Ngl this sounds like coming out of depression

you may have been suffering from derealization, its common among trans people. it makes everything look gray, blurry, and bad

Part of your brain that was occupied with dysphoria is freed up to appreciate the little things in life now

Yes! I live out in the woods so I'm pretty connected to nature, but I'd never cried because the trees were so pretty before now.

Probably the medroxyprogesterone.

so my understanding of E from the trip reports gals have been posting on here is it's kind of like LSD but you might get tits?

I’ve noticed something similar. I think part of it is having healthy functional emotions. I also think that, even though I’m still boymoding, the estrogen combined with having the mental state of a woman means I disassociate less and there’s more of a connectedness with the world around me that wasn’t there before.

I moved up to the pnw and immediately started hormones as soon as i could and i had this awakening over the course of the first few years where i realized i was willing to kill someone over a tree now and like, that goes deep. it's really spiritual, religious, mystical or whatever. going on a trail, even one of those basic bitch "it's paved and as flat as you can manage in washington" trails it's like, yeah this is true divinity i will kill e veryone who tries to diminish this with the zeal of a christian trying to retake the holy land during the first crusade so

i feel it

i'm six+ years in though

That's euphoria.

Sunsets make me cry now

There's some evidence to suggest that cis women have greater color perception than cis men do. You are not the only transfem that has attested to this and you won't be the last either, it happened to me too. There are anecdotes about the reverse happening with people on FTM HRT, so there may be something to it. Too bad there's no way to quantify the change unless one were to have already taken some visual acuity test with a color component pre-HRT.