drugs, quitting weed, it's good news!
Quitting weed has genuinely been really easy lol. This is the second time I've quit weed, last time I had a terrible evil strain that gave me a panic attack every time I smoked. I stayed off it for six months, then picked it up again. Had fun for a while, quickly became addicted again, then realised I wasn't getting much out of it. The highs were shorter and less intense, and just not much fun. Weed is an expensive and unhealthy vice, so if I'm consuming I at least want to enjoy it.
I'm loving waking up in the morning and not feeling sick. I'm loving the time I have in a day that isn't just voided by the weed. If I want to drive anywhere, I can do it at any time of the day, because I'm sober. I don't feel the desire to stuff my face with food that I don't even really taste. It's been pretty instant, the way my lifestyle has felt so much healthier.
I had some cravings last night, but really thought about it. Getting a bit stoned didn't appeal to me since I knew it wouldn't last long, and getting really high didn't appeal much to me either because I'm bored of that and it feels like a waste of time. So I just ended up playing Pokemon Showdown instead, and now I've woken up in a great mood.

I've been working through this in my head recently. I feel such a need to be seen as useful by a society that would have me ground down to nothing for the sake of profit. Even as much as I hate capitalism, I don't want to lose the game of capitalism and not be a good worker drone. Working makes me feel like less of a human.