I told a story about how in my first year I got so black out drunk I lost my pants and didnt know where they were. Now, Ive told this story before and its funny - but now I pass and it was with company that didnt know I used to be a man... so it sounds way less funny 😬

Fuck this fucking day at work ughhhhh

Its so clarifying to have to go in and help people and kids with like actual intense shit, like kid with a heart thats not working and the parents are sobbing because this is supposed to have been a quick diagnostic heart cath and then their baby is on ECMO. It makes everything else kinda fade into the background.

But fuck I hate being siloed off into the corner and no one can check meds with me or help with weights or movement, Im just on some island and I know what I have to do but I just cant because if some beuarocratic shit - I think Ive had actual nightmares about this.

I don't think we can say much about the natural state of people nor the logical state, and even if poly was we're humans who arent bound by natural or logical state.

I can appreciate monogamy as default as being harmful, I think its a bit overwrought to say that but I get it. As the hegemonic default, a lot is negotiated and more or less thats because people know the script for it - don't cheat on your partner, but what cheating means can be stretchy and culturally coded. Some people think an emotional affair and a smooch is serious, some think it only crosses the line with sex, whatever. That could use some negotiating and communication - but also, dont cheat on your monogamous partner and if you cant, then dont partner uo monogamously. I dont get the harm in 2026 where you cant just sow your wild oats as a single person but everyones making you be monogamous with a partner except you also wanna still hit on other people? That part feels very overwrought. I could definitely see monogamy as an institution be historically harmful and oppressive but get real for today in the hegemonic society - you dont need to be paired up.

I still dont think its a kink nor invasive, I think thats still very silly framing. Its a kink as much as poly is (to me, not at all). Its just a way people have relationships.

Oh poly people can still find ways to cheat, it might sound impossible but they definitely can and have!

Ive dated monogamously and poly, and I think youre joking or whatever but monogamy definitely isnt just a kink you goober

You should do more things that make you feel connected to feminity then! Maybe that'll feel better and less like youre a "larper"

I know plenty of cis and trans women that are dudebro coded, but if you dont want to be. Dont! Experiment with some stuff and see how you feel. You seem to have a good understanding of feminity so pick things that seem feminine coded to you.

You know whats been the shittiest is the transbians I used to hook up with who have told me they dont wanna hook up anymore after I had bottom surgery and now have a vagina. One or two, hey no accounting for taste. Three, wtf transbians

FUCK DOWNTIME AND BEING DOUBLED

Damn this is so much paperwork 😭😭

https://xcancel.com/The_Hellenist/status/2097490170329321679#m

Amazing. This guy has so much anti semetism on his page and then randomly... "women should play tambourine"

Damn, Im having a great time :/

Work has been frustrating but everything else is great! I booked the fun spooky local mega haunted house tickets in my city for October.

Its not a big deal

Happy kirkmas eve to all who celebrate