(I think I'm on top of my own brain enough that I'm not in any danger to myself, this ain't my first rodeo.
and I've removed myself from anything that could escalate)
family shit, mental health breakthrough/down, sui baiting, raging, extremely pitch black bile vomiting bitter lizard brain fight or flight rage
spoiler no I'm serious, this is the angriest and most hateful screaming into the void shit I've ever posted and you'll probably regret reading it
okay, last warning
finally snapped and fucking lost it at my piece of shit worthless disgusting scumbag dad after he got aggro at me about me going to recycle a years worth of inhaler boxes he had dumped everywhere on the floor of his disgusting shithole bathroom after I FUCKING CLEANED IT FOR HIM AT THE ONLY OPPORTUNITY I HAD TO WHEN HE LEFT HIS HOUSE TO BUY BOOZE (THE ONLY FUCKING REASON HE'LL PUT PANTS ON AND LEAVE THE HOUSE, BUT STILL REFUSES TO SHOWER FOR THREE FUCKING WEEKS) and I kinda blacked out from adrenaline and don't remember what I said verbatim, but it definitely involved telling him he's a disgusting decrepit braindead miserable piece of shit that's done nothing but unsuccessfully attempt to drink himself to death for 15 years, because he can't even do that right and just expects his family to put up with him, buy him more booze and take him to urgent care when he falls
Somehow managed to keep myself from getting physical with him other than spitting in his face and telling him everyone that's actually still in his life, ESPECIALLY him, would be immeasurably happier if he fucking killed himself and quit wasting everyone's fucking time making himself and everyone that has to actually interact with him sick
Stormed out and beat the absolute shit out of his barbecue with a baseball bat and I think I might have broken a bone in my hand and hacked the fuck out of a maple sapling out front with a machete
I'm really glad the neighbors weren't home
spoiler self harm I'm gonna go buy a pack of smokes, chainsmoke until I'm sick, resist the urge to put them out on myself, then go to the gym and test one rep maxes before all the adrenaline wears out and I crash :::
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Awoouu (wolf Howl)
scrap Alanis Morissette
get scrapped by the big wet boy worse than Hillary did
Ironic
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I had a really long and stressful day but it was productive and now Rosie is curled up in my lap while I play my vidya and listen to my slop
Many people are saying this
Hello new trans mega 
I went for two different walks today and my legs are feeling p o w e r f u l
Night walk had a pretty moon view ✨
Aww, thank you! 
I forgot about making the comment too, so rereading this all kinda helped me mentally get my footing with some recent uncomfortable stuff with some family relationships.
Black Ops II on 360 lol 
(I like to play something familiar and mindless while I listen to slop. 5v5 botmatch kill confirmed where you set kills to 1 each and confirms to 2, play to 300, 15 minutes, custom class picks raised to 17, and the FJH-18 AA banned. I wish I had the DLC, idk if it's even possible to get now on 360. Did they ever release a GOTY kinda version that came with all the DLC?)
Checked a notification I got in the trans mega and the comment chain doesn't appear, and the original post for the mega about Leslie Feinberg displays but none of the comments appear for me. When I go to the c/traaaaaaannnnnnnnnns page, no threads appear. Did the com get scrubbed or is this some bug on my end?
sick Banjo ROMhacks incoming
Target Locator go brrrrrrr
Dudes rock
"Death is Just Around the Corner.*
Well I grew up in the client-state of a petro king with a complicated take on things like human rights, But baby that's the sacrifice, for bringing joy to the world
And I learned young how the west was won, with Christ's big heart and a bigger gun But it wasn't enough so we took the moon Because nazi rocket science too, can bring joy to the world
The war on drugs, this righteous cause To clear our streets of criminals, now civilized by an opioid, so the Sackler family can enjoy Spreading joy around the world
New York City, the world loves you and retribution was surely duе To the zealots who brought you hell, boy thе heroes in Langley taught them well How to infiltrate joy into the world
Can’t we all just get along like Amazon and Raytheon Coming together to make a drone To bring us lunch and kill their sons in a synergistic 2-for-1 Ballistic joy to the world
Please stop resisting all the joy in your world Just a car full of celebrities singing about the joy in your world
A string of bad luck, in this final turn, we gathered around and watched our cities burn “Who could have possibly predicted this?!” said everyone
So we'll boldly venture into the black, guided by a Grimes soundtrack We'll liberate some foreign stars and stick a flag on the face of mars There’s beauty in starting again, patient zero of original sin As the mantra rings across the land “how clever, look at us, we've done it again!”
We're bringing joy to whole new worlds You must admit we've certainly got a knack for bringing joy To whole new worlds In time these aliens will learn to love the joy We bring to whole new worlds
We're bringing joy to your world You’d better hope you don't have cheap bananas or else we're bringing joy to your world You’d better hope you don't have dead dinosaurs or we'll bring joy to your world You’d better hope you don't have big plans or else we're bringing...
One of the things I love about baseball is athletes that are built like midwestern uncles popping off against other players that are built like Olympians
Schwarber looks like he eats cheesesteaks for protein and has a training regimen of splitting firewood and shoveling driveways in the winter and he absolutely killed the Dodgers last night
dealing with a (terminally) alcoholic relative, mental breakdown, advice seeking
If anyone is up to reading the bleakest shit ever and has some advice, I'd really appreciate it