If it's full of ants?

Why do I finally get a job and then the owner gets arrested for being a total creep.... Like just now found this out hours before my first training shift.... Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Main

'What should I call it then? My canvas? You been over every night this week, [insert name], we need to either have a discussion or you need to be quiet and let me do my thin- hnnng'

Pros:

-I haven't shot anyone (yet)

-It'd be super cool

-It'd be helpful as hell

Cons:

-nothing (except less money to give to others[unless you have infinite money, in which case give us all some])

Cash app: $commiechameleon1197 Paypal: @anntipha Venmo: someone already has an account with my number I'm using currently, it's been a huge pain in teh booty

Might be tmi, but I celebrated newyears kinda hard and may or may not have been experiencing issues related to not enough proper lubrication. Hurts still and I've been having fever and chills, but the fever has broken at least twice. I'm still fence sitting about whether to go to the hospital, as I've had a fissure before without treatment. Kinda want a weigh in, and I'm not sure ambetter will cover everything. Praise be to the American healthcare system, where needing to be taken care of physically is met with debt and fear. That and idk if my ex reported me for 'stealing' the phone he gave me and am worried about him abusing the system to fuck me over. Also no 4g but able to use a hot spot with who I'm staying with. And may have a position as a petitioner for recreational MJ, so that's cool, kind of a bummer if I can't walk though lmao

Seems like it's some ngo, and I don't want to apply to the position in case it's lib or Zionist and I'm same raving diogenic leftist minutes from making everyone eat my shit and hair getting stressed by having to maintain a compromised position in order to better give a reach around the aisle. Because if it is like that my threshold for bullshit would be giving.

Also I'm currently going through a fever and chills more than likely from getting hemorrhoids (+ rupturing one) from celebrating new years too hard. Going to see when I go to the hospital for recommended emergency dentists to take care of these broken teeth as well that I've been dealing with since 2020. Still at $0 and may need medical treatment, but I've got ambetter idk how good it is.

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/7190565

Should I take up sales or something because that seems to be all there is...

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/7179536

Recently broke up with my now ex after being mistreated emotionally sometimes physically, had been tracked using find my phone and clung to incessantly, and we would hardly leave the house. To his credit he helped here and there financially especially when my ID and social was stolen but he was always putting me down while pretending his shit didn't stink and IDK some kind of ubermensch even though he couldn't be further from it. I'd have to remind him to brush his teeth and he would clap back saying that at least his weren't broken or have cavities (very nice white teeth otherwise, the molars are a little fucked though), but yet had a terrible smile and breath and was trying to help him be more proactive in that manner so as not end up in the same boat.

Need help financially to load up a bus pass or potentially a bike( but I think I can get one tomorrow for free). I don't have any income or savings atm so money to get a place to stay may not be helpful at the moment. I'm looking into shelters and the like or might couch surf. But money to be able to get professional looking work clothes, get dental work done(which again might be free), food since it was a shared EBT card we had gotten ( I'll be working on fixing that very soon) , and idk buy clothes in general since I left Friday with my wallet, two phones, and the clothes on my body and walked to a shelter only to have him harass me about stealing a phone that he gifted me, both of them were gifts, one was cracked, the other newer and nicer and was going to transfer my assurance wireless plan to it... I got freaked out, angry and spiteful, broke the phone he was accusing me of stealing and am now currently staying at a mutual friends (who wants nothing to do with him) place until Tuesday.

The last two days I've walked 40mi, 20 when I first left, and 20 yesterday to attempt to donate plasma, but they closed like 10secs early, my feet are blistered and my thighs are oozing plasma and just sore all over from having that be the most exercise I've done in awhile, save for when I helped his sister move into her new place, but otherwise I've been bedrotting and trying to become one with the couch (not like jd Vance I assure you) or what have you... I also need placards for teeth or a water pick to ensure I can clean my messed up mouth as much as possible until I go to get them ripped out. In addition to any financial support y'all may be able to provide, any resources for someone homeless is welcomed but I'm unsure if I should post the county I'm in out of opsec concerns.

I'll post more cash sharing services but for now I've got a cash app ready to go

$commiechameleon1197

Heard Iran declared war on the US, Europe, and Israel. Just things IRL would love the tea from here though

Should I take up sales or something because that seems to be all there is...

cross-posted from: https://hexbear.net/post/7179536

Recently broke up with my now ex after being mistreated emotionally sometimes physically, had been tracked using find my phone and clung to incessantly, and we would hardly leave the house. To his credit he helped here and there financially especially when my ID and social was stolen but he was always putting me down while pretending his shit didn't stink and IDK some kind of ubermensch even though he couldn't be further from it. I'd have to remind him to brush his teeth and he would clap back saying that at least his weren't broken or have cavities (very nice white teeth otherwise, the molars are a little fucked though), but yet had a terrible smile and breath and was trying to help him be more proactive in that manner so as not end up in the same boat.

Need help financially to load up a bus pass or potentially a bike( but I think I can get one tomorrow for free). I don't have any income or savings atm so money to get a place to stay may not be helpful at the moment. I'm looking into shelters and the like or might couch surf. But money to be able to get professional looking work clothes, get dental work done(which again might be free), food since it was a shared EBT card we had gotten ( I'll be working on fixing that very soon) , and idk buy clothes in general since I left Friday with my wallet, two phones, and the clothes on my body and walked to a shelter only to have him harass me about stealing a phone that he gifted me, both of them were gifts, one was cracked, the other newer and nicer and was going to transfer my assurance wireless plan to it... I got freaked out, angry and spiteful, broke the phone he was accusing me of stealing and am now currently staying at a mutual friends (who wants nothing to do with him) place until Tuesday.

The last two days I've walked 40mi, 20 when I first left, and 20 yesterday to attempt to donate plasma, but they closed like 10secs early, my feet are blistered and my thighs are oozing plasma and just sore all over from having that be the most exercise I've done in awhile, save for when I helped his sister move into her new place, but otherwise I've been bedrotting and trying to become one with the couch (not like jd Vance I assure you) or what have you... I also need placards for teeth or a water pick to ensure I can clean my messed up mouth as much as possible until I go to get them ripped out. In addition to any financial support y'all may be able to provide, any resources for someone homeless is welcomed but I'm unsure if I should post the county I'm in out of opsec concerns.

I'll post more cash sharing services but for now I've got a cash app ready to go

$commiechameleon1197

Recently broke up with my now ex after being mistreated emotionally sometimes physically, had been tracked using find my phone and clung to incessantly, and we would hardly leave the house. To his credit he helped here and there financially especially when my ID and social was stolen but he was always putting me down while pretending his shit didn't stink and IDK some kind of ubermensch even though he couldn't be further from it. I'd have to remind him to brush his teeth and he would clap back saying that at least his weren't broken or have cavities (very nice white teeth otherwise, the molars are a little fucked though), but yet had a terrible smile and breath and was trying to help him be more proactive in that manner so as not end up in the same boat.

Need help financially to load up a bus pass or potentially a bike( but I think I can get one tomorrow for free). I don't have any income or savings atm so money to get a place to stay may not be helpful at the moment. I'm looking into shelters and the like or might couch surf. But money to be able to get professional looking work clothes, get dental work done(which again might be free), food since it was a shared EBT card we had gotten ( I'll be working on fixing that very soon) , and idk buy clothes in general since I left Friday with my wallet, two phones, and the clothes on my body and walked to a shelter only to have him harass me about stealing a phone that he gifted me, both of them were gifts, one was cracked, the other newer and nicer and was going to transfer my assurance wireless plan to it... I got freaked out, angry and spiteful, broke the phone he was accusing me of stealing and am now currently staying at a mutual friends (who wants nothing to do with him) place until Tuesday.

The last two days I've walked 40mi, 20 when I first left, and 20 yesterday to attempt to donate plasma, but they closed like 10secs early, my feet are blistered and my thighs are oozing plasma and just sore all over from having that be the most exercise I've done in awhile, save for when I helped his sister move into her new place, but otherwise I've been bedrotting and trying to become one with the couch (not like jd Vance I assure you) or what have you... I also need placards for teeth or a water pick to ensure I can clean my messed up mouth as much as possible until I go to get them ripped out. In addition to any financial support y'all may be able to provide, any resources for someone homeless is welcomed but I'm unsure if I should post the county I'm in out of opsec concerns.

I'll post more cash sharing services but for now I've got a cash app ready to go

$commiechameleon1197

I've come back after yet another hiatus, after mental instability and just being weird and kind of an asshole. I've been known previously for my lack of personal opsec and sometimes impudent behavior. I've just recently broken things off with my controling ex and I'm hoping it's the change that's needed to start heading in a better direction and to quit burning myself at both ends, if not financially, but moreso emotionally mentally and physically. I'd consider myself a bit of a troll or leftist dirt bag and the worst communist / leftist/ whatever to grace this site, however your community has helped to ensure that I'll never veer rightwards and to keep persisting no matter how hard life gets, no matter how unaccepted I may be at times due to my unhinged behavior every now and again. I'll never have a why I left the left moment, to be a leftist is to grow and to do better despite how ass one might be at any given moment. During my first couple outings here I've wanted to use hexbear as a kind of personal black book, to get opinions, to work or talk through things, to gain better understanding of my worst self and to maintain more balance, it hasn't really been appropriate, so my apologies. I don't have many friends though, namely because of my last ex and self isolating because I had let someone back into my life who had helped to fuck it up back in 2022. If it wasn't that it's been the gross politics or reactionary behaviors non leftists adopt without really thinking about it, further persuading me to cut ties, and lastly because I've been a shut in hypersexual fuck head stoner gaemer boi(?). But yeah for right now I'm just figuring out my next moves and to be as independent as possible moving forward. Also water isn't wet and I'm a sentient bear fucker who misposts, iykyk. Anyways feel free to ask whatever. I'm big into magic the gathering the moba mlbb (mobile Legends, quitting so I've got more free time and so I don't fall back into toxicity), I like vidya gaem in general, casually into fitness but have let myself go over the period I had been with my now ex, I've lurked around the space since 2018 when it was r/cth when I was a reddit virgin and found it through the recommended pages when you go on Google on a new tab when I was a Bernie bro, been questioning my gender for a minute but always too broke/ wanting to have my own child first with the right woman (yes I might have a breeding fetish, no I don't want an army, just a successor that will have been better off materially than I had been as I grew up and to see them reach their potential whereas I've fallen short, as of now), I've got experience in customer service and hospitality but not much else, I'm 5'10" 9". Uuuuuhhhh what else... Oh I'm silly as hell and am deeply unserious 9 out of 11 times. Again feel free to ask away.