I look like if a girl took testosterone (I did for the first 30 years)

The sincere posting zone, earlier this week I saw a doctor about starting informed consent HRT. I figure if I don't like it I'll stop. If I like it sooner is better than later.

As an omen as I was driving I got stuck behind this Ute covered in bumper stickers and chalk writing, talking about covid19, government tyranny and globalism, etc. To crown it all it had a Eureka Stockade flag mounted and flying. But on the rear bumper in pastel blue chalk in the fruitiest handwriting it simply said "Stop feminising our men”. And I felt well shit if that wasn't a sign from the universe to do the opposite as what this driver wanted.

The consult went fine and I'm catching up at the end of the month to finalize consent check baseline bloods etc. They were very nice. But also doctors don't really understand when you say "If I end up not liking breasts I can have a breast reduction and get some cool as fuck scars".

doing my best to turn tiddy growth pains into gender euphoria

im fucking screaming i have to get estrogen and a fuckin therapist soon its so fucking hard to do myself.

Really nervous about the clothes I bought online.
We couldn’t find anything good at the store so idk how well they will fit me.

I’ve never bought a woman’s dress shirt before and I keep just seeing in my head a picture from when I wore a men’s dress shirt before I got on hrt that I hated how I looked in and I’m scared it will look like that or worse.

I think I want to get a collar for myself now... I don't know how to feel about this revalation...

after about 9 months HRT and hair growth that girl in the mirror finally just looks like a clocky ass trans girl. I can't really see a man at all anymore

perfect :)

Thinking back on realizing I was trans, and I am remembering about a month before I finally realized I had found a sapphic audio subreddit, looked at the titles and has a "god I wish this were me" moment and then just kinda ignored it. Fucking oblivious Just moments like this all over the years that slowly come back to me

Hi 👋

Getting ma'amd by my classes is nice

My gf won’t let me put my squishmallow in one of the good windows

I got new glasses and they're cute as hell

tldr:

Two years ago I never understood why people liked asmr but here I am now listening to lesbian cuddling asmr to help me sleep

I had to get my birth certificate updated (so I could get the right gender on it). A month later the red tape reduction office sent me an email that they'd be sending me another email shortly with details, that one came and I have to pay a fuckin fee. They said I could pay online or go to a registry office, I figured fine I'll pay online. Except I had to send the red tape reduction service an email to access the online payment portal and they had THE GALL to auto reply that they were busy and to expect a proper reply in 2 to 3 business days

Whyyyy

What should my new account name be when I stop tomboymoding?

"I don't care enough to keep trying to fix this," she said before continuing to try and troubleshoot why her game mods weren't working for another hour.

spoiler

They're still not working

Finished up Detransition, Baby and holy shit is that book heavy. It has such an intimate (in my opinion) understanding of trans women and how we see the world, our communities, and gender, and it really pays off in the text.

Torrey Peters seems to have a gift when it comes to writing scenes that engross you and make you empathize with the characters. The scene at the climax of the story had me emotionally, psychologically, and physically distressed and dysphoric because of how it depicts a certain character grappling with the physicality of our bodies in the middle of a heated moment.

I didn't expect a book about adults in their 30s having a baby to have so many twists and turns, it felt like I was watching a drama at times and I really hope the adaptation eventually comes out and does the book justice.

I want to recommend this book but the list of content warnings ((domestic) violence, transphobia, self harm, sexually explicit passages) probably means I'll only recommend it with the caveat that it's triggering if you're sensitive to the content.

I love me some messy trans women (Maria Griffiths my beloved) and this book really hit the mark. Overall I love this book and it's probably in my top 3 of all time and not just as trans literature.

Have yall seen boys. Gotta say, keep it up 👍

Are there bras you can buy from a store without getting fitted for one?

My nipples got fuckin HUGE. Didn't realize how big, saw some pre hrt pics. It kinda snuck on to me

I'm annoyed. Right after top surgery, my breasts were FINALLY even. Left was always much bigger than right and having them be the same was glorious! Until now. Cause apparently I went through another growth spurt in my breasts, but it was only leftie so they're uneven again >:(

about an hour into my shift at work today and I felt the overwhelming compulsion to drop to my knees and start praying to Venus and I've never been remotely religious in my life so idk even know what to do with this information

found an estrofem pill from like 2 years ago in my pillsplitter. and ate it

Went to the market today, bought a few used books

purposefully putting the Greek Yoghurt lid on a Turkish Yoghurt jar. If an international incident happens you know who to blame.

the sick author is just publishing their fetish, i scream loudly on the train. upon looking over, you see that i am reading an accountancy textbook

We used to have a long term patient on the unit, the story behind it is tragic so I won't elaborate, she's been gone for a while (discharged not anything else). I do miss her

Pretty distressed today.

Think my boobs have gotten a little bigger though, so y'know, One Good Thing.

A new razor blade really does make a difference. Doesn't hurt to shave nearly as much.

(I still really need to start laser though, there's a section on my neck that just doesn't shave off 😖)