hi, does anyone wanna make the mega in the upcoming weeks? if so, reply to this post and i'll add you to the list!

the list as it stands:

Eco* (4/21 - 4/27)
EstraDoll* (4/28 - 5/4)
SadArtemis* (5/5 - 5/11)
yewler* (5/12 - 5/18)
AshenWolf* (5/19 - 5/25)
oscardejarjayes* (5/26 - 6/1)
AshenWolf* (6/2 - 6/8)
PeeNutButtHer (6/9 - 6/15)
GayTuckerCarlson (6/16 - 6/22)

​ * after name denotes someone who has posted before and will be skipped by first-time posters

cw: suicide

I think it's so funny when people here say their voices pass on the phone.

Lmao you losers talk on the phone?? Okay, granny

1 year anniversary of being trans on hexbear.net

edit: come to think of it, i was posting on the trans mega for a couple weeks before making this account. i've been trans on hexbear for a little longer than this

Cried myself to sleep last night, woke up, took meds, ate breakfast, cried myself to sleep on the couch.

Doing pretty great here

How about trans day of invisibility, where no one can see me and I can commit all the crime I want to

they should rename greece to south macedonia and macedonia to north greece

that way no one's happy

fuck im old

Cis people really don't get it do they

i don't want to have to spend my life just fighting to exist but I guess I just don't have that option

the horrors persist but so do i

Wow, it's been a while. Hi traa!

holy fuck i'm two weeks sober now?

it's been years since I've been able to claim that

Being off testosterone is so bad for my mental state yet I can’t afford it. Shit fucking sucks and I hate my life

I miss when the trans mega was booming

I'm actually really worried about the future here in the US, I've got no money/skills so I can't up and move but I really don't want to end up on an RFK ""wellness""farm or in an El Salvadorian prison. It's not looking to good out here for an autistic trans woman

Am I freaking myself out over nothing? Should I be this worried? What can I even do?

I love trans people, I love people who take their self-expression into their own hands and do what makes them happy.

My boobs are finally affecting how my tops drape

okay random as fuck but I saw a tweet which made me think about those MySpace bulletin surveys you used to do back in the day and, being the hoarder that I am, I actually found some that I had saved as text files

and holy shit, one of the first answers slapped me in the fucking face. I won't quote it verbatim on the off-chance that someone has a pre-wipe MySpace database, but it basically reads

LORD SOMEONE GO TELL THIS CHILD THAT TRANS PEOPLE EXIST

that aside, I honestly had no idea I that kind of explicit eggy sentiment that early on. Sure, it's very flippant, but like--that's a weird thing for a cis guy to say, right? Wish I'd kept a diary, but I guess MySpace surveys will have to do

Shaved both my face and body with zero cuts for the first time

Holy shit, so I just randomly ran into a friend from more than a decade ago and caught up a bit and it was really sweet and crazy unlikely and I was a whole ass different person when we were last friends and he was super sweet and positive about it and I have a lot of feelings about it and am kinda overwhelmed

Got a haircut today and omg I love it I love my new bangs I love the deliberate messiness I love the way it frames my face I love the volume that I didn't think my hair could even do I love how it's short but still distinctly femme I love how it looks with my overall fashion I love it I love it I love it, been several hours and I'm still glowing

me after dropping one (1) progesterone pill on the ground and losing it

Mirthlessly laughing because I realised tonight I can't change the gender markers on my birth certificate even though my state in Australia would let me because I was born in a foreign country I don't even have citizenship to, my parents were just working there.

Best I can do is like an update of details certificate.

Oh my god fucking liberals and fucking cis people. I don't have the energy to post details but good lord I'm so frustrated rn

down with the cis

::: spoiler paranoia, dysphoria, transphobia, ableism, and genocide I'm extremely fucking scared right now. i had a nap earlier and there was a dream where my mom went into my room and found out (again) that I'm trans and was scolding me or whatever and i kept waking up and going back to sleep and thinking it was real, I went to sleep before that earlier thinking about what's happening in the USA and stuff and being horrified of the thought of a genocide happening. I'm so tired of my family too, all their transphobia is so tiring, and school too. I have to say nothing every time I'm called by my deadname instead of Sally and not say anything when people call me "sir" or "mr" or "young man" because if I do I'm in danger because of how fucking stupid Texas is. Brother back in March tried to literally gaslight me into thinking I'm not trans, saying "it's probably just an identity crisis" when I've identified as trans for 5 years now, he's the type that thinks you're "vulnerable" and can't decide for yourself if you're neurodivergent or something I think. I just want it to be 2027 or 2028 already so i can escape and be myself, why do I have to go through so much pain just to some day get to a point where I can hopefully be myself?

edit: i accidentally posted this suddenly and it scared tf out of me when i wasn't ready hopefully this is ok to post here though idk I'm an extremely paranoid person about everything

i can get on the waiting list for bottom surgery soon. i could have a pussy in (in the grand scheme of things) not too distant future holy fuck i'm getting chills just thinking about it

EDIT: okay thanks for the "congrats" everyone but i think i should clarify that i haven't even done like, anything at all to prep for this or research anything, this is just me realizing "i could probably start making those phone calls at this point in my transition". didn't mean to state that like, anything really happened to me beyond hitting the 1 year HRT mark, almost

Folx, I think I'm starting to develop a woman's intuition. For the last few days I've been worried that my homebrew estriadol order got cancelled, or fell through the cracks, or I got scammed for some bazingacoins, since I paid for it about a week ago and still haven't gotten a shipment tracking link. I even sent a support ticket asking them what the h*ck is going on. But on the way home, for no reason at all I thought "maybe I'll check the mailbox before going in" (not something I typically do), and lo and behold, it had arrived

My phone autocomplete suggests “gurls” instead of “girls”

Thinking of becoming a piano girly and getting really into classical music because I have no concrete sense of identity.

Oh my god I need to feel more fem/like a woman Hopefully I can do my nails soon I guess. And I'll get access to hrt soon- still worried about actually starting though. So, so worried. Going to go cry myself to sleep. Goodnight mega.

Sorry for wasting everybody's time writing this post. We try and keep it positive but we just don't really care anymore. :::

apologies to all the gay and bi guys i accidentally led on back in my EDM club days

i know things got crosswired because i was high and in femmebrain mode and twunky and probably seemed flirty and basically wasted your entire night

except for that CATO libertarian guy. i'm glad i wasted your night

That’s a weird looking fruit.

this is my second week taking injections instead of drops. much preferable. never going back.