Posting from my hospital room this week. Hope everyone is doing well.

-explaining to a gamer-

Okay, you know how sometimes you start a game, and you have to pick a build, but nobody really tells you anything about it, so you just pick the one that is recommended and looks easy? But after some time, you realize that you aren't having fun with that build, but people around are used to you playing that build? You want to respec, but respeccing costs money, and once you respec, there's gonna be a long period of you being really bad at playing your new build?. It's like that.

Gay for boys, straight for girls

man why does this suck what gives

Gay Straight for boys, straight gay for girls

oh wait this is much better now

Been trying voice training, and I showed my wife my femme voice, and she, very supportively said, "it sounds really good. You sound like contrapoints :)))"

🤮 🤮 🤮

Got a black oversized hoodie, hell yeah time

Having a voice that doesn't pass

Voice training

just become nonverbal lol

i feel like the easiest way to pass is to simply have long hair

Forced feminisation, but instead of just being a kink you are on a mission to awaken all transfemmes to their identities :)

down with cis

Still recovering. Will be going home later today, but I still have trapped gas in my shoulders causing me severe pain when I need to move. Also developed some nausea over the past 24 hours. Feeling generally unwell. Not sure if normal or something I should alert someone about.

I’ve made so many stenciled cloth patches recently and here are some I thought the mega might enjoy

Damn that last mega really was poppin' off, love to see it ❤

Rolling my eyes into the back of my head when I see transfems on reddit unironically saying hrt changes sexuality

about a week before i was able to come out to myself as trans my dear trans femme friend sent me this poem to look over. i remember being moved by the second paragraph, but i couldn't make any sense of the third

it all really is too clear now

Hexbear is alive

Why is my dislike of being a guy getting stronger

This was not supposed to happen

trying to figure out your trans when you're bisexual is really weird and hard. like, both are great? i don't want to look like a man, but at the same time, men are really fucking hot??? what gives?

oh my it is good and back to be posting. I don't know if I should post the exact date but like

appointment with Planned Parenthood? Booked at about 2.5 months out!!!

Happy 4/20! oops I mean Eclipse Day

Moved back home recently, got keys for my new electrolysis clinic, bout to zap the fuck out of my community

reminder: being a trans woman is cool and awesome

just some rambling (cw racism)

moved from rural yorkshire to montreal last year
been thinking a lot about yorkshire, i miss it a lot - being surrounded by hills in valleys for 20ish shaped me a lot i think..
for the first few years of my life i essentially lived in a slum in bradford; from as early i can remember my mum told me about how nice bradford was during her childhood and blamed polish and pakistani people for ruining it. of course, she was describing white flight and the intentional destruction of bradford by the state wielding the automobile.

blah blah p*kis caused this

that's racist

i would say

(mockingly) that's racist

she would reply to 7 or 8 year old me. what 0 materialism does to a mf!

a couple of years ago i moved to a town in the happy valley with a trans girl from northern ireland i met on 4chan, we'd only met irl once before moving in together (purely platonic). she was a complete lib and i only realised how rude and cruel she'd been to me after i moved out. we were both desperate to get away from our parents. she'd make constant comments about my weight (not that it matters, but I had a normal BMI!) and call me a 0 effort passoid. eventually i cut her off after a fucking episode of the rehearsal of all things. we still lived together for a few weeks and during that time she ruined some of my medication that i had to keep in the fridge. it was the zionist episode and she had some interesting opinions on jews. she justified those opinions to me after i challenged her on them, "everyone on twitter says...."

i feel an overwhelming sense of powerlessness when i think of yorkshire. god's own country, truly. the conditions some people live in there are horrible. as soon as i moved to quebec i could only think how people would react if they knew how high north american living standards are. i miss the market towns (despite being full of pensioners), i miss the cities (despite being full of londoners), i miss the stunning landscape (despite it being continually ravaged). the roman empire was once ruled from york and now it's a glorified tourist attraction. i feel like i lost something i never had

Adventure time giving me so much gender envy lol

There's actually no such thing as being cisgender. Everyone is already trans, and all trans people know it, it's just considered rude to point that fact out since peopleneed to figure that out on their own with only gentle guidance. We're all eggs and Hexbear is on a mission to make the world's biggest omelet.

The masculine urge to shave my entire body

Has anyone reviewed the allegations made here? https://transrescuewatch.medium.com/the-trans-rescue-papers-when-help-looks-more-like-human-trafficking-exploitation-4e3d7886bfbc

I don't know what to make of it, but I think it's worth taking a really hard look at any questionable aspects of orgs if we're going to promote them here.

Major breast pain the last few days, hoping it's a sign of growth happening.

Just a few weeks into HRT my aerolas got really puffy, and went from being mostly flat to small mounds, but almost nothing else has happened except directly around them yet, and it makes me feel insecure about wearing tighter shirts and stuff.

I think I have been very dysphoric lately, and it's possibly because I have done very few gender affirming things. I just am too nervous to be perceived.

I now hav an appointment with an hrt person, at a place recommended to me by the local trans community. Hope it will go well.

Connecting with the locals is really important, does not solve everything, but for example I, without them, would have needed several more months till I tried again at a doctors apoointment.

hardcore boymoding, changing tires with my dad who doesn't know I'm trans and hoping that one of my bra straps doesn't show

i keep looking in the mirror and thinking how much i don't look like a girl, but i always immediately follow that thought up with "yeah and imagine how funny it's going to be in the before and after pics when you're the cutest girl in this hemisphere" and immediately start giggling to myself

Me 4(+) years ago: I want to be more feminine. I want to be "mistaken" for a girl.

[Does fuck all, except having these thoughts for years]

Me now: I'm trans.

Wow, well done Edward for finally internalising this. Too bad the younger you would write about this in your notebook and then throw it out, not like we would ever want it later would we?

Now what Edward? Time for change, or do we just continue with the same policy.