What are you feeling that you don't want to struggle with anymore? Is it guilt? Is it feeling in the way? Is it an unnamable negative? If it's the last one then you can probably do some work surrounding labelling your emotions, so that you can then apply logic to them- do they fit the current situation? Or no?
Finding a good therapist is like dating. You might not jive with everyone, and that's ok! It sounds like you would do well with one who either a) is cool with you coming to the session with a goal or who b) helps you set a goal for each session at the beginning. It sounds like your previous therapists weren't meeting your goals, but it doesn't mean it isn't worthwhile.
I'm sorry that you feel like you're getting in trouble often. I hope this feeling passes soon.
Speak for yourself