uhhhhhh... this is the bit of your life when you realize that although transitioning was an immense step in self improvement, there's still a lot wrong with you internally and you still have a lot to work on. You get angry and frustrated by this until you start "talking with" ancient gods in a rhetorical sense until it stops getting rhetorical and starts getting literal. you'll then have a moment with what feels like talking to someone/thing supernatural and dive head first into some obscure quasi religious practice

you'll also come out at work, which you'll be going into expecting one hell of a fight but being pleasantly surprised with how relatively easy it was. customers will still misgender you regularly for an unfortunately long time, despite your best efforts