My mom took half my meds so I have a stash for them i visit her, so now I have to buy new meds. She offered to pay for them but when I told her what they cost now, she got mad that I hadn't haggled with the pharmacy So now she wants me to sign a thing a thing that lets my sister buy meds for me because she's "a good negotiator". My sister doesn't wanna do it.

You can't haggle with the pharmacy mom, you know, this you used to buy my meds.

OK for real, how am I supposed to know what personality traits of mine are unhealthy coping mechanisms and which are 'normal'? What parts of me are acceptable and which parts of me are signs of 'oh dear that poor delusional person is clearly is compensating for their shitty life'?

I am so sick of second guessing my every thought, action and interest.

I’m always amused at how progressive types suddenly drop their supportive act when there’s a chance one of their own could be neurodivergent.

My nephew has shown all the signs of being autistic but his parents refuse to acknowledge it. They say he was tested at three months and he was proven to be neurotypical. I have to add that her family has people who have all the signs of undiagnosed autism.

It’s so frustrating seeing someone who could get help not receive it because their parents can’t accept that their child isn’t “pure” or some bs like that

Just saw a FB post from our local warming station that activates when it gets cold out for the unhoused to go to to be safe from last night. My ex was in one of the photos. She kicked me out and made me homeless for 2 months, so the irony isn't lost. Just not sure how I should feel about it. She's helping people, but I used to think she did this stuff out of the kindness of her heart and now I can't help but think she only does it because she's religious and wants "Jesus points" as my brain has officially dubbed it. That's all. Idk where else I should post this so y'all get it. Hope everyone is doing their best while we wrap up this shitty year.

I haven't been active on here lately because of band stuff, work, and arguing with Dems on Facebook. But I just wanted to stop by and say I love you all and I know you are doing your best!

Is it normal to not feel equipped for adult life whatsoever?

I’m putting so much shit off. Calling my college because my Authenticator doesn’t work whatsoever so I haven’t been able to sign in to any college accounts for a month and only have 12 days to sign up for classes, calling my college because I’m being charged 1.4k despite having fafsa, I have no passions at all and no idea wtf I want to do even though I’m 21, have 0 motivation or energy at all times and nothing helps, constantly feel like my head is full of cotton balls, sleep like shit, have sinus problems, tired all the time, don’t have any energy to make plans to move even though I despise my hometown with a passion

I just feel like a lazy failure. Why tf was I born I hate this world so much lol. I did not ask for this

Customer changed the amount he gave me AFTER paying and then got pissy and condescending when I didn’t get the change right. I hate customers.

Much love to all my beautiful and loving Disabled Comrades

I didnt forget. Happy new year to you guys, guyettes, and non-guynaries. Hope you had a great new year's celebration and I hope 2026 is as amazing as you deserve it to be.

Why is everyone so terrible and mean all the time

Really wish I could turn off the part of me that get's really sad when people say things I think are bad. That would be cool.

a number of horror stuff is just ableism

first meeting with my new therapist in a purple state and they immediately un-diagnosed me with adhd before giving me medication that asphyxiated me in the middle of the night every day for two weeks

Happy New Year, my darling comrades. May this year treat you better than the last, and this community be a reminder that you're cherished and that you matter.

How do those of you with major physical disabilities exercise/keep active? My achilles is wrecked again, my entire left side, knee, foot, everything is flaring up. I'm pretty much accepting now that this isn't going to get better, and is actually getting worse over time. Even basic walking is often out of the question. But the lack of exercise makes the muscles, tendons etc weaker over time. Not to mention I've become incredibly unfit to the point I can get out of breath easily. The exercises the physio tells me to do are pretty much worthless. What should I do? Should I just give up and rot? What a life to look forward to. And a migraine today. happy 42nd birthday to me.

feel like im getting burnout again, but the only cause i can think of is the world just being genuinely awful. even if my own conditions are sort of okay right now i hyper empathize with other people so much that this is just gonna be a constant for the rest of my life huh

Every escalation currently happening makes complete sense as a consequence of the world cosigning eugenics after a year or two of half-assing SARS-CoV-2. When you consent to that scale of abandonment, nothing matters anymore. We are on our own.

my mom is watching some show and some rich people were complaining about being rich and having no choices bc they are rich

this is the same person who tells me that i'm boxing myself in by acknowledging im disabled and limiting my choices in life

im so tired

i really do be sleeping for most of my life, mimimi, bed so comfy

Thinking of going back to work makes me sick, what the fuck. Why do I have to go back. I'm going to cry again

And the worst is I am not working enough already. I need to push myself harder. And I have to hope I can find another job after I move later this year.

They gave me so many cookies at the food bank. I got an entire shopping bag just fool of cookies and another shopping bag full of broccoli and ready-to-eat salads. Also 10 pounds of potatoes.

I had a fall like an old lady today. My tendon is too bad to walk much but its depressing and frustrating being trapped indoors so I thought I could at least hobble around the block for some fresh air. But it's icy and I slipped and fell flat on my back, and my mobility problems are so bad I couldn't even get back up. A man came along and pulled me back up after watching me struggle for a minute. Embarrassing. I shouldn't be like this at 42, this is what 92 year olds are like. And I hurt my knee falling, now I'm paranoid that will be a long term problem like every other injury I get. Being disabled is a vicious circle, the more disabled you are, the more likely you are to get injured, and the more injured you get, the more disabled you are.

The idiots at the GP surgery are still doing my prescriptions wrong. And there was an old lady in there, also complaining that her grandson's prescription still hadn't been done after many requests. The kid had asthma and his inhalers have run out and the receptionists were completely unhelpful and she had to leave still without the prescription. Someone could literally die because of this and they just don't care.

Someone on lemmy told me there's a book about the UK government actively trying to cull the disabled - "The Department," by John Pring. I'll have to see if the library has it, if I can ever get down there. My achilles is even worse today and my knee too. I hate being disabled, does anyone else fantasise that they are a completely different, able bodied person living a completely different life? I fantasise about this 24/7.

I'm also wondering if I've inadvertently pissed people off. My latest mutual aid post is not only getting no replies but no-one has even bumped it, while all the others are still getting bumped.

I just got back from my hospital appointment about the fibroids that may be causing my bladder issues. Firstly the GP hadn't even sent my scan over, so the consultant has no idea how bad the fibroids actually are. He said he will request the scan and see me again in a month or so to discuss it. He did tell me my options though - a hysterectomy, but he said amongst other things I'll have a 15% chance of being left in chronic, potentially debilitating pain from that, so that's a no from me. Or hormonal treatments to shrink it, but I've already had one stroke and hormonal treatments put me at higher risk of another, so that's a no. I'd rather keep the bladder issues than have either of those things. He also said when I go through full menopause, which may be soon as I already seem to be in perimenopause, it might shrink on it's own and depending on how big it is could even shrink away to nothing. Seems mad to put myself at risk of lifelong terrible consequences by treating something that may go away on its own.

have a bad flu thing, just awful and the world seems like deeply unreal and the news isnt helping with that idk. idk

Having Raynauds syndrome and getting bright fucking red hands when I’m even slightly warm is so fucking annoying. On one hand it’s insanely uncomfortable and hot and on the other everyone and their dog feels the need to comment on how red my hands are

https://hexbear.net/post/7241855

This proposal might be of interest to some here.

CoC Change Proposal - Mandated Clarification of Tone When Replying to a User Who Requested It

Hey if I forget to write tomorrow I just want you guys to know that I hope you have an amazing new years, and I hope you have a better 2026 than 2025.