My egg fully cracked when I was at Anthrocon 2022. I had an artist named "Dark Natasha" commissioned to make a new badge for me. I had been questioning myself for some time prior to this, but I couldn't come to accept it for various reasons. I was originally just going to ask for a "more femme" badge of my fursona, but after fighting with myself, I changed it to straight female. Over the next 24 hours, I was agonizing over it and terrified as all hell. I knew deep down inside that it would change my life, but I didn't want to accept it. I ended up waiting until right before the Dealer's Den closed the day for pick-up before I picked it up. Once I did, I picked it up and took one look at it. I was entranced by it and just starting bawling in the middle of a rather decently sized crowd. In that moment, my life was changed forever. I finally came to accept that I was trans.

What finally made me fully accept that I was trans and put my worries to the sword was that I was about a year and a half into my transition. I had been fighting and fighting to change my life and change my appearance hard. I put a ton of effort into everything I had done up to that point. I had voice trained for a long time. I had changed my clothes. I had changed just about every aspect of my social self. I still had prying questions into myself and was wondering if I actually was truly trans (for various reasons that I shan't get into). Then I decided to think on it and came to a very simple conclusion. Who in their mind would willingly change their lives with such a great amount of effort? I mean, I even estranged family and was very shortly getting bottom surgery. I also oft proclaimed that I would absolutely refuse to ever go back to who I used to be. Who would do this if they were cis? Literally no one. And then finally the questions ceased. Now, I live my best life. I'm truly happy for the first time in my life. And you know what? I woudn't exchange it for anything.