I know killing myself by trying to starve myself is slow and gives me too much of a chance to chicken out. But it'd still be a fitting way to die given just how much I fucking hate the fact that I have to eat food and love eating food.

That time when I was starving myself I felt better than ever. Like I was finally doing something right. Only reason I stopped is cause I convinced myself that dying wasn't worth it. Even still, there was a huge part of me that just didn't want to resume eating.

:::

Kinda expensive but good

And they're super easy to make since you just roast them or fry them and they're good both savory and sweet

The last thing i did at work that got a plantain nerd all got and bothered was just a lil bit of salt, a little lil bit of allspice, nutmeg and cloves, a bunch of cumin, brown sugar, a little bit of cinnamon and some pureed ginger, tossed all that together with some frozen apple slices and roasted hot until they brown and the insides start to kinda bubble out (maybe roasting less would be good though because theres so much caramelization at that point that bits can kinda stick to your teeth). I've also done them with a coconut milk syrup glaze and that's been pretty good and that'd go good with that too

I WANTED to do the thing with the apples but also make like a pie crust with pulverized ginger crackers but everybody I suggested it to was like "that'd be weird" and then the sous chef told me "no don't do that"

Also if you like plantains you might like tostones too which are under ripe plantains that get fried and then flattened and then fried again and served with sauces and stuff

I'm having a little trouble with this. Like, I can feel the volume, I can see them poking through my shirt, but when I take it off I can't see much different, it's a little weird. I'm close to 5 months only though, so they should grow still.

Funny I feel like the exact opposite with mine—they're decently big but still kinda coney. Today is actually two months on prog and I do feel like it has helped some, but I hope they'll continue to fill out properly

Normally I'd say you should come out to people who will be supportive, but that does sound like a laugh

Oh I love how good skirts make me look, skirts are awesome

Highly recommend wearing a skirt anytime u can

Fuck, I came here to say that! You took my everything away from me!

I think frequently about whether my dad would be as accepting if i wasn't a lesbian and a butch at that. though he saw in a dress for the first time recently, and while a taken a bit aback, he seemed to take it in stride.

Has he said anything to suggest he's the type who somehow thinks gender and romantic/sexual orientation are intimately connected? Somehow one of my lesbian moms is confused about the difference between the two.

down with cis!

What is going on?

I might do it next time, I think I have an interesting angle on it.

Maybe you'd like City of Last Chances, by Adrian Tchaikovsky. It has several of those elements.

Youd love Ebberon

I kind of stopped reading him, but Brandon Sanderson's mistborn (particularly second era) and Stormlight is that. People making technology within the rules of the magic systems.

Rock and stone munching will certainly do something for your teeth. I can't promise it'll be anything good - but it will do something.

Imagine being named peanut butter and you don't get to talk about peanut butter