Went out fully femme in a non-school context for the first time. I was planning on doing it with a friend but they were really busy so I just bit the bullet and did it alone. I think it was a bit too much all at once though, it was really overwhelming and my heart was beating out of my chest the entire time till I got home. I'm proud of myelf for doing it and glad that I did though. I even got complimented on my outfit by some other trans people at the store I went to!

How do I explain, both to other people and myself, these feelings (especially why they are new). It just feels really weird coming out of no where and saying "hey guys, I know you've never seen me as anything but a guy and I've never really had a problem with that, until now when I'm suddenly very bothered by the idea, but also gender is some innate thing I was born with."

I feel like I can't be trans or I'd have known/felt dysphoria for longer :kitty-cri: but also I don't want to be a cis man.

friend watched i saw the tv glow and messaged me to say "yeah i'm still cis"

Does someone know some text-based ressources for voice training? I know of the youtube channel, but I work better with written instructions. I just have an easier time understanding and internalizing the information when it's written.

helo yes how do you do fellow trans women, i sure do love and enjoy taking my e hormone known as uhhh...

I have started actually trying out voice training excercises, and have realized that my vibes based approach of just humming music as high as I can without my voice breaking, maybe wasn't that bad after all.

Also imitating the sounds my dog used to make, has given me a bigger vocal range.

I am still going to continue with the actual excercises, but I'll also continue just playing with my voice while having a walk or something. I used to sind a lot as a child, before my voice dropped.

I got told today by my endo that I likely have PMDD (Pre-menstrual Dysphoric Disorder). Considering there’s not a ton of research on the matter, he says it’s hard to say for certain if that’s the case, but will be treating it as such. Hoping that it can be diminished somewhat cause it is so debilitating.

Edit: Added a link for info.

you should watch i saw the tv glow. it might be the best piece of trans art i've ever seen

i wrote a big long effortpost which isn't very good but it's there and you should read it and then watch the movie

Chat I promise I won't liveblog about this, but I gotta say nothing beats the feeling of cracking the spine on some trans litfic and getting blasted in the face with cool, weird or just unfamiliar stuff. The stone-blunt first chapter is a genre hallmark, really.

need to go to girl sleep in my girl bed and have girl dreams. goodnight little trans people in my computer

On a more positive note, loving my new dresses, and I have a couple extremely supportive friends who make me feel very loved 💜 Things will get better :)

Just got back from the military check up, if anyone is wondering, they saw them, but they didn't touch them

got courage to put pics up on sniffies... great compliments on my t-dick

Fic idea:

Egg visits silent Hill. Wakes up in the other world as a woman.

Haunted by manifestations of dysphoria that eventually lead to self acceptance. Themes of fear and sexuality.

Someone get on it. Thank me later.

stuck between my urge to look like a cute girl and my urge to look like