doomer

"It was real. I'd seen it. I'd seen it in reality. The mask of humanity fall from capital. It has to take it off to kill everyone — everything you love; all the hope and tenderness in the world. It has to take it off, just for one second. To do the deed. And then you see it. As it strangles and beats your friends to death... the sweetest, most courageous people in the world... You see the fear and power in its eyes. Then you know. That the bourgeois are not human."

I break down crying about this shit at least once a day. There is so much injustice and cruelty in the world. I am constantly aware of it, it weighs on me at all times. I don't know what's wrong with other people, that they don't feel the pain of others, don't want to help, don't care.

I keep getting reminded every time I browse this site. Almost all the time all you read are how fucked everything is, with no light at the end of tunnel. Just feeling like you are forced to live with the fact that everything will get worse, and the monsters responsible will never face any consequences, and the world will remain like this until humanity filters itself out.

In my bleakest moments, I think humanity was defeated in 1919 and that everything since then has been the last sputterings of a dying patient

But everything is dynamic. Eventually, even if there is utter failure here & now, victory will come and then a new horizon of history will open up beyond class struggle.

Yeah, a lot of times I think about stuff like this. It gets really overhwhelming, so don't dwell on it too long and make sure to take care of yourself

Idk what else to say really other than yeah, humanity was not meant to be set up this way, but as the result of 100s of years of chasing money, here we are, where i will never be able to afford my own home or do tons of other things that even a generation ago were considered "normal" for people my age.

You're lucky you can chug gin, I can't due to medication. Drink one for me please?

Sumerian Peasant: Well, no shit things are bad, you don't have a ziggurat dedicated to Inanna in any of your cities.

I should have gotten weapons despite it all

yes sometimes i get hit with a tidal wave of awareness and it challenges my sanity, really. I have to somehow let it pass so I can work my job and keep a roof over my head but it sticks there like a splinter in my mind.

Yes, I do. tbh with you lately its been climate change but capitalism continues to surprise me with both how bad it is and how many people still think its workable.

I am chuggin gin tonight

Oh I was hoping that would make me forget this shit.

I’ve been aware since I was old enough to form memories. My country and the area of it I live in give you constant reminders of it. It’s something you just kind of grow numb to after a while.

personally i'm just playing the long game, prepping myself for death, clinging less, eventually everything we know will perish regardless, it helps that i got out 95% of the things i wanted to do with my life out of the way and have some spiritual beliefs about this life vs the next/the last. it's a sad ending but i feel fairly proud and content about what i got done with the seed i spawned in

Yes and honestly it has just Jokerized me.

I don't see society as anything worth contributing to anymore in the imperial core. I'll gladly be a "leech" in this system.

Everyday for over a decade 😮‍💨

Yeah it’s been worse lately for sure, menty b’s used to be an annual/biannual thing but now are much more regular- for the same reasons others have mentioned- grief for a world in pain, grief for powerlessness, grief for seeing capital warp some and crush others. What’s helped? Idk. Been getting into philosophy/theology a bit and my takeaway has been, “existence is suffering, our purpose is to lessen that suffering for those around us in whatever way we can”. At its minimum that’s carrying a lighter or cash so I can share with someone who asks, and that’s led to lots of interesting conversations with people…and often hearing fun new ways how they’re being fed headlong into the woodchipper :/ BUT it’s reinforced my connection and commitment to exactly who we’re hoping to shape a better world for.

TLDR: life is an endless cycle of suffering, but as you have the capacity, you can be a port in the storm for others and thereby find solace in their camaraderie. It doesn’t fix the suffering, but it gives a small ember of hope.

Every waking moment

We aren’t seen as human to the super rich, they see us as shit and them as better than us. Simple as that. That’s why they should be taxed beyond existence or shot.

Edit; I missed the word rich.

Hyperaware of it to the point that I've been basically paralyzed with fear, disgust, and ultimately apathy since late bush/early obama.

I think learning about the Waco Horror (the lynching of Jesse Washington) was the big "We're not gonna make it, are we?" moment for me. The mask of humanity sure slipped off everyone's face with that one - they fucking broke his teeth out as souvenirs and took christmas card photos with the burnt corpse. Sort of shit that's somehow both "eye-wateringly brutal" evil and "banality of evil" evil at the same time.

no never

Found a pretty affordable place to get weed vape carts so being fried all day helps keep the thoughts away

Now imagine being vegan, or much worse, being one of the other animals you all pay to have killed so you can eat them.

We live in hell, some of us more than others.