When I was at my worst, I had a method, plan, and time. The only that kept me from it was not wanting someone else to find my body, and that my ex wouldnt take care of our cats (like litterbox or feeding). This is not failure, these are protective factors.

The way youve talked about it is close to someone who is actively bleeding or has a visible tumor. And if I tell you to see a team to get a handle of it, maybe emergency care, and you say no its not that bad. This is like having a visible tumor and saying "eh its not that bad." If you can't or won't see a doctor about it, there are things you can do on your own - but this is getting close to putting bandaids on a tumor. You have to prioritize good sleep, 8 hours, and getting it every single day - even if youre busy or whatever, sleep has got to start coming first in your priority list. You have to eat healthy. You have to start recognizing these cycles of automatic thoughts, and working on alternate supportive thoughts. If you dont know how to, I would redirect you to see a therapist or doctor

Presumably you would have no judgements against anyone doing either. Maybe some internalized stuff going on? Or yeah, just bottom dysphoria.

I was never bedbound or strict bedrest, closest was the first day after. I didn't move tons for the first month, besides bed or couch. Sitting did hurt - they had little cushion rings for us at the recovery house but I do wish I had my own for the flight home and then for the first few weeks. I took a class during recovery, it was only an hour but it definitely felt a little sore the first couple weeks.

I had my mom with me the first week, my sister helped with groceries or chores, I also had a lot of friends who helped with tasks for the first couple months but I stopped needing much of any help after about 6 weeks. It was a strict 10 lbs lifting limit, which can be like a big house cat - so it doesnt take much to stress the surgery site and stitches that first critical month. I showered at the recovery house! It was very nice. So maybe a few days or a week in?

I didnt start working out again until after the first month, and then it was very gentle bodyweight stuff the next two months. But I stayed active with walking, stairs, etc. I stayed active the whole time, starting from post op day 1 or 2.

As much as recovery sucks, it is a temporary part of your life - and then the rest is, you have a vagina, and jts just there~ ♡

Youre able to check and touch and otherwise stimulate the prostate from the front yeah~ also they save a bundle of tissue and nerves that acts more or less like a g spot too. I kept sensitivity, and for me it does feel more sensitive and pleasurable but it might be more down to no more bottom dysphoria rather than anything they did to nerves or tissue. Fingers feels great, vibe feels WONDERFUL. I did not know how good it felt. Its also nice how long it can go? And it just keeps going and going too, with my gock it was like - build up then its more or less done in one release. It has not been like that post op.

The only stuff I miss about my old gock is the ease of peeing standing up and how much faster masturbation was. I can still pee standing up but it takes some awkward stances and muscles lol, and while masturbating was a lot faster - it also wasnt fun, more of a chore. I topped with a strap before (occasionally) and after, I preferred it to my gock even before. Now, I get to use a strapless strap on (like a double sided dildo kinda, you hold on to one end inside you and use the other) - thats been great.

I got laser for one session before, but honestly it wasnt necessary. It didnt hurt much, I have a high pain tolerance but honestly it barely hurt compared to my face. They like scrape off your hair follicles during the surgery? I dont have any hair inside my neo vagina, and out of the other post op trans women I know I think only one had a couple hairs inside? Anyway, they can get rid of any spare hairs inside if some happen to make it past surgery. I had my laser session at a place that has a lot of trans and gender diverse clients, and I had the same tech for my face as I did for full brazillian. Cis guys get it too, not often but they do so if you wanna boymode aboht it - well you can.

Not tucking again is definitely great - but you dont need full depth for that. You could have an orchi which Ive heard makes it easier to tuck, or zero depth vaginoplasty. Then it just looks like any other vagina but there's no cavity. Recovery is simpler and significantly faster with zero depth. I didnt get orchi pre bottom surgery.

I wanted full depth because I knew I wanted to have sex with a vagina. I always considered myself a top, and I still pretty much top even though... I aint got the equipment for it unless I use a strap lol. I was having sex with my vagina about 4 months in? Which is a little faster than most people but I healed great. It feels great and I'd highly recommend it if its something you'd ever want. Otherwise, if its not something you want theres not much point going for the longer recovery surgery.

I do remember thinking that if they said "you either get FFS or bottom surgery free, pick" I wouldve picked FFS. Im actually quite happy with a vagina though, its great!

Finale to me was a whiff because they could have used more episodes to explore some of this stuff, and the other characters. Jax abstracts off screen for example, which is an interesting choice.

When I went, there were a lot of very young children. Now, this isnt like a super adult show - I would say 12 to 22 though. These kids were like... 5. And there were walk outs! Which suggested to me none of those parents co watched with their kids any of what they were into potentially for years. Just plopped em on an ipad with youtube and let em go. The ending where the merch screen popped up was a little dystopia because a chorus of 5 years olds shouted "yay merch" lol