Burada dogup buyudum, Turkiye'nin diger sehirlerine gore daha sakin bir yer bence. Cogu kisi burayi Isvicre'ye benzetiyor hem insanlari hem de cografyasindan dolayi.

2022'den beri nasil degismistir bilemiyorum ama duyduguma gore herkes terk etmis orayi, ve hayalet kasaba gibi oldugunu soyluyorlar.

Oyle kendi arabaniz varsa gezmenizi tavsiye ederim kafa dagitmak icin. Genel olarak cok sessiz ve sakin bir sehir(idi).

Restoranlari kazik atmalariyla meshur ama kucuk sehir oldugundan belki normaldir bilemiyorum?

https://youtu.be/YOCuyoLMfQA

I ordered this 400mg one from Symphony Labs:

Estradiol Enanthate (10 mL × 40 mg/mL)

I was planning to use this for a long time by injecting 4mg weekly with 30G insulin syringes but someone here told me it is recommended to trash it after 6 months.

Anyone used until the vial is empty like 2 years?

22F.

Therapies and meds are not working for me as I'm resistant to brainwashing.

Whenever I get into a relationship, doesn't matter how hard I try, I end up attacking the person due self-sabotage episode. I tell horrible things, I hit them from their weakest points (not physically), and during that self-sabotage + adrenaline I take so much pleasure from hurting them like I don't think I could even get that enjoyment from sex or something.

Before accepting that I should stay away from people, or be very distanced, I thought I can manage it but no, I was wrong. My best effort lasted maximum 5 months. Episode hit again, and I fucked up everything.

Once I sleep and the episode is gone, I wake up with instant regret. I apologize but OTOH everything I said was correct so I can't really take back what I said anyways LMFAO.

It's so painful, and I find it crazy that BPD is different from ASPD. Seeing other people living their lives, having a partner, and overall happy hurts so bad. I even become like "oh why don't I just download a dating app an..." then I remember I have BPD and how I fucked everything before.

Some people are seriously born to be euthanized. Being trans + BPD is a horrible combo. Staying alive is a torture for me since my early childhood.

Half joking half serious.

We are in war with %99 of this world. They will vote far-right without thinking twice. They don't care about us.

We all must be mining Monero, and sending them to Trans Rescue, and to buy DIY HRT for trans people who need them.

We have DIY HRT which gave us affordable and higher quality HRT than what cissoids gave us.

We even got DIY electrolysis recently.

We even got DIY orchiectomy.

Why don't we have trans plastic surgeons? We need DIY FFS.

Why don't we have trans ENT surgeons? We need DIY VFS.

We just found out how scammy official healthcare is, can you imagine what can we found with FFS/VFS stuff?

Mexico has surgeons who give better results than westoids for lower price for example.

Also keep that in mind, going stealth and distancing yourself from other trans people is selfish. I will keep helping other trans people even if I pass as cis. I remember how lonely I was when I first found out I'm trans, and there was almost nobody online/IRL to tell me what to do. I had to find out everything by myself by dig deeping for months/years.

If you don't help other trans people, nobody else will.

Imagine leaving new trans people stupid reddit communities as only option...

2019 benim için.

Hayatımın en güzel yılıydı aynı zamanda en kötü haha. İlk yarısı iyiydi, yazdan sonra boka sardı.

Milletin normal olup sosyalleştiği son yıldı, pandemiden sonra herkese bir şey oldu ben dahil.

Bir daha hiçbir şey eskisi gibi olmadı. Benim kendi gözlemim.

Ocak 2020'de virüs yüzünden okul tatil oldu zaten 1. dönem tatiline girmeye günler kalmıştı, sonra bir uyandık yıl 2022, eski arkadaşlar gitmiş hiçbir şey eskisi gibi değil, 18 yaşına basıp yetişkin olmuşsun ama doğru düzgün gençlik bile yaşayamadın kek

Sizin?

I am aware of their conservative government but I hear mixed things about their society.

Some say they're even more conservative than the USA, and some say they're kinda open minded and just vote conservative for the gas/petrol.

I'm 22, and I got my orchiectomy (they may restrict HRT so yeah). I just wondered how is living in Edmonton/Calgary, and visiting other places in the province?

Many people asked me if I was Russian in Canada so I can say that I have a white privilege?

I won't move there but I really wonder as it's the richest province (GDP per capita).

Unrelated to being trans but I thought I'm lonely because I'm trans (can be a factor why not?) but I realized once the high school is over and I moved to a different country, being lonely is normal.

Even during school's summer holidays, I was lonely until school reopens.

Your only real friends are your pets. Thanks capitalism.

Having a pet is a luxury BTW considering everyone is living in poverty even if you have a job LMFAO.

I have borderline and I gave up from dating for my mental health so having a partner is even not an option for me. Dating pool is garbage too like it's either chasers who see you as a femboy/sextoy or simply eggs who don't know they're attracted to the idea of "man turning into a woman" instead of really loving you. Then they realize they're trans then bOOm.

Pffffff... I wish I was a cis woman... :/

Haziran 2022'de Türkiye'den ayrılıp Kanada'ya taşındım.

Ne kaçırdım? Dedikodular? Skandallar?

Her türlü pisliği duymak istiyorum. 🙈

Ruhumuz fakir olduğundan fiyatı göz önünde bulundurmadan cevaplayın.

I never considered myself trans back in Türkiye because on media, we only saw non-passing ones or hyperfem ones.

Bülent Ersoy, Gaga Bulut, crossdressers being shown as trans women on TV series, and the one I saw in my city (they transitioned at age 30+ and I clocked her when I was a kid even though I didn't know much about trans stuff back then)

I just wanted to be like a cis girl with female voice and appearance, and I thought this is impossible. I also searched online but due lack of my English back at age 15, I couldn't find anything and I had to give up. I had a sui attempt, and after recovery I got traumatized and I promised myself to just ignore all of my issues.

I stopped studying, I stopped everything that I cared about, just watched TV shows (16-18 was covid), was planning to join French foreign legion so I did gymmaxxing, my social anxiety and everything got worse but I was repping so hard, I was even copying and pasting other men's behaviours to myself to prevent being seen as fem. I was idolising some men I liked. It made me miserable asf.

(French Foreign Legion is extremely conservative, anti-science, and strictly anti-LGBT.)

If I didn't move to Canada, and talked to a trans woman online, I would be dead due "depression".

I repped with sertraline until age 18, and I thought it was just "OCD"... Erdoğan fucked my body and life and now I'm the one who has to pay for the damage?!

My family is shit. They're also the reason why I transitioned too late. I kinda knew they were assholes since my childhood but after realizing trans, and seeing their reactions, I took what I saw on raisedbynarcs subreddit more seriously and I wish I realized gaslighting earlier too...

They were violent, humiliating, bullying, swearing, making fun of me, neglecting, extremely controlling, threatening, narcissistic, bigoted, EXTREMELY ignorant, and never taught me anything to become an independent person as they wanted to keep controlling me forever.

Now I'm stuck with them for a while until paperwork is done but sometimes I can't stand them anymore. Most shelters in Toronto are extremely disgusting and dangerous. I'm unemployed with zero skills.

I don't want to apply college with my deadname so I have to wait until the docs but it's depressing.

I will also apply for ODSP soon but I'm so depressed. There isn't even 1 good thing in my life...

I miss 2022 when I was hopeful for this country and had dreams...

Stupid me

I'm 22, and I want my sharp nose from age 13-14 back. I can't afford anything now, trvke but I at least want to have a realistic goal.

I need:

1. Aggressive full forehead reduction
2. Sharp nose
3. Lip lift
4. Chin feminization (but I have a recessed jawline so IDK wtf I'm gonna do for that :(, will be complicated and expensive and makes me wanna die)

Any recommendations? Canada is simply sCamada, USA is just a larger version of Anatolia already, getting a FFS in Mexico sounds like a dark humour, and Argentina has good surgeons from what I heard.

Websites like realself can be helpful I know but I just want to know and hear from the experience.

I want to look sharp and elegant again. Make Sidal sharp and elegant again!

I'm looking like an Indian Ringneck parrot :(

Thanks. <3