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Well, it’s been two months and not a single person got my ‘trans broken arm syndrome’ cosplay. I had to give up on the idea, and I had my cast taken off. 0/10 that was not worth it at all. I picked the wrong bit to fully commit to realism. At least my insurance covers costumes and costume designers.

I dont know what to say but tryna interact more with people to get out of my depressive overwhelmed head so hii:3

Put the water into the body

It comes out of the body

Now you need more water in your body

Tragic cycle of meaningless suffering

I don't spend as much time here as I used to, but I wanted to tell you all that I love you. This mega is the best place on the entire internet, and you all are the reason. I'll probably come back and read every now and then, but for now, I really need to focus on building community in person. I love you all so much and you will always be a part of who I've become.

Family is finally fucking gone! Have the house to myself. Think I'm going to partake for the first time in a year, hope I don't get too paranoid

Using photos of real corpses for your game for no reason

Least unhinged anti-communist

I've only been going by my new name for a couple weeks and it already makes me sad when I have to put in my old one (I guess it's my deadname, really) in for official legally stuff. Bleh

damn i’m lowkey cute

there's a foam factory nearby and i was able to get a foam sheet for cheap so i can learn how to build and carve my very own fursuit head

The move date is getting ever closer

I have a date scheduled for my driving test too. Just have to practice a bit to make sure I'm comfortable with driving and I'll be a car driving gay soon hopefully

Dysphoric baby trans women accept that people will find them attractive challenge (impossible)

Is this euphoria?

I don't post here much, and well on hb much lately. I identify as agender/demi depending on the day. I also identify as I guess aceflux? I am like 99% sure I'm ace but I float between vanilla asexual, and demisexual, and I guess a few others, depending on the day.

But here goes. I've been trying to dress a bit more androgynous lately. I've been painting my nails more lately and am playing around with some gender-neutral accessories. I have big ass pork chop sideburns and a mohawk currently. So I guess the big thing is when people notice my nails. But anywho, I was at a gas station last week, wearing what I usually wear lately. Mostly masc but a touch of fem. The gas station cashier sort of gave me shit over my outfit. I don't think he was intentionally meaning to be rude but he was like "so, is that your 'style'?"

I thought about it at the bar later the whole time and I think my conclusion is that I guess I'm not fully passing as a male? I thought about it again on the drive home from the bar and a wave of emotions came over me. Like for a brief moment, I just felt like "me" which I never really do unless I'm home alone just chilling.

I might be overthinking this tho. Idk.

hallos:3

I have a girlfriend now after spending a few nights with my friend More details will surely follow after I stop being so busy

Women not avoiding me in public spaces has got to be a sign that I'm at least like ... 10% passing now, right?

Odyssey was fun, Elliot Page was a great cast actually especially his one super key scene.

Matt Damon for real said "our bronze age is collapsing" because of the sea people, bit on the nose lol

How to soft launch girlmoding to my friends

God do I even wanna girl mode around them. I don't want to boymode either. I want it to be cold and wear hoodies and shit

Yay happy cakeday to the account I made when I properly knew I was trans (still took some time to do anything lol)

prog time prog time prog time

Fucking Christ the stupid ass local warlord just executed my son for distributing anti monarchical literature even though none of us can read

Fucking shit the local warlord just double taxed my grain after he failed to protect my storage from bandits

Brother cancelled on dinner plans Tuesday

Mom rescheduled shoe shopping twice

Tonight's date rescheduled

Haven't heard from the friend I'm supposed to hang out with tomorrow

Not beating the lonely girl allegations

Spending a whole day girlmoding makes me kinda scared. This is all so real. Reminds me of when I first made the descision to inject hormones. I was scared out of my mind. But look at it now, it's a routine.

My gf sent me a voice message that was so sweet it made me cry
I sent her pictures of me practicing shibari on myself

(except we are basically the same: eternally horny but also very sweet to each other)

i am two point five weeks into antidepressants and do not feel great

Happiness

I was looking for a job and then I found a job

The heavens know I'm miserable now ...

Holy shit I feel awful. I just want this shit over. I am really, completely sick of suffering like this. I don't care to go through any more of this. I do not care what is on the other side of this. I don't want "normal" in 3 years or whatever. I want the pain to stop right now.

As a service dog, I think if someone told me to "mush" I would do it no questions asked

insane refresh pull

i need more cute dresses

Some moments I feel like being trans is one of the most normal things. Are you ever so satisfied with your gender and sex that you remember you're trans and think "So what if I'm trans?" You aren't defensive or dismissive about others judgements, and you aren't judging it either. It just is. The fact that your trans simply exists and no one in the moment is making a single deal about it.

Because I only sometimes feel like that, I occasionally wonder if I have internalized brainworms about the concept of being trans that make me feel dysphoric at other times.

I mostly keep the fact that I'm trans a secret among close friends because the less of a deal is made about it the more at peace I feel with my gender.

This is not a suggestion for how you guys should live. It's just how I personally exist.

As it turns out the people on hinge are kinda digging a silly little girl such as myself. Shit is like ivermectin to my worms maybe I do have something going on