Had a weird dream that I was a circus freak and my main gimmick was getting shot and it only hurting like hell instead of killing me.

There's something darkly comedic.

I'm very much aware of how historically circuses displayed marginalized people to white audiences and if I did deeper of the perception of pain white people assign to poc. I do be wondering how much I dissociate the pain I feel because of this reason vs say toxic masculinity. It's probably a mix of both either way I want both of these cops in my head dead so I can feel what I feel in peace. I know I'm never gonna be free of suffering but I don't wanna have to gaslit myself that it's not so bad

perhaps I said my piece too quickly...

The irony is Islamophobia increased in the past 2 years

Hmm, now to think, I haven't heard of such things done against Jews that were done against Muslims...

Some people do get it but others you feel like interacting with a broken record

tangentially related but the idea of someone asking your race like that is so fucking rude, especially if its a stranger doing it. no one does that here. no one outside america and perhaps some european countries do that. absurd.

I'd argue America invented racism, at least systematic racism

Country that is the chief in exploiting poor countries and sanctions 60 percent or more of the poorest nations (my country included), has shit like monroe doctrine, has nationalist in office and white nationalists party, flags of confederates flown all over the place which would be seen as treason almost any other place in the world given the history but racist brainworms keep normalising it. Even with the layman's how many convos or jokes with em eventually turn racial? Twitter is shite but the delusion is all over.

Edit to add they've managed to demonise Muslims to an extreme degree despite their country being the one contributing to millions of their deaths. No one right now has the numbers they have (tho not for lack of trying)

pretty much every minority i've ever known here has stockholm syndromed themselves into bootlicking just for a taste of adjacency to white people, or has been completely forgotten, abandoned, ostracized, hurt, or killed. not sure it gets more racist than that, it's extremely sinister the way they've convinced people if you're not getting called slurs just for stepping out the house then racism doesn't exist. and the slurs come around anyways

White Americans live in a bubble

I’m pretty sure there were people who were more into clubbing and watching films. Then the war began and it became harder to ignore.

I'm going to the DPRK the first chance I get, become an american "defector" and tell everyone about how the president is a pedophile who kidnaps people to foreign countries (wait I forgot to lie)

Being a materialist and realizing that poverty is a war to rob the working class peoples of their current and future lives has disabused any liberal notion of "giving up" anything.

My parents were immigrants, I'll likely be an immigrant as well, best spend my life building socialism with the skills Ive gained in the West.

I think things are bad globally, minus a few countries, and there's no actual escaping. But if things get really bad I'm going to my parents country.

The smart answer is "Hell yes".

I am not smart. I am territorial. I get very attached to what I know and love and do not want to leave it. I am probably autistic.

I had asked myself this question in 2015 and 2016 because Trump was so scary. The wave of genocidal white supremacy he was riding looked so powerful, and I thought that staying here might mean death. I had a friend in Canada urging me to move up with her. But I thought about it, and the answer I arrived at was basically, "this is my home, this is my land. The insects I love will not be somewhere else. The birds I love will not be somewhere else. The trees I love will not be somewhere else. The people I love will not be somewhere else. Sure there's probably other good things elsewhere, but it's not what I've known my whole life. This is my home, and if I'm given a choice between dying to stay here and living somewhere else, I will die here, and I'll take as many of the fuckers who want to expel or kill me with me when they come for me."

A ridiculous sentiment for the child of two people who are halfway across the world from their homelands. But I'm not my parents. I'm me. And even though my life has fallen apart here, this is still my stance. I just don't want to leave.

It'd be tough for me. Even outside of the context of the current environment here, I've always told other people from the same background as me that I could never really see myself moving back to my parents home country. Even though their country is a short plane ride away, my dad would make yearly trips and leave us here, unlike how other kids I knew who would go every summer. So I don't really have a deep connection and even as an adult I've never really felt the desire to reconnect. And it has its own history seeped in the exploitation and blood of POC so its like... I'd be trading the US for a nation that, under the influence of the US, hasn't had a vastly different history aside from being exploited by the US all the same.

If I absolutely saw myself in a situation where I had no choice at all then the only place I could think of is Cuba.

Absolutely ICE is only gonna get more and more aggressive and I fear for my family. I very much doubt liberals will ever do anything meaningful about ICE/border patrol, ideal scenario would be we somehow lived in china but more realistically prob mexico since with the new president things seems to be getting better there at least.

yes, i mean i'm about to try that (not so legally and HOPEFULLY never coming back) myself very very soon so we will see!

I don't think things will get better, but I don't think I would leave anyway. Fighting is both necessary and I love doing it.