Big news!! I won a scholarship today!!!! And I got my loan NoA and it's 2k higher than I expected!!!! I am now able to pay for my entire coming year of tuition and rent, and my jobs (which are already locked in barring one that is basically locked in) will be enough to cover food and then some!!!!!!!! I might even maybe be able to afford that big $500 order of indie chinese lolitas I've been wishlisting sometime before Christmas!!!!!!!!!!
(CW: Transphobia)
Just got a text from my father and I read it while I was still working and it kinda fucked me up, I was struggling a bit to do the last bit of tutoring for the day.
Context is I had said I could probably meet up for lunch Sunday if I'm not collapsed on my bed due to work. Since I have a 12 hour outdoor work day on Saturday and this week is also just long in general. And he knows that. Oh and during our call Sunday my mother yelled at me over his phone again and tried to gaslight me about how she had told me that she wants me homeless when I brought it up. So this is coming right after that. Fun.
"OK, Sunday, choose the place and stop whining, you know that there is still a place for you here and that your life would be easier if you were ready to wait a few more years for your transition."
Just. I know it's not the absolute worst thing I've gotten from either of them about it. But it just hurts so much more deeply for some reason. I want to just get into bed and curl up to cry but I need to shower and eat first since I only just got off work so I'm gonna have to zombie through that for an hour or some such before I can let this emotionally settle and that sounds fucking awful right now.
Oh and he has literally never once called me by my name. He compromised by saying he would switch to my old nickname which I was fine with, only to then immediately stop using it and go back to my deadname.
You should all be glad that Hexbear rules forbid photos because I would be unstoppable if I could post all my cute outfits here.
Got catcalled for the first time the other night, pretty shitty ngl. If you expect it to feel euphoric it really doesn't, it was more along the lines of 'oh, I have to deal with this shit now.'
Otherwise dealing with the usual spring-special of seasonal depression making my dysphoria worse. At least it's not as bad as last year's now that I'm on HRT.
Yes, but that's because GW took the symbol from Michael Moorcock's writings where it is also the symbol for Chaos as a cosmological force but in a less inherently evil way.
The symbol has some history as an anarchist symbol predating GW's use of it in Warhammer. This is partly because Moorcock is an anarchist so lots of anarchists at the time read his fiction, but also simply because it's a cool looking symbol that represents chaos and thus fits the vibe.
The real game of the year is not Wizard game or even any of the nominees. It's actually a 50+ hour monochromatic sokoban puzzle game but Gamers™ aren't ready for that yet.
What does it say?
It's one of those anime that does slavery apologia, which sadly became a trend.
Finally an excuse to learn to build a catapult.
Reminds me of a radlib classmate in highschool who once described themself as 'reactionary' (as in 'I react to bad things and want to change them') and the teacher had to explain that reactionary means conservative.
It'll be wild if China actually does something before Hezbollah properly attacks Israel.
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Just got gendered correctly by complete strangers at work while en masc and not putting effort into my voice. I made it. Actually almost crying now that I'm at my desk.