I'm the same way. Like I would go to metal shows in smaller venues and the lights and on-stage performance and deep bass so loud that I could feel it in my chest and the frantic energy of the crowd and everything together was just an amazing sensory experience. But if ask my autistic partner how they feel, they said that sounds like their worst nightmare. I also maybe get a kind of social overload in groups, like 1 on 1 I'm usually pretty good but the second it's more people I start to tune out and kinda I dunno surf along on the waves of others conversations? And at the time I'm feel like I'm maybe doing okay but then I also just need to avoid people for a while to recharge. Yet I still seek it out even through I'm terrible at participating? I dunno at the same I feel like that's more of an ADHD thing. But I guess it could be both? Too much overlap 
Hoping for the best for your self-discovery journey.
Appreciate it 

