Closed off pride month just in time by sleeping with a trans micro-celebrity, attending a nice queer party with my friends and then taking my gal pal home for the most intense play sessions we've ever had. Pretty crazy weekend, at some point i actually cried with joy that this is my life now and that i get to meet all these wonderful, amazing people. If somebody would've shown me pics of my dates from last weekend and present-day me 3 years ago in my questioning phase, i would not have believed them that it could be real. But here i am. God, i love being trans, coming out is the best thing i ever did.

i love being a non binary woman!!!

GOD I LOVE BEING WEAPONIZED FOR ISLAMOPHOBIC AND RACIST REASONS I LOVE MY GENDER IDENTITY BEING USED TO JUSTIFY THE DEATHS OF THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE I LOVE RIGHT WING PRICKS ONLY RECOGNIZING MY HALF EXISTING WHEN MY OTHER HALF IS BEING ATTACKED

I’m not far in my transition at all, I started dressing a bit differently but due to medical reasons I can’t bind. Someone called me a young man today though and I didn’t expect it.

I’ve been gender ambiguous before so it’s not really new to me for people to assume I’m a guy but it feels differently now that I know I’m actually trans.

More and more people getting their eggs broken by the bear site

So I don't have cancer

spoiler

Meep meep I used to post here like 1-2yrs ago and now i am back.

Happy to report my tits have DOUBLED IN SIZE since the last time I posted. Progesterone rips, one of the greatest drugs of all time, highly recommend

The trans group chat im in is too lib :(

Happy Disability Pride Month to our disabled comrades!

If you ever need to bully a cis person, you could always say something like, "Nice name... DID YOUR MOM PICK IT OUT FOR YOU??"

I wish I had someone who could just do my makeup for me.
The idea of having to look at myself without it keeps me from doing it at all.

:yea: I really need to actually try girl stuff in real life to move forward. Just thinking about it isn't helping me understand.

I've started E about 40 something days ago, I feel good about it, the mental effects are nice, and I'm seeing some physical effects already which is also good

I'm doing estrogen monotherapy using gel, homemade, and it has been working well as far as I can tell, I haven't gotten any blood work done but I'm planning on it soon

I'm also experimenting with a different form https://stickies.neocities.org/stickies buccal absorb type things, I made some without estrogen and they seem to stick on very well and dissolve slowly, but it's kind of uncomfortable, I don't know if I'd get used to it or not, so not sure whether to make dosed one or not.

Speaking of guides, I'm writing a guide on how to make gel at home, not 100% sure where I should post it when I'm done, but it's gonna be more thorough than anything I found while doing research to make my gel

Last injection post because I can't do this every week but 4TH INJECTION LETS GOOOOO

Had my first face-to-face conversation with my dad after telling him I'm trans and he really wants to remind me a lot of people regret surgeries

I feel like I can only allow myself a certain level of femininity based on how much I think others perceive me as passing.

The idea of people looking at me and seeing a crossdressing dude fills me with a dread I can’t describe.

My gf would probably say I just have really bad dsyohoria and dysmorphia and I’d like to believe that, but I can’t shake the notion that I am fundamentally ugly.

Right now I’m at the slightly fem hair and yoga pants stage, incase you were wondering.

not sure what I like less in cs2: transphobia or a self identified chaser cheering me on

Bbbbbbbbb Celeste turns me into a wistful lil gay baby for some reason, like it's not even that sad so far, Idk why. It must be the ✨ vibes ✨ , but so many things can reduce me to an emotionally melty state, which I guess is what reading too many romance novels does to a mf. Dorky and effusive.

I actually really value this because feeling feelings is fucking awesome gosh I love being trans

life sucks and shit

In honor of current twitter trans discourse:

Asking the doc for some anti-androgens becuase I need to win the battle against my body hair

One weird thing I've learned from talking to cis people, even sympathetic ones, is that so many think trans people are always super visibly trans and you'll always know if you're speaking to a trans person.

Which is ironic because cishets are like the easiest people to stealth mode among. The gays are usually a bit more attentive, and hiding it from other trans people is the super advanced difficulty.

well today has been an absolutely garbage fucking day, but I'm going to make it better by not drinking about it. transitioning isn't just changing my gender, it's about turning myself into someone I want to be, dammit

women....

being a trans woman is fun because using a public restroom runs legitimate threat to your safety and also you have to take pills that make you piss a ton. Fun combo!!!

Bully me for my videogame ineptitude:

I liked it, I thought it was cute and comfy, breddy gud =) I feel kinda weird that the gameplay and story exist almost on seperate planes though...

i've been really feeling myself recently in terms of my physical appearance.

i feel like i've hit a point where the dysphoria days are so much less frequent, and i've really hit my stride in terms of confidence in that department. like, i don't care about passing so not gonna bring that into the equation but damn i'm hot lol

Pride month is over, now it's bride month press the upvote button to instantly become my bride

>tell my wife she is cute

>"My glasses are upstairs if you need them"

Never before has "ur cute" -> "nuh-uh" rhetoric been so brutal...

How'd we almost break 1k comments this week but not last week :o were you all outside touching grass in the real world??

good for youse

FUCK OFF, LEG HAIR. i have soft girl skin now and you and your stubble is ruining the experience

Idk when my sister's wedding is, but I really hope it isn't for awhile. I'm no where near ready to go to one.

Me learning about Stop!! Hibari-kun!:

Wow, the only anime with a transgender girl as a protagonist is from the 80s?! Mangaka are almost always clueless when it comes to gender. Did they somehow independently come up with the concept? Cause it's not like mangaka ever research gender before writing about it... Let's see if anyone asked about it in an interview.

Oh! She's an egg born in the wrong generation. That explains it.

It is almost impossible to find a place to live as a transwoman around here it seems. I write to the places that explicity advertise themselves as "LGBTQ+ friendly" and get consitently ghosted.

Before, when I was an Egg, I would always get replies, my message is the same,excwpt for half a paragraph about me being trans, that I added.

Maybe I will have to boymode to avoid homlessnes.

I miss my gf

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I didn't check in for a few days and you're nearly at 1000??

Spiro has changed my life. My OCD thought patterns have nearly vanished. I can ignore my intrusive thoughts again. I had no idea this would happen, I fully expected Spiro to increase my anxiety. I feel like I have my life back 😭 trying not to get too excited since it's been less than a week but this is the most relief I've had so far.

Was T really fucking with my brain that much? I actually don't believe it. Maybe it's the blood pressure lowering effects?

i swear every laser technician at the place i go to has a completely different technique. some seem much more thorough than others

Everything is so damn difficult

So apparently I'm what's called a vocal underdoer. I've used my voice very little in recent years, which has caused it to get much weaker. Now I need to undo the damage if I want to reach my voice goals.

Negativity

As if regular voice training wasn't hard enough already, now I have to do several voice strengthening excercies on top of that. It's all so overwhelming, wish I could just give up and become mute

I wake up, it's a reasonable time. (Before 10am) I lay around luxuriating and eepin and cuddling my wife until it's not a reasonable time (after 12pm) Pride month has ended, I have earned this eep

Can I stop dreaming about my ex right fuckin now? She was doing an infinite money glitch on an ATM, every dream I have with her in it sucks.

Is there a special reason I was both lucky enough to transition young and cursed enough to have to do it with my first girlfriend, who would turn out to be abusive (in many ways) and also a neurotypical leave my brain you utter sludge, I do not owe you my identity

It's now illegal to be gay again.

Having to shave my armpits and nethers every other day is kind of a pain.
I almost wish I didn't have such an aversion to body hair, then I could do the whole "free the bush" thing and whatever.

ok for the people that have pressed the button to become my wife, you may or may not get a random notification to fight a super villain after I scream "WIVES ASSEMBLE"... just letting you know