I finally watched the uncensored video of Aaron Bushnell's self immolation, and it really hammered home the point that this country is hurtling towards destabilization at breakneck speed, and this has me worried about a couple of things:

1. I ~~want~~ need to arm myself, as a member of a marginalized group, but guns and ammo are expensive af, and making time to go to the range is gonna be a huge pain, especially when the one low-cost range here is frequented by the local PD.
2. I'm really worried about how medications will be handled when existing systems are impacted by mass riots and possibly even open revolt. I of course worry about people with chronic illnesses and whatnot, but, selfishly, I'm really worried about having to go off hormones if they become sparse – I have loved living on estrogen instead of testosterone, and frankly, going back to being T-dominant is almost definitely going to massively fuck up my brain function (just like it used to). I think getting infrastructure in place for local hormone and medication production is a must for and major communist/anarchist movement.
3. I want to contribute to building out some type of resilient, offline WAN for local commies and queers, because KOSA has me worried as fuck about the future of communication on the internet. And that's gonna take significant organizing work.

I know everything here, except maybe (2), is at least manageable and doable. But combined with the fact I have negative spoons after working 40hrs a week (thanks, AuDHD), it is gonna take some major effort on my part, which just plain sucks.