My lips too small; my teeth too big. I’m a mouse girl now.

I’m coming around on my hair a bit, but I wish I knew how to style it or what products to use to achieve an effect.

Mfw I'm somehow getting gender euphoria from a damn pen. It's not even anything femme it's literally just a nice simple pen that feels great when writing and twirling. Why is my brain like this.

Currently feeling unsure if I actually exist or not

I just went to the knitting group I’ve joined for the first time today, and it’s been absolutely wonderful. The people there were so damn nice and didn’t care at all that I’m trans. They also gave me a lot of help, which I desperately needed, because I’m still a complete beginner, so I was very grateful for that. The only thing that I had to get used to was that everyone else was twice my age. There are younger people of course, but they couldn’t make it today.

And today is also my 5th anniversary of starting HRT, which still boggles my mind how it’s already been half a decade. I know it shouldn’t surprise me that it feels a lot shorter than the 5 years I had to wait before I could finally start but it still does. Like, if you told me that it’s only been 2 years, I would fully believe you.

The only thing that really annoys me though is that I’m completely overwhelmed by my emotions now. It’s like a tsunami composed of all kinds of emotions hitting me head-on. I wish there was some kind of switch that could turn them off, because I’m having a hard time calming down again.

What if my friends trapped and betrayed me in the Missouri cheese caves

Broke: I'm considering orchie for anti androgen reasons

Bespoke: I'm considering orchie so my high waisted pants are more comfortable.

I now have a girlfriend, which is great! But she is so horribly dysphoric that she thinks life will just always be that way. Forever. Gotta buy some nice clothes with her, and love her lots.

saw a guy i used to watch streaming and i thought he had low viewer count so i checked the history^1^ and now hour and a half later i went down a whole ass- memory lane to the 2010s and all the loser streamers i watched.

~1~ ~nah~ ~he's~ ~solidly~ ~a~ ~10k~ ~andy~

Wow my wonderful night last night is lingering into the day, I feel balanced and at peace in a way I haven't in a while.

I sometimes forget that is british tbh, I like to keep forgetting if I could help it to be honest.

I just know if I start saying "what the gender?" instead of "what the fuck" it'll be a week maybe less before I start doing it unironically that's how fast I develop my brainworms

There's a surgeon and his resident who's nicknames are tweedle dee and tweedle smart

dipshit customer: "hey how come you're the only one here wearing the mask?"

the answer i should have given: "the same reason you're wearing sunglasses indoors"

the answer i actually gave: "personal choice"

the REAL answer: "i'm a trans woman and didn't bother shaving today"

Finally a good day 😢haven't happy cried in a long time and have been off and on all day. Mostly about telling my friend but also reconnected with one of my online friends and played some CS/the finals and it was a really good time. idk today has been a good one.

Think I'm on a new arc where I'm just not gonna correct my spelling no more, it shows hesitant and weakness to go back and edit things.