They retired shortly after the missed appointment, and I'll never be able to ask them. I've been wondering about what their reasons are everyday since.

Context is they're very old, love going out to the middle of nowhere and laying down to feel vibrations in the ground. They're only afraid of their death hurting people around them, so if they're not dying fighting for social justice, they'll live out their life to their oldest age.

If you also aren't afraid to die, could you please explain to me how? I want answers even if it's from other people.

They don't have to be that enlightening. They can be kinda dumb, pleasant and laid back, heavy... I'm looking for a spectrum.

Rap songs purely about poorshaming, partying, and being hypersexual are feeling stale.

For me, it's occasionally coming up when I listen to comedians. A year back I also heard a story about a white person who grew up poor, became financially stable with a good job, and then punched down and started calling other white people "white trash."

To me it's obvious this is poor-shaming. But I have a feeling it's far more complex than that. I'm not even white and I feel degraded whenever I come across those words. I barely know what it means, but it breaks my heart anyways to hear.

They're a very old white person, and they will never stop watching race conspiracies in mainstream US news. So there's no use in trying to change things right?

I wish I could sit at the dinner table with the rest of my partner's family without this hyper-racist person sitting with us. I've once cried myself to sleep for three nights straight after a dinner. What this person said was bad enough that I would've preferred they called me a slur instead.

They specifically asked my partner if they were a insert my race-sympathizer. As if to be my race is to be the same as a Nazi, and that its weird to have sympathy for people of my race. No one counts my race as white, btw. My people also have some socialist history so they might automatically suspect communist relation with every insert my race person they meet. They read a Nazi magazine disguised as normal news, so I think they think communists are a threat worse than Nazis.

I know a red flag is boundary-stepping over sexual and physical boundaries. Because that's called grooming. And that if I'm uncomfortable don't give them grace to stop by themselves, stand your ground immediately and leave the situation. Always say no, and literally run away if I have to.

Another red flag is if they buy you gifts without you asking, and they start saying you owe them favors for these gifts you didn't even ask for. It can escalate to many things like staying when they're do something abusive because they say you owe them anything they state you do. Sex has been demanded of me this way when I refused to have sex. So leave at once if this starts.

Is there anything you would add to this?

I am not famous and this is not a crisis. I've simply wondered about this for years. Especially after hearing one of my favorite celebrities, who really helped me with their art, had gone into psychosis and left the public eye for months. I don't care where this person specifically went, I'm curious what sort of facilities and resources the mega rich, mega famous generally turn to. How could one safely run a facility for them in a way where they can still be around the company of other patients?

I don't think they can go to a normal one where the lower class could out all their shit to the celebrity gossip industry for cash. You can't possibly relax when every other patient could destroy your life by airing your private issues. Maybe for the rest of their lives for petty reasons. Like them just trying to seem more interesting to other people by talking about having seen/talked to a famous person.

I'm from the US.

Dont worry. I'm not sick. But this link could eventually come in handy for my non covid-conscious peers.

(Same details as my last post, but with a different question in the title because getting responses about how people get through bullying was the point. Last title is too specific.)

I'm curious to know even if your way isn't what I'm trying.

It's awful to get dehumanized when you're the most down.

I have found that my way through this will be grief instead of anger. Anger is okay, but it can be left at the point of my initial response. Grief is a way of loving, and I am trying to love myself through this hurt. I want to explore this hurt. But I'm not really sure how.

Thankfully the main person I have in mind while writing this is gone from my life, so I don't need to hold onto anger so much.

I think this tends to happen when people move away from their homeland and raise their kids elsewhere. Especially if your parents are committed to Americanizing. I'm not sure how else to understand them not teaching me so much basic stuff about the biggest holidays of my culture. Like New Years related things, for example. It makes me sad that I celebrated half of only some holidays.

Honestly maybe it's because they were poor. I will ask them about this. Poverty probably changed what traditions they practiced.

Okay I feel so stupid, I only just realized feminine people wear scarves over their heads because it's hot where their place of origin is. I knew that about religious people, but I didnt know why women in India and parts of Africa do. Someone please help me spot other common patterns in terms of clothing. Even culture in general, like some desert cultures discouraging eating shellfish because it spoils too easily in the heat.