Imagine being a committed revolutionary instead of being too anxious to go outside :^)

That’s the “one” thing about all the anxieties I found I didn’t have on my recent mental health journey/hyperfixation. I’m anxious, but I’ll walk aimlessly or do whatever if the impulses are right, and assume I’ll be fine eventually. I do a lot of shit that would worry a neurotypical.

I find myself physically "people-watching" all the time, partly as a brainworm antidote - I find observing average, realistic human bodies helpful ig

I suppose it’s an extra background stimulus while I think and do multiple other things. That’s probably the best way to go about it. I rarely do, but I guess rather than simply looking for beauty in everyone and not liking when I don’t find it (lmao), I could just recognize more that perfection isn’t real, and if people can live with themselves (although some probably have self hate) that’s ok and I should just be happy I look better than them (real narcissist hours, lol). It’s probably not best to dwell on one’s own subjective superiority, but…

I’m also always figuring out how I can be better, trying not lean into dissatisfaction either. It’s ok, it’s a dialectic.