Thinking about an event in my teens when I was having pre-drinks with a bunch of guys, and one of them was joking about how I was mean to him, and I said a cutesy "aww, i'm sorry". It was kind of a dickhead frat bro-ish group and everyone just looked down and got super quiet for like 5 seconds and it was so fucking awkward.

After that I realised I needed to act more masculine or people will think i'm fucking weird and I basically repressed my "natural" personality and way of communicating for years.

Boymoding in a pink hoodie today.
I will be dammed if I get sir’d

Fuck landlords actually.

went and took a concealed carry class yesterday and was apprehensive because i dressed full femme. It was hosted at a local pistol range. It ended up being lovely. The instructor was extra friendly to me (I sat in the front row). A cute little queer person (Pretty sure) was there and complimented my earrings. I love my town. I love being a woman!

awa :3

HRT update: skin is getting softer.

Not all of it has changed yet so there'll be, like, sudden patches where it's less soft on, like, my arms or legs.

Bits that've changed feel nice, still getting used to the difference in how clothes feel on my skin though.

Sorry I'm late

Up with the trans

So hear me out: What if we somehow sponsor every single trans person in the UK to move to occupied Ireland/Belfast. Then, once they’re all living there, they all vote to leave terf island and reunify, then become new Irish citizens. So we save our trans comrades from the UK gov and reunite Ireland at the same time.

What do you all think?

Me when my wife is cuddling me:
Me when I wake up and can’t get back to sleep:

Previous me joking, "Haha transitioning is kind of hard. What if I just obliterate my self and desire and become someone who doesn't care nearly as much about dresses and skirts again?"

New me,

one of the cats won't stop harassing me so here's his message to you all:

nnnnnnnnnnnnnnbghhhbbbgbvfcvc cbn

Approval for the actual surgery part of my FFS went through today, all that's left now is to schedule it and start counting down. And if that wasn't amazing enough, I also finally got a refund check I've been expecting (but was told it could have come as late as 2028 lol) and it's more than I thought it was gonna be. Truly a fantastic day.

this thread is reminding me of how badly i've wanted to learn rust for years (shaking my fist at uni-aged self who had way too much free time). i got too many hobbies and my job is programming. i just don't have the spoons

transgender

I'm getting my orchi on Jan. 10 and am starting the process of getting top surgery. Not sure I'll be able to get top surgery before they ban gov coverage of GAC but at least I got the process started. If they do, I'll get it done privately and raise the money the old fashioned way, a combination of getting on my knees and also mutual aid

Thought I was a boy-wife, but maybe I'm a girl-husband instead?

Getting the gender marker updated at the Social Security Administration office was easy, once I was able to get an appointment. Was complete within 5 minutes, and the staff was nice.

a kiddo brought me their cup, seemingly very clean, and they started telling me about how they drank milk out of it and cleaned it up after and i had to ruin their day by informing that i still needed to wash it

This fateful day, I thought to change my display name on my laptop away from my legal name, and well, one thing led to another, and I'm now a NixOS user.

rewatching I saw the tv glow and god damn they perfectly managed to capture the vibe of a deeply repressed egg in Owen. I'm genuinely stunned at just how perfectly they managed to capture the look and feel of a repressed trans woman in her

Wife says she’ll make Garlic Four Head Pizza if I chop the garlic

Why do I already need to shave my arms again and shower... and shave the rest of me...

Down with the cis

lets start this mega off with a banger

cw: tagline

squishmallows are just funko pops for people who aren't into capeshit

Been a rough couple days for me. Being on the edge emotionally at all times is exhausting. Managing to not snap at coworkers over the slightest thing is a miracle. Also migraine and cramps. Ugh. Someone just knock me out for a few days please.

got some new jeggings

Yay new megathread!!!!

How was everyone’s weekend?

Also for all the new people who came in from Bluesky, how are you doing on the site so far? Any questions, issues, or anything else we could help out with?

I've been binge learning Bevy as of late. Behold: my incredibly stupid first learning project.

::: spoiler socializing is weird

I have a friend who i just cannot pin down, and its really frustrating. She said last night that she thinks im scared of her, to which i replied "sometimes"; in my introspection on that theres like 3 different processes at play.

I find myself wary and ready to deal with tough feelings when im with her in one on one situations, because she tends to talk about her personal growth and especially her ex, which is a situation similar enough to my longest relationship that it brings up a bunch of shit that ive mostly processed but is still difficult feelings, so I end up wary and readying myself to deal with them.

Then i also just suck at group interactions. So one on one its hard, and in groups its hard. So i am kinda scared, not of her but of my own shit and finding myself being extra alert and hypervigilant when we all hang out.

Doesnt help that she uses social cues to indicate when shes teasing/poking fun with me that i struggle to pick up on (and she does that a lot). So even when its good interactions it takes a lot of energy

new doggirl emotes

What’s up guys! Returned I have from a moon logged off. It was pretty nice. I read a lot about Buddhism and completed my first insight cycled. Going to try to not let this place re-embolden my executive dysfunction, but it’s nice to be back. How are y’all doing? Currently kind of contented and tired. I miss being able to cry.

I mega her thread till I the week of December 16, 2024, to December 22, 2024

I don't want to doxx myself too much but when I went to go change my name on my CRBA (consular report of birth abroad, it's my birth certificate) I didn't realize that there was a listing for sex on it too- so now I have to get that changed even though all my other ID paperwork has the right gender marker and name on them. :(

I'm stuck in Texas, would anybody happen to know how difficult it is nowadays to just like... Get that changed real quickly? I just need the proof that my gender marker has been corrected so I can get that one damn document fixed.

Fallout Tactics has a minor character Paladin Solo, her first name is Emerald, she is referred to with feminine pronouns and her voice actor is a cis man.

https://fallout.fandom.com/wiki/Emerald_Solo

It's 2001 and I don't know if it was meant to be something intentional about Power Armor, a budget constraint or an error, or some one snuck it in for positive or negative purposes.

But she/her, no voice training and a full suit of power armour is gender AF and rules.

I have dark and problematic thoughts I cannot discuss here

I took my first baby step into music production, i downloaded renoise and figured out how to chop a break and sequence it after watching tutorials

Literally the babiest of steps but maybe one day i'll be able to make something cool