I dont post in these megas often but...

Today is my hrt removedversary. Gonna get all dolled up in a cute dress and put on some makeup and put some bows and flowers in my hair and then not go outside at all. I'll be staying in with my dear woof and watching some anime :33333 .

"Relationships with parents can be difficult, but mine aren't that bad, they tried to make me detransition and almost murdered me, but it could be worse "

this is like half of the trans people I know and it makes me concerned

Got my first femme haircut yesterday afternoon, and I'm having intense gender feels from it

Going from dating as a cishet man to a trans lesbian is both a blessing and a curse

The relationships are so much better but holy shit it's so much harder to just get a date

Not sure if it actually has to do with being trans but it's so painful to my self esteem

When I hope trans mega posters will support me doing risky behavior, but they instead insist that my behavior is risky (fine, i will get my ears pierced at a studio instead of doing it in my bathroom)

I came out to my mom, the last person I really cared to tell. And I mean on the bright side it could have been significantly worse. She told me she loved me and was sorry I was going it alone for so long, and suspected a conversation like this would happen eventually. She thought I might be gay and was waiting on me to tell her. Butttttttttt then I told her my name and pronouns and if she would have told me it was a cute name, I would have cried some good solid happy tears. But she didn't. She said "I'm not sure I'd be able to use that yet. You'll have to give me time." Which to me reads like that's never going to happen.

HEV suit that administers estrogen when your HP gets too low

Hello trans thread, I have been in a three month depression hole because I got unlawfully fired. I had to move out of my apartment because my unemployment isn't enough to cover it. I am fortunate enough to be living with my partner. I also ran out of my medications, which has been even worse for my mind and caused me to go through withdrawals. Today is the first day in three months that I am going to bother to dress well or wear makeup, because spite is simply the most powerful motivator I have ever known. Death to America and death to all fascists.

thinking i might need to for a little while, all the news about trump is making me super anxious and im adjusting my anxiety meds rn lol

I'm terrified of being a bad person on the inside and it makes it so hard to let the real me out of the cage I've built for her

i think the fact i managed to mostly keep up femme voice while deeply crying during therapy means that i'm fucking crushing it out here

decided to delete xiaohongshu. it's a neat app, and i'm glad people are having a nice time with it... i just realised pretty quickly that for me personally, it's gonna fill the same niche as a tiktok or twitter i.e. being a net negative for my mental health. especially BDD and general envy of other people which can fester into self-hatred. as well as having to see bigoted comments with much more frequency than a space like hexbear, of course. it's a problem i've found with all image-heavy, non-anonymous social media, and i think just cutting it out is the self-care move for me.

I thought this site was actually purged of this, but no... We still have a bunch of fuckers running around calling people AMAB'S and AFAB's for zero reason and refusing to acknowledge that their langue is harmful. They use AMAB as a noun literally as just a "woke" replacement for "biological male" when using any other kind of langue would have sufficed. ACTUALLY would rather just be called slurs on this website than that shit.

^ me

also bought a nice bra today and i'm a B cup now, that's pretty cool

Came out to another friend and had a great 2 hour conversation catching up. And this morning my partner sent me a very risque selfie and many positive affirmations. I wish for all of my trans comrades to experience this amount of love all the time

Planned Parenthood is trying to claim I'm 2 inches taller than I was BEFORE I started HRT. There's absolutely no way I'm that tall and I'm calling BS

EDIT: measured again at home, i'm exactly as tall as i thought i was, PP is wrong

I love my trans comrades

autistic marxist leninist bottoms be like: "oh my god someone please tell me what the fuck to do" and it's me i'm autistic marxist leninist bottoms

The struggle for trans lives is a struggle we can win, we must win, and we will win.

Stay alive ♡

Something nice happened today. I was out with a few friends and this random ass dude just comes up to us and starts taking part in our conversation like it's the most natural thing in the world. That's okay I guess but he starts to say some borderline bigoted stuff that definitely does not pass the vibe check.

I was about to head home anyway so I decide to just leave because I don't want to listen to it. I didn't really expect anyone to care or notice and just planned to head home, but after like 20 seconds my friends just left that guy and hurried to catch up to me. In hindsight it was kinda obvious they would do that rather than hang out with some creepy stranger, but in the moment it genuinely meant a lot to me, like seeing that these people actually notice me and care about me was such a comforting experience.

Just shaved and I think this is the best I have ever looked. Honestly really surprised with just how far I've come along! Comparing new photos to old ones is like looking at a new person

im scared, a lot

i dont like being scared

Wtf is this bullshit. Why do I have to go to work? Why can't I just be cute, snuggle up to someone and be called pet names?

I went to a trans support group this week

Took a friend and my roommate was already a regular so I wasn't alone which was really nice. I mainly went to help my friend cuz it seems like she really needed to find some kind of community, but I enjoyed it a lot as well. I didn't say much since I'm naturally super shy in new groups. Definitely wanna go back.

i am so tired of being an independent adult i absolutely need an authority figure to tenderly take care of and pamper me

up with trans

got banned from news@lemmy.world like an hour after banning a .world mod for transphobia. (link)

not using !news@lemmy.world is probably for the best, from a self care standpoint anyways.

society if HRT made you look sort of like your mom instead of sort of like your dad if he transitioned 45 years ago

I've hit the first day on E where I feel the need to top instead of being a pillow princess

Behold, my 1000th comment!

So finally, a decade after cracking my egg and 5 years of HRT, I’m going to legally change my name and sex. But oh boy is this giving me a headache. Just so much bureaucratic bullshit I have to wade through and navigate.

My nerves are completely done because of this and fucking RIP my sleeping schedule

But when this Herculean task is over, I’m going to enjoy some nice teas that I ordered recently: A really fancy sheng pu-erh from 2007, some tea that is supposedly from the 80s and another one from the 70s, so over 50 years old.

I also got myself a nice light-blue celadon teacup that I can use together with my pink gaiwan and my white gong dao bei on top of my ebony tea tray. Perfect set-up to celebrate this special occasion.

Cursed bit idea: “trans broken arm syndrome” but it’s where the republicans ban medical treatment for broken arms because some of the people utilizing it happen to be trans

hii im new here! excited to meet new peeps ^^

been kind of missing reddit lately despite how terrible it actually is.. aand so far hexbear is looking like only the bits of reddit i actually enjoyed, so that's pleasant :D

anyway i just injected my 90th estradiol dose, its weird, it really does feel like i started it yesterday

society if HRT made you look like ur favorite anime girl instead of your mom

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Hi transgender people on the internet I love you

my doctor: please take the medicine that gives u periods, pls u have pcos and it can't be treated any other way

me: hehe no period and facial hair go brrrr

when she says that trains are her hyperfixation

We weren't just at capacity today, we weren't just at surge capacity today, we were over surge capacity and it didn't let up. This isn't sustainable. I don't know what they're going to do, we have to turn these sick kids away. Even the emergency appys, I'm sorry it's a patient safety issue. We don't have the staff and we're running out of literal beds. They have to get moved to another hospital

It's been a frustrating few days, never let up once. Understaffed, way too many kids, support has been pretty nil, fuck. We're probably going on strike by March. Dunno what the fuck is gonna happen.

I think I'm letting go of the idea that I'm going to have a good relationship with my parents someday. I've been starting to feel secure enough in other areas of my life that I think I can face that.

I had assumed I was going to see at least a flash of compassion this week, but it just hasn't been there. That really made me rethink the other assumptions I was making.

me when i enter a "not doing okay at all rn" competition and i'm winning

the very same government that refuses to recognize me as a woman also recognises Denali as Mt. Cracker and just unilaterally named an entire sea after itself. These guys sound deeply confused