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Today is 1 year on HRT. Should probably have some bigger meditations on it but right now I just feel lonely. I really only have two friends, both have actual lives compared to me. I know I ought to just touch grass, meet more people, fill my life up... I just wish I was more important in the lives of people I already know?

Whenever I get more than 10 upbears I instantly feel like a celebrity here since there are only like 15 accounts on hexbear majority approval right there

Me with Genie: I wish to have been turned into a cis girl in my childhood.

Genie: that might be tricky, time travel etc

Me: what about instead if all people were nice to trans women?

Genie: so specifically what age in childhood?

I got a little label maker awhile back to label bottles I was using for some spice/seasoning blends I was making, but now I just kinda use it every once in awhile to print a label that says "CUTE" to stick on my forehead or "BOOB" to stick on my boob.

SHOUTOUT TO MY FAVORITE BEVERAGE @BountifulEggnog@hexbear.net

Got some new glasses today! "You know these are women's glasses, right?" Hell yeah I do 😎

The universe must have been listening, cause i got randomly she/her-ed today!!!!! That never happens! Last time it happened without the person clocking me and stumbling a bit before saying correct pronouns was over a year ago, and god it made my day. It was a really shitty day cause ive reached the point of precarity where i need to apply for the jobs that have a far higher risk of like dislocating my joints (i have bad joints and probably bad connective tissues in general), and that random comment from a guy unloading stuff as i was walking into a store just made my day so much better. I passed for the first time in forever and it made me so happy to just be seen as a woman for once, and not as trans first and maybe woman second. I always get he/him-ed by that type of person, and today i didnt! I just got seen as a woman! I wasnt even wearing makeup, just a fresh shaven face and a simple outfit. On the one hand, fuck passing, but on the other hand, i was seen as a woman without any asterisk next to it or anything!!!! Ahhhh so happy!

Hi it’s been a while, I used to post on here like last year and I’m back now with a different account. Unsure if people will remember me - I’m jenniferrr

::: spoiler vent about misogyny/transphobia I hate when people tell me my existence is "valid". Like, wtf do you even mean by that? My existence isnt "valid", or rather all existence is inherrently "valid" because it is. Saying im "valid" just reeks of "youre performing femininity in a manner that i dont find immediately disgusting or wrong" and just, fuck that so much. Just be honest and use the word "acceptable" or say "comforms enough that i dont have to challenge my deeply held misogyny", embrace your self-appointment as arbiter of femininity and womanhood and own that youre a gatekeeping asshole.

😔 sorry yall ... I post to garner attention because the alternative of no human contact is genuinely horrifying.

::: spoiler cw kink

Had a very fun impact scene. God sometimes i forget how fun it is. I wish i could get beaten every day but my body cant handle it. And the person i was playing with is so communicative and receptive to me speaking up about my weird broken special care needing body, she doesnt make me feel like im topping from the bottom, she hears me when i say "hey thats too close to tendons" or "hey thats not an ok spot to hit cause my joints are bad". Feels so safe and so good. I love being a freaky kinky weirdo

Cw: kink but not really nsfw

Been single for years now w no close friends and have been totally absent from any kind of dynamic like that and fuck bruh I miss it so much 😭 anyways, college starts again tomorrow… sigh

got my first bra and underwear and I'm starting to get what good gender feelings are supposed to be lol

me when people try to get my attention using the name i told them to use instead of the one ive gone by:

Idk if i like or hate my parents sometimes

Cis people, even queer cis people, do not understand how important being in a good state is. I was talking with someone at work about my move and they didn't understand why I'd want to move there. And the reason was really minor, think preferring the weather. Which fair, you know if you'd not like the weather in the state I'm moving to but healthcare, socially things being better, legal protections, shit is way more important.

Just upset and lonely. Messaged two people and convo didn't go anywhere, got one reply from each that's it. And I get it, they both have their own things going on, but fuck. I'm sad.

At least my support group meets tonight, get to be alone with others. That's better right

"I always read the mega body text, how did you know?"

Women really get treated very differently in the grocery store. I don't know what I changed, but recently I am getting correctly gendered when I wear a mask now. I preferred not being bothered while I shop, even though the frequent offers to help are gender affirming.

Unfortunately my emotional landscape varies between "Oh God I Am Alone, pay Attention to me" and "am Femme, but if perceived I will explode hehe"

Got the day off from work, but I’m stressed about and overwhelmed by all of the other shit I need to be doing in my life so I’m day drinking and reading about different terminal emulators instead of dealing with anything.

If y’all’ve got terminal emulator opinions I’d love to hear them. Konsole is okay, but I’ve branched out to kitty with my move away from KDE + X11 into the wilds of Wayland. iterm2 works fine when I’m on Mac; avoid warp at all costs.

Mondays are cool, I get to do a Mega, then do my injection and just chill for a little in the morning.

I look exactly like right now, but happy about monday

away from my pc for close to a week, now spoiled with so much megathread to catch up on waow

Talked a lot more this week! Was very nice. Mostly just politics 'n shit, kinda hate talking with libs about politics. When we were talking about greenland I said I wasn't super sure if they'd actually go through with it, because it would lose a lot of rich people a lot of money with damage to trade routes and stuff. Then someone chimes in with "and his voters wouldn't like it! They've said its the line in the sand!" like can we be fr right now. But it was nice to get to talk more. Also:

lets talk about what we can do when we feel dysphoric [therapist]

cisgay immediately starts talking about not revealing she's gay at church

I like her but what. Yes it was that abrupt.

I said something along these lines earlier but figured I'd make a comment here too, maybe someone will have something to say

Several cis women I know have offered to help however they can, if I have questions, etc. But I do not know how to have them help or what to ask them to explain. I feel like I've seen people in these megas wishing they has a cis woman to take them under their wing and show them things, explain things, but I guess I don't know what they could really do or explain for me... if that makes sense.

I guess taking me to get makeup or clothes... but idk if I'm comfortable enough to do that/girlmode in public.

I fucked up this morning. Things will be okay, but I fucked up regardless.

::: spoiler jealousy i think? I keep seeing the shorter trans women in my life have affirming experiences and it makes me kinda sad, like, im very happy theyre being seen as themselves, but its a little frustrating to know that will rarely be me, and when it is its often from a pity perspective or a concious choice instead of just the automatic "that person = woman" subconcious process. I wouldnt trade my height i dont think, i love my long legs and my body in general (when im not having dysphoria or dysmorphia incidents), but it would be nice to, when in non-transfemme spaces, occasionally get automatically she/her-ed instead of he/him-ed or the dreaded "what are your pronouns"/*glances at me* "ok lets everybody share our pronouns!"

I havent had coffee for 5 days, not really missing it right now but I know going home its gonna be a huge temptation to start again. I dunno if I wanna quit forever.