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the hrt squad is here to hormone you up

i'm really proud of these those wings are fabulous

the thinky bit of my brain: we really have to water the plants today. look how sad they are

the doing stuff part of my brain: no lol

Since rats can give out distress calls to which other rats respond, what happens when a trapped rat gives out a distress call only for no other rat to respond? Does the rat go insane? Depressed? Panicked? Maybe the rat should be subjected to repeated bouts of distress without assistance. What would the long term effect on the rat's behaviour be?

Can't sleep, feeling bad. Anxiety through the roof, slight fever, mystery shoulder injury acting up again. I know things will be ok and get better, but I'm running out of patience I guess.

(everything's fine, I'll be fine)

hi once again not sure where to ask this but whats up with all the frontpage quotes being hexbear self-hate? Is it just an ironic bit?

youtubers will be like "ad revenue was so low last video" and itll be a 7 minute video that made 3 thousand us dollars

are we for real

My hair feels so nice after a shower

spoiler Talks about weird feelings and stuff .....I wouldnt call it depression. No worries theres a lot of stuff I enjoy.

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Realistically, nothing is going to change in any major way, and I'm indifferent to that realization. I think I'm content. It's like sitting by a window and watching the world pass by. I enjoy watching the world pass by. I'm a silent observer. I might play a role, but only as part of the audience. I'm faceless, yet always watching. At this point, I'm not even sure if I truly want to be seen. Yet

I don't understand myself. My desires, my feelings. I feel detached from my inner self.

I can observe everything except the observer.

Leaving work today I expected to end up crying in bed. But I soldiered on over to my voice training appointment...

It turned out to really lift my spirits!! Start was a little harrowing as I tried to learn some new techniques and I was struggling with some jaw tensions. But the speech therapist had this massage technique she used and taught me that really helped. After that I got better at the exercises and even started feeling like my control of my voice was improving. It was really nice to feel like I'm progressing (and to receive praise for that)

Just took HRT for the first time!

my tradition for halloween has been to go to the mountains and gaze at the peaks... but this year I might go more local. The trees are finally looking quite good

My second transphobia

First one is my adoptive """"mom"""" ranting about me but saying nothing to my face like the utter coward she is. She can go fuck herself, ideally with one of those wire brush drill attachments.

Asshat: "What's your name?" Me: "Viktoria" Asshat: "But that's a GIRL'S name!"

At this point I immediately knew what I was dealing with.

Me: (Deadpan) "Yes." Asshat: "But what's your REAL name?"

Evidently he must've realized the dress and sports bra stuffed with torn up t-shirts wasn't a costume.

Cue the guy repeating that. Ideally I would've hit back with something incredibly snarky but I didn't want to irritate one of the people organizing the halloween party. (Yes I know, I committed one of Mao's deadly liberalisms.)

But I did later get one snarky comment in!

Accidentally ended up sitting across from him during lunch. I could tell I was making him uncomfortable, so:

Me: (Snarky and "Playful") "Am I making you uncomfortable?"

He shook his head, but that was a bold faced lie.

Not really "fun" but I was able to automate something at work, finally. Which felt good and productive. I'll probably tell my boss when he gets back... After the project is done. Probably at least 3 hours of time saved this week, plus whatever this task is reoccurring. Nothing huge but still something I'd have had to do by hand that I don't have to.

buys another set of nonsense with a heart shaped loop or hole

The feeling of being one year into my second puberty

Ack. I’ve entered the despair zone.

i'm borrowing a sewing machine at the moment and i have adjusted so many (thrifted) clothes! i used to like sewing with my mum when i was a kid but i haven't done it in years, so i had to watch some tutorials and practice a little first.

cw: body shape talk

mostly my issue is that my shoulders are wide for a woman so i have to go up a few sizes to get a good fit. then it's just all too baggy everywhere else. so i've been pinning, sewing, cutting, and overlocking into more of a bell shape to get rid of the bagginess in the middle. and i also get to make my hips look bigger as a freebie.

i think i've done 3 waistbands, 4 tees, 1 hoodie, 2 jumpers so far. i tried to do a blouse but it looked off so i've seamripped it and will try again. the blouse originally had shoulder pads (but it was cheap!) so i think i might have to take the entire thing apart in order to get rid of the extra material from the shoulders after removing the pads. i've also got two coats i'd like to adjust but that's way more complicated and i think it may be beyond what i can do right now.

def my biggest success has been a chunky kit jumper. you are absolutely not meant to ever cut knitwear bc each section (sleeves and body) is made from a single thread of yarn so the whole thing will just unravel. but i did it anyway. i used a really tight (~1mm x ~5mm) zigzag, overlocked the shit out of it, overlocked the shit out of it again, pressed the seam so it sits flush, and the new edge is actually fully stable. i've worn it and washed it and tried to mess it up but it's just good. even my mum's impressed.

Imagining myself picking up one of my headmates by her collar and dragging her to the room™ full of plushies when she gets too mean to us