sad posting, some negativity about being trans (directed inward you all are amazing), fears of transphobia
I'm just so sad and confused. It hurts. I'm so jealous of women. I hate my body. I wish I was born a girl. I'd never feel this way. I'd have other issues, obviously, but idk I just think I'd be happier with my body/socially. But I don't want to be trans :cri: it seems so hard. I wish I could just be cis. Why can't I be okay with being a guy. It's objectively got a lot of advantages. Why hexbear. And if I decided I was trans I'd be so terrible at it for so long 😢 everyone would just look at me like a man pretending to be a woman. A pervert. I don't want people to look at me like a disgusting creep :/ what did I do to deserve this. This sucks. I hate the idea of being trans.
Also if anyone has any advice on discussing this with my therapist (or if I even should) I'd appreciate it. I feel like I should know what I want before telling them but (emoji I can't remember the name of, it's the yellow face throwing hands upward in kinda defeat)