Hi everybody! My schedule has been really unforgiving, so I may or may not end up writing something and making changes to the post later in the week.
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@[email protected] I forgot to reply😅
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https://hexbear.net/comment/5881998I'm not sure I'd call it internalized transphobia, I'd more say it's my subjective experience of being trans, but you are definitely right about the reverse double standard. I don't really care about other people, but I hold myself to an impossibly high standard. Seeing it like that, the quote from your comment definitely seems like a horrible way to view myself😅, but idk I have a hard time letting myself be happy.
My goal is basically to assimilate in cis society. The one thing I truly want is a bog-standard heterosexual monogamous relationship with a husband and to have 3-4 kids. I don't really feel a need to engage in LGBT+ communities IRL, and I wouldn't be able to befriend anyone there as it would hinder my goal of being stealth. But as you say, I've definitely seen a lot of trans people online who share my self-conceptions, but I don't want to talk about it as I'll usually just feel worse about myself afterwards😅
I think I just need to log off and stop doomscrolling. Luckily the new semester has begun so I can go back to being a workaholic😍 And thank you for the consideration❤️