DakRalter

There used to be a red and blue gradient background here. Now it's gone. I reset the theme, but it still shows white text on white background. Not that big of a deal as there's nothing there I need to read, but still mildly annoying. Also it means the switch user option isn't visible now.

Also is this how the surface colour setting is meant to work? I wanted the background colour in light mode to be an off-white so it's easier on the eyes, but there doesn't seem to be a way?

Thanks!

https://jorts.horse/@glencoe/114237597022881650

From https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=yDjlRu4CnjI

NomoSapienss: Park Tool company is the father I never had!

ParkTool: We're proud of you, son 💙

This time, Jenny is done with his crap and walking away from a toxic relationship.

(Background iimage by DallE 3)

Warning: ranting.

Like many, I was fobbed of with an anxiety disorder NOS diagnosis. I assumed that what I felt was anxiety. Last autumn I got to the top of the waiting list for anxiety therapy.

And it was useless. It got to the point where it felt like the therapist was trying to push low self esteem onto me so she could cure me of it, and thereby cure my anxiety.

I tried to explain to her that my anxiety wasn't based on irrational thoughts, but experience. If I have to go somewhere I'm not familiar with, I will get overloaded with all the new input. I will struggle to process it because I need to be alone to process. The same applies to my feelings. I can't deal with them when I need to, because I can't identify them. So all this makes me scared because I know it will exhaust me or make me shut down. I just see this void when I don't have any reference images. The more I can fill in that picture, the less anxious I feel. Because I can process this in advance (eg using streetview to memorise a route and save landmarks so I can navigate).

No, she says. It's because you have low self esteem. Now write down some bad statements about yourself and say them out loud.

In my quest to educate her, I came across this article and it makes so much sense why CBT wasn't working. The anxiety diagnosis doesn't fit.

Even after asking her to learn about autistic anxiety, she didn't bother. So next session I gave her a printout of that article. Something told me she wouldn't bother to learn anything from it, so I discharged myself.

Is what you're feeling anxiety or overwhelm? Does the anxiety come because you know from your own experience that something will cause you to struggle? Is the feeling more akin to dread?

Someone on Mastodon shared this link with me, and I thought you might find it as interesting as I do.

I really hate the misconception of the spectrum. It enables nasty people like Ellen degeneres to justify being a bully (in case you missed it, she tried to get diagnosed autistic. When that didn't work, she said, well it's a spectrum so we're all a little autistic, so I'm not a bully). And enables others to dismiss our struggles, cos hey, we're all on the spectrum!

Back to the article, I feel like I'm a mix of the three examples. I can see some that match from each example. How about you? When I stop feeling so lazy, I might do my own custom one.

He is such a chill dude! Can you believe HE wanted MY autograph? I wish I could have thought of more things to ask him about. I'm still a noob at bike mechanics, and a slow learner, but he was so encouraging and kind, and a lot of fun!

He really is a mechanical hero!

It's bike spokes, I swear.

What was your favourite moment of the game?