🎵well, when I was a boy,
my daddy sat me on his knee
and he taught me,
he taught me many things
he said son, theres a lot of things in this world
you're gonna have no use for
and when you get blue
and you've lost all your dreams
there's nothing like a campfire
and a can of beans🎵

I think rosy boas are very cute!

I kinda want to get a snake. I went to a reptile expo and theyre so cute! They fit my current work schedule, Im single, so if it just hangs out and eats like twice a month that works for me.

Ive met a lot of patients who tell me they didn't sleep at all, and I was there all night. They did appear to sleep much more than they actually did - and aside from that, even just resting eyes closed (racing thoughts or no) still counts as at least half sleep. Ive also had the occasional night of no or poor sleep, woke up feeling drunk and still had to work ugh

Obviously, though, this level of anxiety is not tenable for you and you do have to do something about this. You reported similar all last year about your stress level. Like, medication, whatever change you need to make, you can't continue on like this. You said more or less the same 6 or 8 months ago and that it was only "for now" and yet... anyway, you are worthy of being healthy, rested, happy, loved, and not a ball of constant anxiety.

My apartment is finally cool~ and the weather outside is finally cooled off

I can open my windows all day, no more blinds, no more hot cave 🥰

I do think the 2010s was a harsh lesson that art or mass media and social media might be able to diagnose and critique issues, maybe even suggest revolutionary action or hold the viewers hand all the way to thinking what they ought to do - but fall short of actually changing anything.

I liked Digger, I guess I can see the reading that its about the uselessness of cinema/art that satirizes the rich and powerful? Its a little surprising that that seems to be the main big reading.

Tomato soup base, rigatoni, vegan meatballs, basil, mirapoix base, probably some other stuff. Its very yummy!

But if someone wants to identify as a new category thats man-like but low T or castrated man or malen, I wouldnt take it away from them either.

I met a guy who didnt want to be a man but identified as a boy. He was very confident he was not non binary nor a woman nor anything else. Man to him came with too many stakes or too much baggage, or maybe twink death hit him hard decades ago?? I dunno. At the time I thought it was off, personally, I'd be open to hearing more but at the time it made me think of the MAP 4chan thing - this must have been 2018 or so. But he did seem sincere as identifying his gender as "boy"

I think in our social context, broadly western - so apologies if that's not you, most post menopausal women would be a bit offended if one suggested theyre no longer Women (capital W) just because they can't reproduce anymore. I can see the archeology there that sex is way more than just a binary so there could be categories like post menopausal woman (femalen) that exist. But I certainly wouldn't call anyone else that unless they self ID'd as it. The anxiety around low T and demasculinzation to me reads more like patriarchy than anxiety around category confusion (i.e. as if theyre not really Men but some different sex or gender category and that comes with too much baggage in transphobic patriarchal society) - if anything, they are just bog standard men who want to be men hence the fear of losing that because, dubiously, of low T.

I had a girl over, Ive seen her a few times for dates and stuff. She brought soup! We played cod zombies, she'd never done it. She turned to me with complete sincerity and asked "how do I do a headshot" and with all my might I stifled my laughter and said "you shoot them in the head"