I didn't think I had, but I've heard "KILL A FUCKING ENGLISHMAN AND THROW HIM IN THE SEA" so many times. Kyle Gordon is so fucking funny

I gymmed today and ate pretty good. Had a cousin's wedding this weekend and didn't go crazy on the alcohol. I've realised that compared to most Irish people I have fantastic restraint when it comes to drinking, specifically knowing when to stop.

One time my eye was itchy and I came so close to scratching it with the blade of the knife I was holding

The moss will win, in the end. We can only delay the return to moss

Oh my god I was at my cousin's wedding yesterday and his groomsmen were fucking HOT. Goddamn they were some pretty boys

I will be able to occasionally yearn at them from across the room tonight for the day 2

Every time I'm at a family gathering, I realize that every single member of my family has independently diagnosed me with autism. They have all arrived at this conclusion on their own, all converging on one possibility. I'm like the carcinisation of autism

This confirms that Johnny is the strongest Jojo

Is the anti-war movement in USA just non-existent now? They've been at war for ages with Iran and not a peep from the liberals. They truly love imperialism

The overwhel majority of liberal don't even turn up to these pathetic "protests". What they do is get mad on the Internet, mostly at leftists, and then go watch Harry Potter again.

Did not know this was a thing holy fuck, I thought I just walked like that for no real reason

Yes. I've quit multiple times, in other words, I decided that I wasn't enjoying being high at all. This has ended up in me quitting for about six months until I decide I want to try again, at which point I immediately become addicted again.

I've quit cold turkey twice. Honestly, it was far easier than I expected. I soon came to love how much more free time I felt like I had. When I get high, that's just dead time, I can't do anything that feels important. I got to work towards my creative and physical goals in my spare time.

The cravings were strange. I didn't particularly want to get high, I wanted the routine of coming home from work and getting high. The first few days, I wanted to smoke just because that's what I had been doing for the past few months. After that, I tried to find something better to do with my time. I remembered I have hobbies and friends. The cravings appeared every now and then, sometimes for about a week.

The way I got through my cravings was exercise. Its insane how good exercise can feel. I always, 100% of the time, leave the gym feeling great. The only times anything is lacking is when I feel I could have done more, but that means that my capacity is increasing. The other day, I was showering after hitting a PB on the treadmill, and realised I hadn't felt this good in years. Exercise is a phenomenal way to manipulate the chemicals in your brain, and so much healthier than weed. Healthy eating also works a treat, though I find that much harder.

In terms of dreams, first of all, I also started to have much more vivid dreams after quitting. I can't remember a single dream I had when I was using. For some reason, a lot of my dreams revolve around smoking cigarettes? Which is really weird, because I hate cigarettes.

As for being weepy, your body probably has no idea what chemicals to produce. For me, whenever I go off my sertraline for a few days I get very weepy and easily upset, much more so than before I ever started them. I think its just the body reacting weirdly to not having the chemicals it expects.

Thanks I feel I'm in a much better place than I was a year ago