Feeling dsyphoric

I want to be a homemaker. Cooking and cleaning are so fun because I’m in control (of my sense environment, energy expenditure, ideals, interests, etc), making progress of sorts, and alone.

i just started playing Fallout London and I hit "female" body type in the character creator and it gave me a male body? wtf this game just clocked me and I got the TERF island treatment

I hate how little I can cry

Thinking about buying some fairy lights for my room, is aliexpress alright? I don't have experience buying electronics from there so I'm not sure of good strategy to make sure its electrically safe

Got my epilator. The pain is significantly less than manual tweezing, so not bad at all. It's a cheaper one, so it needs to be plugged in and is a bit tough to clean, but I have been able to clear up my arms and hands at least.

EDIT: Also, when I use my cats come over and just watch me with concern. It's very cute.

Got myself a wireless keyboard to go along with my wireless mouse, I connected my computer to my tv so here I am typing like a big shot from bed no more typing with the on screen keyboard

I can't fall asleep for anything tonight, so I'm just laying here trying not to worry about transition stuff. Dysphoria is hitting really hard too. Two hours waiting so far. Also fun to remember how bad I feel when I don't sleep enough.

fuck canker sores

I keep crushing on girls I see once in class and don't talk to this is fucked

I've developed a habit over the last month or so of getting nauseaus before I take and while taking my meds orally. Unsure why, but its frustrating given the amount I need to take in the morning

watched ~too~ ~many~ make some noise shorts on youtube and my cheeks hurt from all the silent laughing i had to do

I am continuing to tinker with having nixos on a oneplus 6, in spite of adhd

Just need to get it to boot successfully, and from that it'll be much easier, writing out config and resolving the issues as they appear

What's the correct thing to do for new megathreads to make sure they get site-wide pinned?

My last post: you ever do something gender affirming and it makes you feel worse?

Tonight's post: you ever do something gender affirming and you FUCKIN nail it!? Feeling real good. Got the makeup right and my hair is on point.

Anyone recommend a good lightweight spray to get my curls to stay around all night? I don't want something very stick. Thanks~