I read ReadFanon’s account of AuDHD, and it was very relatable. I’m still afraid of inadvertently telling falsehood if I say I’m autistic. what if my other wolf is just OCD? Well, I don’t mask for have PTSD, so that could account for all the differences from their account, and therefore plausibly be autistic.

WOW, the moon looks fucking beautiful right now. they were not kidding about that orange super moon shit, it looks amazing. there's also a slight cloud cover, so the moon is just making this entire section of sky deep orange, it looks cool af.

It’s fucked up Dva is taller than me

there should only be four toes

Day two without smoking. Found some lozenges that are helpful. And using meditation to let go of the somatic and mental cravings.

Also, managed to sleep longer than 8 hours without drugs last night for the first time in awhile. Apparently wanting to get up for that morning smoke was really fucking with me.

Me sort of sitting on a “women’s” bike in a bike shop

Dude working there to person I’m with: “we also have a men’s version for him if he wants.”

Maybe he wasn’t actually referring to me? No, he was, later confirmed.

Just avoiding recognizing his existence.

I get I’m not trying to “pass” and anyone can wear an all pink outfit, but why do people gotta assume stuff? Doesn’t even seem at all like a reactionary.

Watching a video on Fallow by some g*mer nerd. Watching Fallow being perceived.

I have been asked to talk about philosophy no fewer than 4 times in the past 3 days by internet trans people. Trachat is a hell of a drug.

Is it weird that I like to eat raw dough/pasta/batter?

like I had pancakes this morning and I licked the unused batter clean from the bowl and I thought it tasted better than the actual pancakes (the pancakes were good I just like the batter more). Also whenever I make pasta I snack on the raw pasta while I wait for the water to boil. I only really do this for like "bread" based things, I would never eat like raw rice or anything like that

I brought some mail to my little sister, she's going to the same university I did a while ago. This is the trans part: it was so bizarre walking in, the last time I had been there I was still wearing a bralette and panties under my clothes. I thought about saying hi to my old profs but it's still summer so they're probably not in - but also I dunno if I could... I left in such weird covid era circumstances

I feel like the list of manmade horrors I can comprehend is quite a bit larger than that which I cannot. my comprehensive comparability for comprable manmade horrors is more than adequate

power user dynamics

Different date format this time