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dysphoria but optimistic, diet/exercise stuff, family shit (positive?), hikikomori recovery, interpersonal relationship stuff, woo mystic shroom shit
Been going sicko mode at the gym for 37 days now(?) daily, sometimes twice a dayDown ten pounds
Still unhappy with body, but going for a shower after yesterday squished my tummy inwards in the mirror, and saw myself there for the first time in like 4 years??
There are inescapable aspects of my physique that I can't do anything about, but I felt like for the first time in ages that feeling okay about myself was something attainable?
Like I can't really do anything about my shoulder width or height, but my hips and actually look pretty good??
Like if I slim down more and do more squats and hip stuff and core work, I might look like a tall (weird, buff) woman(ish) person instead of "weird queer androgynous guy"
I might look into corset training too? IDK
Reached out to cool lesbian aunt who's my closest family member, only one I'm out to, she was very supportive and liked my enby helix ear piercing idea
Been really pushing myself to improve like I'm trying to make up for lost time
Been a hermit p much for 4 years
Done a good amount of shrooms lately, think my old best friend from 4/5 years ago that I've been meaning to reconnect with is actually my soul mate??
Like we were never romantic, but loved each other deeply and were both only child ppl with fucked up parents and when we got to know each other, it was like we knew each other our entire lives and were sisters that spent our whole lives looking for each other
IDK what to make of that
I'd happily spend the rest of my life committed to this person, but the hypothetical idea of a romantic relationship feels really weird and confusing to me
This is the only person I've ever known that I fully felt understood me intuitively and like we've known each other our entire lives, and I fucking ghosted them because I was a depressed coward
I dunno what I feel
I feel like I love them more than most married couples I know seem to love each other but the idea of us as a couple instead of like, queer soulmate siblings is very confusing to me
They wrote me a letter when I went dark years ago saying they'd always welcome me back into their life, but this long into missing them, the thought of being rejected by them (which I'd totally understand based on how I've acted) might actually kill me
I dunno, I'm drunk and very emotional and miss them more than I think I can continue to bear
My heart hurts
I'm so lonely
I miss my best friend
I hate myself for who I've been for the last half decade
I can't stop thinking about "what could have been" if I had my shit together then
Sorry for being a downer lovely ppl
Gonna go try to sleep off this melancholy
you're not a downer!! proud of you and your gains. I can sympathize with your confusing feelings too, i'm having similar issues that i'm hoping are just meds related. C'est la vie! Good luck!
Not doomer, Iโm happy for you! :3 Based on your description your feelings are totally understandable and alright, but it sounds like you should indeed reconnect if they meant what they said. Wishing you luck!