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My beliefs are somehow multifaceted and complex to put into words, but the closest label would be "syncretic Luciferian", but I'm not sure what exactly I'm believing and following nowadays, as I've been so distant from spiritual practices that were once a fundamental part of my daily life.

Sometimes I feel like I should've attend some "terreiro de Umbanda/Kimbanda" (Umbanda and Kimbanda are two of the main Afro-Brazilian religions, and terreiros is the name of the sacred place from both religions, a place where they engage with their respective sacred spiritual practices, chants and dances, with several similarities as well as several differences between the two religions) which especially focused on the figure of the Pomba-gira (a name for powerful feminine entities within Umbanda and Kimbanda, strongly related to the Lilith's archetype, complementary to Exu, Her masculine homologous archetype often associated with Lucifer/Satan; the Kimbanda's relation with the Pomba-gira is very different from Umbanda, Kimbanda is more reverent towards Exu and Pomba-gira than Umbanda), or even being part of some Satanic initiatory school (I have an inexplicable strong pull on both, especially the dark/shadowy beauty and aesthetics of Satanic rituals, hooded robes, deep and strong chants to Satan; I have never attended either of them yet). Problem is that I'd be a complete stranger to them as I know nobody within Umbanda, Kimbanda or Satanism (I'm kind of a solitary person without friends, it's my personality).

Probably. For example: European Portuguese often uses "está a fazer" / "estás a fazer", Brazilian Portuguese often uses the gerund form ("está fazendo"). Also, there are slight differences on how some words are written: Brazilian Portuguese uses "objetivo" (objective/target), "ação" (action), "tela" (screen), "mouse de computador" (computer mouse), while European Portuguese respectively uses "objectivo", "acção", "ecrã" and "rato de computador".

However, I once heard that a "Brazilianization" of European Portuguese is happening through the European Portuguese youth due to how major online Portuguese-speaking influencers are often Brazilian, such as Lucas Neto (an infuencer whose content focuses on the youth). Considering that the youth people has more online presence than older people, chances are that the variations of Brazilian Portuguese (especially the "Carioca" variation, as those Brazilian influencers often come from Rio de Janeiro's city) is overriding European Portuguese among the European Portuguese people all over the the web. This makes it slightly hard to identify the nationality solely from written text.

(Edit: "Brazilianization" is different from "Brazilification". The latter refers to ethnic diversification, while the former refers to "An increase in the percentage of Brazilian people or cultural elements in an area or industry" (to paraphrase Wiktionary). Although the ethnic diversification is also indeed happening across the world, the focus of my reply is the cultural and linguistic realm, so "Brazilianization" seems to fit better.)

Brazilian here. Brazilian Portuguese has lots of variation across the country.

One thing that I can remember of European Portuguese is "tu" (singular 2nd person). Brazilian Portuguese vary, with states such as São Paulo and Minas Gerais using "você" (you) while states such as Pernambuco and Ceará using "tu" in a peculiar way.

For example, Cearenses, Pernambucanos, among other northeastern states, they would say "tu tá fazendo o quê hoje?" (English: "What are you doing today?"), when "tá" is a shortened "está", the verb "estar" (be) conjugated in the singular third person, but "tu" is the singular second person.

European Portuguese would say "tu estás a fazer o que hoje?", with "estás" correctly conjugated in the single second person ("What art thou doing today?").

And there are Sao Paulo and Minas Gerais. I was born Paulista (São Paulo state), and paulistas speak slightly differently from Paulistanos (São Paulo city and capital of its homonym state). This includes slightly different dialects, terms, colloquial expressions and, especially, different accent. But both paulistas and paulistanos say "tá fazendo o que hoje?" or "você tá fazendo o que hoje?" (The first implies an "você").

Minas Gerais, as well as some places within Sao Paulo's interior, would say "cê tá fazendo o que hoje?" or "ocê tá fazendo o que hoje?", where both "cê" and "ocê" is a shortened "você" ("ocê" is very stereotypical of Mineiros).

There are many other aspects and examples that could be mentioned as well, but my comment is already long. But, basically, Brazilian Portuguese differs a lot from the European Portuguese, which also have their own regional variations (e.g. the Portuguese spoken in Porto differs from the Portuguese spoken in Ilha da Madeira).

As for sounds and accents, the northeasterners as well as the Cariocas (Rio de janeiro) have more in common with Portugal as their "s" sounds like "x" (not your English x, but the "sh" sound as in "shell" and "ash"). Paulistas even make some lighthearted funny from cariocas when they say "isqueiro" (lighter) and "chiqueiro" (pigsty), because they say both words in a very similar manner ("eesh-kay-roo" and "sh-kay-roo"). In contrast, paulistanos say something like "ees-kay-roo" (our "s" sounds approximately like the ending sound from the English word "fizz".

In some countries, this would have bad connotations. For example: the finger gun gesture has a bad connotation within Brazil, as it was the hand gesture that Bolsonaro used throughout his campaign and his government.

The descriptions you wrote resonate a lot with myself.

I'm often "robotic", I even sound like some LLM as someone recently accused me of being. It's not AI, it's me, although I'm not sure who exactly...

That's because I often find myself fighting with me, as if my essence/soul and my physicality/body were two distinct entities. Part of me wants to "just be normal" (whatever that means), while the other part of me finds no purpose at all, a nihilist perception from a cosmic level, all the way to myself and my existence.

And there's my brain, often diving itself into an almost obsessive seeking for information and knowledge. I try to learn as much as I can find (self-teaching was always an easy thing to me), and I dive into a whole ocean of information and knowledge across several fields, from STEM fields to philosophy and a syncretic spirituality (from several belief systems). Deep inside, it's me trying to flee from myself.

I feel like I exist in a bubble of myself, with my own culture, habits and thoughts disconnected from "other humans", as if I couldn't really get to understand the "invisible and unwritten rules" while having my own "invisible and unwritten rules" which nobody else seems to understand, yet deep inside I know there are people similar to me, struggling to cope with themselves and their surroundings just like I struggle to cope with myself and my surroundings.

Lots of people went from Twitter/X to Bluesky, and we know how much the Twitter environment has long been toxic, so the probability of toxicity within Bluesky increases as more X people are establishing there as we speak. I mean, it's obviously not everyone, it's obviously not a rule of thumb, but Bluesky was made a new agora by currently 20 million people (numbers from news dating back to two weeks ago), with the majority of them having left X long after that billionaire bought the platform, so they kept within the toxic environment (the X platform) longer than expected. Chances are that people who were structural maintainers of the toxicity of X are now on Bluesky, trying to toxicize it too, by means of attacking people. (I read through a Lemmy post that there's an entire botnet pretending to be people and these bots are engaging in combative/trolling replies across Bluesky)

I have no Bluesky account, and many things make me dismiss my own intrusive thoughts of signing up there, one of which is directly related to this, the possibility of facing bots and toxicity from X, following the exodus of people (bots and trolls need people to spam/impersonate and to troll). While Mastodon (the real fediverse's Twitter/X alternative) is often a cemetery (lacking enough interactions and activity), it seems to lack the toxicity from X.

Terraria. I'm trying to make a flat small world pre-Hardmode, starting at the depth level from the western ocean (240' above surface level) and going all the way east. I'm trying to keep the biomes, re-placing or filling blocks as needed (e.g. mud for jungle, snow for arctic, sand for desert and stone for crimson), while also making some hellevators, especially a wide (5+ blocks of distance) one between the crimson and its two neighboring biomes (so crimson won't spread, specially if and when I enter hardmode).

Specifically at the desert biome, which was way below 240', I needed more sand than the world had to offer, so I needed to smuggle sand from another world I temporarily created. I dug thousands and thousands of sand blocks and sandstone blocks, taking them with my character to this world that I'm terraforming.

As I started to smuggle blocks from a world to another, my objective became two: terraforming two worlds, the first world being leveled from sea to sea while keeping every biome, and the other being almost emptied (I'm calling it "voidforming" because I'm intending to take out literally every block I can, from space to underworld; as for the underworld's lava, I'm using the infinite bucket trickery to create honey so I can convert the lava into crispy honey blocks which can be converted to hive when casting them to the shimmer, and part of this hive can be possibly converted to honey again while digging it; Lihzard blocks, Crimson altars and Dungeon blocks seem to be the only blocks I won't be capable of removing in a pre-Hardmode world that actually won't see any hardmode at all, as every single pool of lava will be removed so the Guide Voodoo Doll won't have lava to be thrown to). Blocks from the voidformed world are mean to be used to help terraforming the other world, while the achievements from the terraformed world (such as tissue samples from Brain of Cthulhu) can be used to build tools and resources that will help on voidforming the other world.

Lots of work, but it's just so I can have something to keep my mind busy.

There may be no changes on the article yet, but there's a lot of ongoing discussion at the Discussion page of the article:

... drawn on a paper sheet, so it has no other side (the sheet is blank at the back)

Exactly!

Optimistic, me? Lol! I'm far from an optimistic person.

On the one hand, you're right, humans easily forget things, especially when our daily lives are so exhausting and humans have limited attention span (it reminds me of a video about an experiment involving attention span where a person wearing a monkey costume appears during a moment where the viewers are trying to count how many times a basketball kicked on the ground: as our eyes are focused on the basketball, we can't even notice them).

On the other hand, I never saw this kind of broad and unified reaction and feelings of "justice had been made". Hell, it even caused a reaction inside myself, and I'm not even an American. I'm Brazilian but I'm following what's happening around the world, especially what's happening with USA. I notice how the world has long been a gunpowder barrel, ready to explode. The bad things kept happening, humans kept being enslaved by this modern slavery, humans kept being silenced ("shut up and work, get us our profits, peasant!"), and everything has a tipping point. Everything has an "enough" point. A broad "enough" reaction was just a matter of time. And it seems like it happened through an anonymous symbol of this "enough" sentiment inside everyone.

At least that's what I feel, even when I'm from a whole another country and hemisphere, because it's a system with tentacles over the whole world. Corporations are multinational, they got branches here and there and everywhere. For example: back in 2015 and 2019, hundreds of Brazilians were killed by a mining corporation, when a dam broke, flooded an entire town and drowned people to their deaths. If was known as "Brumadinho dam disaster" and "Mariana dam disaster". It took years for their families to receive money (I'm not sure if this happened yet, when or how much they received), and some people even weren't found. People were "indirectly" murdered by a mining corporation, and that mining corporation continued to operate until nowadays!!

Something definitely needs to change, something definitely needs to happen so our "that's enough" feelings can be awakened, so things can change even if it's a little bit.

You're considering that these photos are his photos, when actually it could easily be an entirely other person or, worse, AI-generated person (sites such as This Person Doesn't Exist is a clear example of how AIs can generate non-existent faces). IIRC, these photos came from news outlets, so it couldn't really be trusted as a matter of fact.

Despite that, people here on Lemmy seem to be sharing it just for the lulz of it, because meaningful things need a meaning symbol to symbolize it. And those photos, even when they're not his, is a well-agreed symbol.

If those photos really helped the authorities somehow, they'd already have a grip on him, but they haven't. So, hey, relax...