New boss has been they/themming me a lot (and maybe even he'd just a bit ago, though she "corrected" to they swiftly). I don't think I've ever referred to myself that way to her, and I've got she/her on my pin and my email signature... Maybe it's because her other direct report is nonbinary so she's got the neural pathways for that set up? prob gonna talk to the nb about it and see what they think
Was taking about all this with my therapist this evening and realized it probably was probably a bigger deal than I thought... yippee
Ty btw
It was the best decision at that point but would've been better just to order the dang meds on time 
Breaking: idiot girl realizes that halving her ssri dose for a week to make it to the next shipment might have something to do with why she feels so sad
Tbf those two names ain't exactly siblings
Can you have C-PTSD for things that weren't really that bad, all things considered?
confused childhood issues
Living with my then-stepmom from around 11 to 14 was pretty stressful at times. I didn't know anyone in the town she lived in so I just stayed in the house on a laptop when I had to go there every other weekend. I was younger than my new step siblings by several years and couldn't really connect well, especially because I was so awkward. Two of them were nice enough but the third was pretty belligerent and abrasive so I tried to avoid him.
One time the stepmom didn't talk to me unless absolutely necessary for like a week. She and my dad had me and my siblings talk to this guy that I figured was a therapist and so I could be honest with him? But apparently he wasn't and told everything I said to them and she got angry that I, as a ~12 year old, wasn't being communicative enough.
I got a phone in like 4th grade because I was taking the train to get to their house. One time the "family" dog (didn't really feel like my dog because I could only see him on occasion and couldn't take him anywhere) snapped at my stepsister's face and I texted my mom about being scared. My dad and the stepmom went through my phone without me knowing and sat me down to basically tell me not to be so dramatic when talking to my mom about such things. To be fair I had been a little hyperbolic but it was scary to me.
I was also a picky eater, I think chiefly due to sensory issues. The stepmom cooked much more diverse fare than I was used to which made me dread dinnertime because I knew she'd be watching. One of the compromises was that I would eat raw spinach instead of whatever salad or vegetable had been prepared (couldn't do salad because the dressings and vinaigrettes disgusted me). I ate so much raw spinach that I can't really have it anymore. Made my teeth all squeaky too.
Sometimes it got bad enough that I would just skip meals altogether to not have to deal with the rigamarole. Usually I would offset by squirreling a bunch of pretzels from the pantry to eat while in my room. Other times I would eat nothing at all out of spite. I think I went like 36 hours without eating there once?
None of these things really seem that bad, such to the point that I feel a little sheepish posting about this because it seems so tame. But I was always a sensitive kid so maybe I'm just susceptible to even mild "trauma"
didn't have the best time last night. Was supposed to look through a bunch of pictures my brother took of me to find the best ones for him to edit but almost broke down crying in the process. Ended up pawning the job off to a friend which is a big relief
The really wild thing is the docks don't even seen that dire. To say nothing of "dire dire" have you heard the music it's so chill!
Heaetbreaking: girl goes grocery shopping but has one earbud in and the cashier is soft spoken so she can't tell if he said "ma'am" or "man"
God it was probably man. He was too young and casual looking to be saying ma'am...
Nathan J Robinson ahh fit

This but unironically. But like in general not about her specifically
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I will also take the gentle yet firm and still painful, "'I'm doing this for your own good/because you deserve it" approach
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