CW: dysphoria, family, transphobia, religion
Man, having to performatively boymode for the family (not out to any of them) for Christmas is already wearing me down, and I haven't even left town (they came for my commencement yesterday, and are going back today). Not doing makeup really sucks. I do want to spend time with my siblings, but I may have to figure out an excuse to duck town earlier than I hoped. I am glad that my adult sister isn't coming home until after Christmas: she's tolerable and can even be sweet sometimes 1-on-1 but is a nightmare when we're with the broader family. I know it has to do with her own stresses/anxiety towards our parents, but she ruined Christmas dinner for me last year by going off on transphobic rants so it's hard for me to sympathize.
It also sucks because I've wanted to make the family watch Tokyo Godfathers for years, but it was never accessible on their streaming apps. This year, it's on Amazon Prime but with the climate I think it would cause a fight with my dad (and maybe even mom) who would accuse it of "confusing/corrupting" children. It would be a good way to test the waters and gauge the family's reaction, but I don't want to get in a fight.
Also not looking forward to getting dragged to church (of the "non-denom" evangelical variety). Would be another reason to skedaddle early to at least cut down the number of that experience.