Started prog recently, shit has fucked me up ;-; . Been spending a bunch of time jsut feeling like shit and depressed, crying in bed for hours. It sucks. When do I get used to this shit so it isn't so mentally turbulent

When I started estrogen, I was crying a lot because it was like a mental barrier was lifted and repressed emotions could just flow out. It made me able to cry at like, anything, at romance movies, at sad moments in video games, at silly cat pictures. It was cathartic.

This is just like someone put my emotions into a jar and shook it before smashing it on the ground uaaaagggggghhhh ;-;

My tits are actually pretty big now, I'm just so tall and my ribcage is so big and stuff that I feel like they still look pretty small

One of the things Im most looking forward to after bottom surgery is not having to tuck anymore. I tuck all day for these cretins and NOT ONCE has ANYONE ever said "wow I can barely tell you have a penis Terminal, great job" 🙄

My pink areas on da boobs (idk wtf you call them) have been, swelling and shrinking dramatically depending on the temperature and I'm scared.

Also, I'm wearing a black trench coat that my dad used to wear, have ear length (black) hair and black shoes (no laces or velcro, those slip on types). It's kinda crazy how going on HRT has made me care way more about dressing nicely and grooming myself. And as a result, I now look like a stylised military officer. I just need boots to ~~stamp on the human face for an eternity~~ complete the look.

maybe I'm crazy but I didn't think the

Today has been much, much better then the last few days/week has been. Nothing too special happened, just feeling more normal I guess. Did get to see a friend for a few minutes at work which was nice. I know I'm not supposed to apologize but sorry if I worried anyone. Thank you for all the supportive messages.

my coworkers randomly brought up la riots today. had to hide my power level, like fym "it doesn't help their cause" be so fr rn we're in the fucking middle east what cause.

celebrating my tranniversary by buying some winter clothes after work because holy shit i'm so cold. can't believe estrogen is making me re-evaluate my favourite season smh