late night posting
Can't fall asleep for anything right now. Took a nap too late I guess. Also brain is just looping through all the bad thoughts. I remember someone describing to me or reading about how your brain focuses on a problem until a solution is found, and when it can't it just kinda fucks you like this. Anyway that's what's happening, that's what's been happening.
Hopefully tomorrow I can disassocite again and forget about how much I hate this and how horrible everything is and how I'll never be happy and how I'm ruined. But I'm actually pretty cooked on not being able to sleep.