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Greetings, salutations even! I know this is a tough time of year for many of us, and all I ask is that you all make this the best week you possibly can. If the holidays are a struggle, take time to care for yourself if you can. Hang out with friends, do the things you love, find that sweet gender euphoria, follow what makes you truly happy. Oh, and continue to be yourselves :). Alright everybody, get ready for the largest mega I’ve ever written (I think).

Welcome to the TMGC mega! I have been hyping this up, probably for months now, and it’s my time to deliver on what might be the one of the best Fire Emblem experiences of all time. Buckle up, because this is going to be a long one. Most of the post will have light to no spoilers, but some parts may have a moderate amount of spoilers. With that out of the way, let’s find out what this game has to offer.

What is Fire Emblem? (no spoilers)Fire Emblem is a strategy role-playing game series where you move your units to fight enemy units on a grid. The simplest way to think about it is like chess, where you have a large team of units fighting another large team of units, while your units are more like characters in that they have personalities. In most entries, these units are also able to have conversations with each other, providing more detail to the characters or the story, while also making the supported characters stronger. The games take place in a medical fantasy setting, with swords, axes, lances, different magics, and staves, with creatures like horses, pegasi, and wyverns.

What is Fire Emblem: The Morrow’s Golden Country (TMGC)? (no spoilers)TMGC is a romhack of Fire Emblem: The Sacred Stones. It has it’s own story, characters, maps, mechanics, and for all intents and purposes, it’s a whole game built in the engine of Sacred Stones.

Story Outline and Characters (light spoilers)TMGC features Blair as the protagonist. As a young lesbian lord from the Aercolyn territory within the Dalstinian Alliance, the game follows her around the continent and throughout the many nations. At first, the game features a pretty standard Fire Emblem plot, where one of the nations declares war on a couple of the others, which kicks the story into action. However, it evolves greatly beyond that point, with political drama, suspense, mystery, conspiracy, and so much more that make the story stand out. Of course, I also find the story to be very well written, especially when compared to many other Fire Emblem games. Along for the ride with Blair is Arin, her closest friend and self-taught tactician/advisor. They will also meet and recruit many of their friends and allies, both ones that existed before and during when the story takes place.

spoiler A little more on the story (moderate spoilers)

What exactly makes the story of TMGC compelling? Well, it’s the depth. The story involved Blair doing a lot to earn the approval of others, which often has her doing some very ethically questionable things. The plight of the commoner is shown in this game, with entire places on the continent being uninhabitable, yet having poverty-stricken inhabitants. Banditry runs rampant, and yet nobody has attempted to reach out to the struggling masses. The society is still feudal, most of the nations are either ruled by kings or lords. The class divide, that between noble and commoner, is very noticeable, and while it is not explicitly addressed like in some other entries, TMGC makes heavy use of “show don’t tell” with these kind of things. The many aspects of war are also shown, among those who do fight for their country. Mevion, the one country that managed to overthrow it’s king in a revolution, has a lot of revolutionaries who now live mundane lives due to being alienated by a revolutionary movement that was corrupted by opportunists are we still playing Fire Emblem? These people, along with the soldiers/knights of other nations, serve their countries or the people of them, and face the reality that what they fight for is not what they first thought. There are multiple characters that serve their lords and their country, but there are just as many deserters, those dissatisfied with how their lives ended up. There’s also political manipulation. Something happens that should lead to certain people taking power, but through political manipulation puppets are put in place. Countries are occupied by invading forces, and the results of that are felt. The frustrations of working within a political system is felt, as characters try again and again only to realize that it’s never going to work. That the only option when a political entity is inherently corrupt is to fight it.

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Characters and Queer Representation (light spoilers, moderate character spoilers)First of all, the characters in this game are all pretty great, there’s a lot of them, and their supports are written well. The game also lists pronouns for all of the characters in-game as well. Nice touch.

Apollo is a trans man. It’s not revealed that he is at first sight. He’s a man, lives as such, and doing none of his supports leave it at that. However, as his supports are triggered, he gets into more and more of his past. A support chain with the Archbishop reveals that he was rejected, and may have been kicked out by, his parents. A support chain with another trans enby character has them recognizing their similarities, even if they transitioned to different genders. It was good to see a trans character in the game, and while I have not seen all of the supports, I would hope that some of the others manage to go into this as well. To get the lore on this, as far as I know, make sure to do the support chain with Apollo and Vladimir.

There’s also many non-binary characters, including a protagonist character (Viridian) that gets their own arc of the story! Not to mention that sooooooo many of the characters are gay, bi, or pan it’s amazing. I could go over all of them, but I don’t actually know all of them! So, I need to go over a special example. TMGC’s poly characters. Heavy character spoilers, of course.

There’s also everyone’s favorite genderfluid (maybe) enby (maybe) possibly agender (maybe) assassin with a heart Olson. She goes by she/they/he pronouns. I have not seen much to this character, I’ve just gotten them, but his introduction already has her requesting a great title, and they’re a really good unit in combat (100% crit rates and a skill that insta-kills on crit). All hair the Ser Duke-Duchess o7

If Blair gets a B+ support, and crucially does not A support, five of the other women, they all get married at the end and start a polycule. I do not know exactly how the ending goes, I messed up the support chains, but I do know who the people are. Arin, Natasia, Avan, Yuyu, and Estelle. For the poly ending, Blair can only support these five people, which will make more sense once I go over game mechanics. This might be the most queer fire emblem of all time.

Mechanics (no spoilers)On the topic of supports, each character can only have up to five supports. I’m guessing this is due to hardware limitations, and this is fine for many characters. However, for characters like Blair or Arin, supports have to be done more carefully, considering whether or not you like a character enough to go through a support chain, or even going through another playthrough to see all of the supports. These supports increase stats between the characters, just like in normal FE, but they can also allow for other things, such as class promotions or new weapon proficiency. These can be game changing, with some characters gaining classes that make them the best characters in the game, to once mediocre characters gaining a weapon proficiency that makes them stand out. This not only makes supports more rewarding, but allows for more replayability, with more builds available to the player. TMGC also takes features from other Fire Emblem games in an attempt to create a definitive experience. While the GBA games are great aesthetically and aged really well, they were lacking in some aspects that later games would innovate on. For example, Path of Radiance and Radiant Dawn make use of a Base Area that the player can use to go over supports and buy items and such. TMGC adds this, also changing supports to be story-based rather than combat-based a lot of the time. This means that characters don’t have to be fielded to go through their supports (most of the time). Considering how many characters are in this game, it’s a really helpful inclusion. TMGC also adds the save points that were in the DS games. This means a mistake doesn’t necessarily equal a reset, and it’s great for quality of life, especially considering how big some of these maps can get. Of course, it’s a double-edged sword. Not saving can leave you losing a lot of progress, and saving in a bad spot means you either have to either reset the whole level, or continue on without certain characters. Yes, this game has permadeath and only permadeath, there is no casual mode. However, there are also SOOOOOO many characters. Losing a few characters won’t be the end of the world gameplay-wise (I’m still a perfectionist for supports and story, although R.I.P. Butch, there goes My Hero), and you won’t likely find yourself unable to complete the game. TMGC adds personal skills as well, something that was featured in certain entries of the series, removed for the GBA games, and the added again for the following entries. These really make each individual character stand out. For example, you can have a normal mercenary, or you can have a mercenary with a hit chance skill, who can level up high stats except for skill. The game likes to do this a lot, and it allows for certain units to be strong while posing some sort of challenge. There are of course alternatives to these units, I don’t have to use Gaylord if I don’t want to (yes there’s a character named Gaylord, yes he’s really good, and yes, he’s straight). Something really interesting about certain skills is that they become combat arts. For a certain amount of weapon durability, skills like Luna (ignore defense/resistance) and Sol (heal HP in damage dealt) can be triggered manually on the player’s turn, rather than having a chance of activating during an attack. This can allow for many interesting strategies. There’s one boss that has really high resistance, defense, and legendary tome when most of the characters aren’t even promoted. However, Kenneth (a dark mage) has the Luna skill, which I can manually activate to come up with a plan to kill the unkillable. As a reward, I received a gem I could sell for 30,000 gold (that’s a lot). This also ends a defend map early, meaning it could be easier to keep certain weaker units safe. Back to the Tellius games (Path of Radiance & Radiant Dawn), TMGC adds movement skills! Characters can shove, smite, reposition, swap, etc. with other characters. This allows for great strategies, and I’ve found myself utilizing shove in order to push a certain unit into position a lot. It’s quite fun, and going back to the vanilla games is always a shock when I find that I cannot, in fact, push my units around for extra movement.

There’s also a lot of new classes, spells, weapons, animations and so much more!

I’m realizing that I’m treading a lot of the same ground as I did in my last post, and I’m trying to think about what else to write. The thing is, I don’t know what else to say. I don’t want to spoil the game for you wonderful people! So, you’re going to have to play this for yourself, especially those of you familiar with Fire Emblem.

For those of you unfamiliar with Fire Emblem, this might be difficult to pick up. If you’re willing to figure things out, or DM me for help (seriously, I’m willing to, don’t be shy :)), go right ahead! It’s a great game. However, there are definitely better games to help you get into Fire Emblem as a series. I would recommend Fire Emblem: Three Houses for the Nintendo Switch, or Fire Emblem Echoes: Shadows of Valentia for the 3DS. These games both go over basic Fire Emblem mechanics, while having some of the things TMGC takes inspiration from. Both games make use of combat arts, for example. They are also both really good games, and I would consider Shadows of Valentia to be one of my favorite Fire Emblem games, especially in it’s presentation. And yes, if I do a Fire Emblem mega next time, it’s going to be a Shadows of Valentia mega. Those who saw the last time I hosted the megathread are sure to recognize the characters :)

If you want to play Fire Emblem: The Morrow’s Golden Country, you’ll need a GameBoy Advance emulator (I use MGBA) as well as a copy of Fire Emblem: The Sacred Stones (shouldn't be hard to find). From there, download the patch (sorry for google link, the patch is regularly updated) and apply it to the Sacred Stones rom using RomPatcher. From there, you have a functioning TMGC rom and are ready to play.

I think that’s going to be all from me today. Again, I hope the holidays go well for all of you. I know this is a tough time of year, and I wish you all the best of luck. I also encourage you to keep up the posting in both the mega and tracha. I’ll likely spend some time in tracha myself, and who knows, maybe we can even talk about Fire Emblem. Don’t suffer in silence, feel free to vent frustrations. Love you all, let’s have a great week!


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[–] [email protected] 13 points 2 weeks ago (2 children)

Top surgery stuff, potentially grossI have a hole in my left breast's incision! YAY! Hope it's not a big deal, so I contacted my surgeon and slathered it in neosporin and a bandage.

That aside, what a miserable day today was! And I didn't even celebrate Yahweh's son. It was just a miserable day! :D

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[–] [email protected] 13 points 1 week ago* (last edited 1 week ago) (1 children)

Goodnight Mega 😴

~~or should I say good morning 💀~~ It's waaaaay too late, again.

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[–] [email protected] 13 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)
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[–] [email protected] 13 points 2 weeks ago (3 children)

parentsDad tries to be supportive about gender stuff. Deadnames me and calls me a slur three times. catgirl-flop

I know it can be callenging for parents, but come on.

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[–] [email protected] 13 points 1 week ago

sadHey uh, how much of a horrible wasteland is FB nowadays? Was thinking earlier about how many rad internet people I was friends with like a decade ago and I went dark at some point and lost contact with them and have been missing them a lot lately, I don't really have friends currently and it just kinda sucks, I'm really lonely and just want to reconnect and apologize for the person I've become

Took a rest day from the gym, feel bad about that too but I'm getting burned out and despite doing splits to minimize systemic fatigue, I'm fucking gassed

Had a hamstring cramp earlier and thought my tendon was gonna rip from the bone and could barely walk

Existing had been exhausting lately catgirl-flop

[–] [email protected] 13 points 2 weeks ago

I couldn’t sleep last night. Work is going to be hell today. Ugh.

[–] [email protected] 13 points 2 weeks ago (3 children)

pet deathIts done. I buried my life long friend, [removed for opsec] the tortoise. I have never felt this sad before. I'm so sorry. I loved you. I'll never forget him.

I can't believe he's gone. My earliest memories. All the moves. He was always there and happy to see me. And he's gone now.

I have grieved pets before but not like this.

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[–] [email protected] 13 points 2 weeks ago (7 children)
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[–] [email protected] 13 points 1 week ago* (last edited 1 week ago)

"i'm nearly done building the giant nuclear plant" i said. "just 5 more minutes" i said. its been 8 hours and i only just took a break i am dizzy and have a headache. oops.

edit: i didnt even decide on a color scheme for the factory

[–] [email protected] 12 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Reorganizing my entire room so I can get space for a bigger bed so I can get space for plushes

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[–] [email protected] 12 points 2 weeks ago

Merry Christmas to all who celebrate, both religiously and otherwise :)

[–] [email protected] 12 points 2 weeks ago (5 children)
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[–] [email protected] 12 points 2 weeks ago (3 children)

Really need to derust at guitar because i can no longer play stupidly fast death metal doggirl-gloom

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[–] [email protected] 12 points 2 weeks ago (4 children)

cw: nerd shit catgirl-huh

Dragon AgeSo the Dragon Age series is really interesting from a business standpoint. The first game wasnt such a massive success that EA was expecting clearly, when put up against Mass Effect 2, so they tried to turn it into a yearly franchise like their sports ball stuff.
Obviously making a full RPG in a year is going to suck, so Dragon Age 2 was roasted pretty much universally on release (i still think it's pretty fun though shy) and spurred on by this DA Inquisition was going to be an MMO originally, which they then scrapped and turned it into a single player RPG again.
Somehow it was actually pretty successful mostly thanks to insane crunch. THEN they were first thinking of making Veilguard into a live service esque game like Anthem was, then scrapped that idea and cobbled together a single player RPG again.

it would be interesting to see them actually make a single player rpg from the start again. catgirl-peace

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[–] [email protected] 12 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

fitness, self image/dysphoriaHit a weight loss goal.and felt good about myself, had a really good leg day

Tried taking a selfie in the mirror

Cannot take a flattering angle of myself to save my life

Don't have a particularly positive self image overall but holy shit, I'm a terrible selfie photographer and it ruined my good mood

I don't really think I look good normally, but I look a lot better than I do attempting to take a selfie

Silver lining, I looked pretty good for what I'm working with in the mirror after my shower

Didn't really make me feel that much better but I'm telling myself over and over "it's a process" and "you're putting in the work" and "these things take time" and "trust the plan" like a sicko-queer crank lmao

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[–] [email protected] 12 points 2 weeks ago

Was switching phones to the slightly less shitty one I have and lost half of my Yuri images :(

Like I have actual important photos I could've lost and yet its the Yuri that I'd making me distraught

[–] [email protected] 12 points 2 weeks ago (2 children)

For Xmas I got the gift of illness, caught some other respiratory thing no idea what, covid19 test still says negative, again have a fever, tonsils swollen af, congested AF with scary neon mucus, and a cough. It's kicking my ass to the point I had to miss out on work yet again, get more of these and I won't have to worry about getting fired due to a future surgery. Shame, I was getting better too. Unlike last time this time I'm so sick all I could do was lie around in a semi-sleep fever dream while a low grade fever makes me sweat it out. Last time was the cool illness, at least I had enough consciousness to read, this time is not so cool, can't even follow a movie or a non-theory ez book without falling asleep. This illness 0/10.

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[–] [email protected] 12 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

sadposting, a little bit of self-loathingI still don’t know where I stand with my friend or whether he likes me and it’s killing me. I wish I wasn’t too autistic to just know or that I wasn’t too anxious to just ask

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[–] [email protected] 11 points 2 weeks ago

My thought process every time I want to make a new account goes as follows:

Thinking about making a new hexbear account, hmm... Let's got for something unique this time... (Animal)(Gender)(Communist)

[–] [email protected] 11 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

Maybe I should have made this the thumbnail for the post. CW: Weezer

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[–] [email protected] 11 points 2 weeks ago

I've had a very cozy christmas so far. Baking sweets, enjoying time with my parents and finally allowing myself to just relax meow-coffee

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[–] [email protected] 11 points 2 weeks ago* (last edited 2 weeks ago) (2 children)

My dad got paint on my cardigan literally the exact minute I was trying to show off my new more androgynous glasses.

I'm not wearing my new glasses out. Not until I can honestly say that I have someone else on my side with this. Nobody gets to see them, and I don't give a shit that it's irrational.

I'm going to start getting very obstinant very soon, which is hard to consider considering that I am not getting and struggle to get therapy, and that's going to be stressful.

spoilerI wish I could make people see like, this is what being a boy has done to me. I hate myself because I grew up. I resent the passage of time. Did you want me to die? Because you didn't tell me you want me to live.

This is not a dramatic thought for me. This is a normal thing to think. If I'm not supposed to feel the swing of life and death in the balance, I need someone to explain to me what exactly I am supposed to be feeling. I do not understand what I am supposed to be doing to better myself when I am scared frozen about the things I know I should be doing. Nobody has had an answer for me. Maybe I'm fucked. Maybe I'm completely fucked and I'm going to die alone.

If I were the well adjusted one, and I could see that someone was going through this, I would not leave them there. And anyone who would isn't someone I wanna deal with. I would check in. I would want to help. And I don't think it's crazy to want to help. If it is crazy then yeah I am crazy. I am the lunatic that wants to help people and thinks that should be ubiquitous. I only withdrew when it became clear that helping others was only to my expense, and that the people I was helping didn't even really notice or appreciate what I was doing. If those people had noticed the way I would notice them, then they'd have seen what was going on, or maybe at least tried. That's what I do when someone mentions that they're having a problem. I'm serious, is that stupid? Am I a jerk for trying to help people? Am I an idiot? Am I dumb for waiting for that same validation in return? Am I dumb?

Yeah it's not greatWhen does someone notice? When does someone affirm? Am I a sociopath for being confused by the distinct lack of those things in my life and actively wanting them? Is something wrong with me that I want to be noticed for who I am? Is that why nobody responds? Do I give off the pheromones that signal to leave me for the vultures? Idfk.

I don't know what I'm doing wrong. If I text first, it will be to someone I haven't spoken to in years, it will 100% be to rant about wanting to die and hating being a boy, which nobody in my life up until 2019 was even remotely aware of as thoughts in my head. So I'm subjecting them to that. I was being a good friend by not overwhelming people with my problems, but I can start overwhelming people I guess

But iIf I say I'm doing fine I am LYING and why the fuck do I have to lie. That feels manipulative and like I'm reeling people in so they have to support me, when like, I want it to be mutual and from a place of understanding. But nobody is holding space for me to explain any of this so how do we even get to that point. How much patience do I have to hold for people who don't even know that I'm suffering? Isn't it a big problem that they don't know that I'm suffering even though I thought we were closer?

I don't know if anybody gets going this long with such strenuous connections. I haven't had a partner since the first Trump term. I haven't had friends since COVID. I look around me and these people were all fucking taught. They're all wizards because there's no way it can be this easy to speak without being hit or cursed or ridiculed.

ranting, being mad, hating lifeI'm pissed. I give up. You think I'm a boy I'm fucking done

Why is it so easy for everyone else to get support, I talk about my problems and people stare, whereas other people get suggestions and advice. I've seen it here idk what to do anymore idfk idfk idfk

I'd rather someone tell me to shut the fuck up at this point. Tell me I'm just a scared boy who needs a hike and forget I was born. It's better than the fucking silence I get on every forum and from every therapist

spoilerAnd then I text my brother who gives these canned responses like an alien who has not heard about the sorts of things I deal with even though we are siblings and have literally talked about these things. Text on a weeknight and I may as well be a goddamn stranger. Can I just not exist. Can I just disappear

These fucking people give me a million goddamn reasons to drink a year and it's like who the fuck is supposed to listen because so far it's nobody and it's like how is that fine. How is the world okay with this feeling. How.

very real talk about depressionIf I felt like my depression affected others, I would be able to start to justify embracing the scary stuff. But as it stands, I don't feel like the fact that I became suicidal and stopped talking to everyone during the pandemic has had a strong tangible impact on others. They all seemed to move on and do better than ever without me.

Nobody noticed what I was dealing with even though I spent years implying and hinting and outright saying I struggle with this and need people to talk to. I don't know how to be more direct than I was. But me disappearing didn't seem to bum anyone out, even though not having them was low-key traumatic for me and haunts me and affects my ability to form new friendships to this day.

Like, if I knew how upset it made others, that would help. I don't know if that's selfish or evil or unreasonable to want. I get sad when others are going through it. I want to know when others are upset about something, I'm just never around people who have emotional sorts of conversations. I'll talk about this stuff whenever, I don't know what secret hour neurotypicals or whoever start mentioning their feelings. I don't want to hide from uncomfortable or painful stuff. Others do, and that's why I don't fucking talk about it.

Like, me alone is how this happened. Is why I want to not exist. Is why I feel so lost. Why can't I not be alone? Just once, just once can there be someone who is there for me and I don't have to do everything they want, can someone see me and choose me and accept me and me not having to do anything other than be myself is all that it takes for it to happen. I have always had to try 150% to be a boy. I just want to be myself and have that be enough. Why do I have to do the games and the maneuvering and lying about being okay so you like me. Why

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[–] [email protected] 11 points 2 weeks ago (6 children)

CW: SIif i just spend every waking moment thinking about killing myself then eventually i'll come up with a single good reason not to! it's foolproof! i'm a fucking genius ahahahahaha!! hypersus

[–] [email protected] 12 points 2 weeks ago (1 children)

same spoilerAt my worst, the only reasons I didn't kill myself was because my ex wouldn't have taken care of the cats and I didn't want anyone finding my dead body and going through that shock. That was it, no other reasons to keep going. At one point I made a deal with myself to reassess after I finished the bottle of E because I was pretty close to attempting, had a plan a method all of it

It's all one day at a time.

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