chasers
Was alone at the queer club yesterday. I was wearing a cute top, and I kept being approached by men that clearly only talked to me because they wanted to fuck. One of them tried to talk to me three times. I kept walking away from the conversation, and that helped because after a while he gave up. But I were still a couple of moments after that where he was around and I could sense he was debating himself to approach me again. After a while I put on my sweater because I didn't want to deal with this kind of stuff again. What can I do in the future against these types of men?
Sort of related, but I feel a lot of these men are bisexual or homosexual and can't deal with that so they settle for fucking clocky trans women so they can tell themselves they're straight. I'm only half a year into HRT, have a slight receding hairline and a masculine face. If you want to fuck me and are a man, you are not straight.
loneliness
Last night and today I feel very lonely as well. I got attention from these men but they only want to take advantage of me and I crave female attention the most. Not in a sexual way but want to feel like they accept me as a woman. Before that happens I will still feel these dysphoric feelings of being a creep, which I've had my whole life. It's better than before, but those feelings are still very severe. Maybe I talk to my gender therapist about this more.