I still believe

of course I'd post this, who do you think I am xDDDDD

I am Pagliacci.

Honestly, they were mostly useless old farts nostalgic for PRL or larpers, so not much was lost. But still, it is grim that this finally has happened.

I feel only comfortable posting it here. Shows how much I like this place, and how much I trust you gays to actually know your stuff. And yeah, I'm posting it here because where else, this is gender type shit.

Since Deltarune launched, and now even stronger since Ch3+4, I've associated with Ralsei very strongly. Just like me, he's basically an emotional wreck, who knows too much and tries to hide his pain. At the same time, his friends are his world and mean everything to him, just like mine to me. I even want to be like him, just a cute guy who loves to serve his friends and loved ones. So much so, that I feel like I'm projecting onto him way, way too hard. There are plenty people with a "ralsei is a transfem egg" headcannon, and I don't know why, but stuff like that makes me feel uncomfrotable.

Like, when I'm seeing this stuff I feel as being asked to be someone I'm not. It's just a fictional character, the dude supposedly doesn't even really exist in the world he's from. People can make him out whoever the fuck they want him to be. So why do I feel this way?

At the same time, I feel as existing itself as who I want to be is difficult. The gender norms required of cis men exhaust and sadden me, and if I don't fit into them I'm going to be targeted. Right now I'm just a guy, when I want to be 🌺𝒿𝓊𝓈𝓉 𝒶 𝑔𝓊𝓎🌺. Even then, trying to browse for makeup guides, or clothing styles makes me feel, unfulfilled, empty, and left guessing (Add some anxiety to that for some reason, maybe I'm overthinking the whole living in Poland thing). It's mostly either with femboys in mind, you know the one singular aesthetic that feels like a porn category. Or you know, just outright for women. And I'm not a woman, egg discourse annoys me because of that. I feel stuck, like I don't fit in within heteronormative spaces or queer spaces.

Maybe that's why I like Ralsei so much. I've never seen something like me outside of myself before.

Am I a cishet queer thing? What the fuck even am I?

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All of these recommendations for Falkon, Palemoon, Seamonkey. Honestly? None of these really make a difference to me, and Falkon actually runs like shit while not really reducing resource use!

Librewolf genuinely runs perfectly for me while taking up slightly (like 10%) more ram and vastly less cpu time. And it being a fork of Firefox, I can easily use all the addons I need (or can afford) to browse the web.

With Falkon stuff barely worked, was slow, and features were missing. With Librewolf, h264ify and a Youtube video as an embed within a tab. I can watch 720p/30fps video without issue. It baffles me on why this concept even exists, when the problem that is the modern web creates is that you really can't make a new, much less lightweight, browser or engine.

And I don't particularly care for Ladybird.

Okay but what shitbox are you running?

Thank you for asking imaginary poster in my head. Intel Atom N2600 with 1GB of DDR3 ram. It sucks. And it is testament to me just how nonsensical lightweight web browsers are, I'm sure that it's Antix that is making it all work. Also I wrote this post on this shitty netbook and it's weirdly smooth happily enough.

the catholic church is a blight on the world and was directly responsible for reinstating capitalism into Poland, it must be destroyed mercilessly