After a year, doing my estrogen injections are just a normal, mildly annoying part of life, and not super exciting like they used to be. I know it was bound to happen at some point, but still a bit sad. On the other hand, there's something nice about feeling it's a natural part of life too, like it's just who I am and that's just normal, not weird or exciting.

I have to start finding a replacement for my HRT soon, I only have enough to last the month... but theres so much fucking work to do fucking gah

mmmm....

long hair on back of neck feels nice :)

Had to get some government stuff updated.

Thank god this trans guy is here to get my stuff squared away, every time I gotta do something government for my gender or name it's always like pulling teeth and "eh I dunno if we can do that..." until eventually I get someone who half asses it and I have to get whatever else fixed. Also, used my pronouns right keep on rocking 👍

What if instead of hexbear it was hexcare for your trans comrades?

spoiler

Came out to a friend I haven't seen in a year last night. He asks, "What about your gender presentation/expression? You look the same as always." I want to be gracious, and I know he's just trying to be supportive and take an interest in my life, but the interview was kinda tough.

hello

::: spoiler my own maladaptive processes

I hate my brain sometimes. I tried to express to someone who called me pretty that they were also attractive and was hit with overwhelming waves of feeling predatory for even finding someone attractive. I hate my brain. Idk if i even want to fuck this person, i think i just want to be their friend, but i still feel predatory for even finding them attractive in the first place, let alone that i expressed that to them.

I hate my internalized transphobia.

Reminder to join our group chat :D We had a name change

https://matrix.to/#/#tracha:transfem.dev

Hello dears I love you all so much. Thank you for helping me find my true self and for helping me learn how to live my life for me, fearlessly, happy at last. ❤️

Just saw on xhs that some trans women in china use 🍥 as a trans symbol because of the packaging a lot of them get their E in.

This is so cute I love it, no notes.

Why are cigarettes deathly unhealthy when they're such a vibe?

It’s hard to scroll and watch reality tv when it’s in a foreign language

Managed to fix my sleep schedule, then I woke up in the middle of the night from a nightmare and couldn't sleep and now it's fucked again

Back on the mones, hopefully no more interruptions now that I've got my jizz frozen

i wish bean bags were good

i am running out of room on my bed for more plushies and it is A Problem.

Drinkin' gay baby juice

This shit ain't nothing to me man

When can I expect the increase in my emotional range now that I've got some estrogen flowing through me? Please don't tell me it depends like everything else 😭

Also lots of very feelings today

Microplastics fuck with your hormones so I think it's fair to say everyone on Earth is on HRT

my meds are here! now i can go back to being anxious about... everything else

When I said I wanted ED this is not what I meant

I'm still thinking about what I'm going to be doing shortly after I'm done the 2 year return to service agreement up here in my home town

Long term, I do want to get something called an NP (masters degree, nurse practitioner, you get to prescribe with doctors supervision, they end up taking on a lot of care on more remote and rural areas cause we just don't have enough family GPs so it's like an NP is in town and a GP helps remotely that one and a few others). I do want to get into family medicine - it's a specific stream: neonate, family, adults - and I was hoping to focus on trans healthcare in particular up here where there is literally none. The closest is a 5 hour drive and he's retiring in short order but holding on purely for his trans patients...

I think I'd need some mental health nursing practice hours for my long term interests. When we did mental health in nursing school, it was really hard - I ended up identifying a lot with the patients and I'd get pissed we didn't let them smoke when they wanted or let them roam a little more freely, I even yelled at the nursing staff about it lol. I'm not looking forward to inpatient mental health care but I don't know what else to do, I still have like 8 months to think about it and look anyway. Otherwise, I could just keep working with kids. Pediatrics emergency, pediatrics ICU, maybe public health (lots of vaccinations and well baby visits etc).

ff

hate it when the site calls me out

Yelled at my boss about patient care stuff (boring beaurocratic stuff, she's making exceptions to our off service adult patients and it keeps being a problem when she's not around because of it). That was cool