I don't have any good posts so here's this:
bottom dysphoria thoughts/being weird
So I hate having balls, that much has been determined, but the idea of part of me getting thrown in an incinerator is also a little sad. Like idk, I don't want them destroyed, despite what they've done to me. Still part of me/my past I guess. It looks like very few places will put them in a wet spec jar for you too. I mean I guess if the choice is keeping them on me or them getting destroyed I have to look forward at my new life, but I will be a little disappointed/upset if that's the case.
Hopefully my view changes before then because I've only seen a couple people able to keep them. I don't know, its weird and I'm weird