill hate myself for it at 5 😩

I love the sculpts of Age of Sigmar and Kingdom Death Monster but damn do I not wanna actually play either of them lol

I got big boobs, and I gotta say I dunno what people are complaining about with back pain. I had backpain from work before, and its not any different now.