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definitely not just uploading a picture of one of my plants because i forgot about this mega
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I used the serving plate example cause that's what terminal said. My specific fantasies goes as far as me cracking open skulls and scooping the insides like ice cream.
As for your example of someone being in pain while I eat them? If I didn't hate that person (ex - this person was a corporate/fascist responsible for lots of suffering), then doing this to a person would still be enjoyable. And guilt inducing enough for me to jump off a bridge afterwards. That's what I think it'd go like if I actually went through with eating them.
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So, yes, you would be uncomfortable with it in the form of guilt, but have the fantasy urge nonetheless and lack the initial disgust impulse.I don't see why them being a corpo or fash would make it better. Cannibalism isn't really equivalent to just killing, it's ethically more akin to sexual assault (defilement of body without consent (which, if the person is someone you hate, they wouldn't consent to you doing it, unless it's under duress)). Cruelty for the sake of cruelty isn't ethically justifiable just because the person was herself cruel.
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It's more so that I wouldn't feel guilt about it.
I know, which is why it's another reason I hate myself and why I put off discussing this when I first brought it up. Cause this just clicked when I thought about it and it spooked me too much.
::: spoiler spoiler 1 thing then I'm stepping out of this because it is obvious my philo brain is not helpful rn:
Fantasies are inert so long as they do not influence action or belief. Punishing yourself for having the fantasy itself isn't helpful. Working to decouple the fantasy from your self-image and beliefs is usually better.