[-] nemmybun@hexbear.net 21 points 4 weeks ago

My pill era is almost over. First vial is arriving soon, maybe even by tomorrow. Wouldn't it be perfect if I could do my first injection on TDoV? niko-wonderous

[-] nemmybun@hexbear.net 24 points 5 months ago

It's like Pokemon but you're sending out your fists instead

[-] nemmybun@hexbear.net 23 points 10 months ago* (last edited 10 months ago)

Some guy hit on me in the grocery store today and it was so off-putting that I'm reconsidering my sexuality

Me: I could be bi

Man: Hello

Me: Save me Sappho

[-] nemmybun@hexbear.net 23 points 1 year ago

almost 4 weeks post-ffsMost of the swelling is down. I'm very slowly regaining feeling in the areas that were previously numb. It feels like when novocaine wears off, and the pins and needles sensation is most mild except this sensation is extended over several... um... I hope just weeks. No pain in my lips or chin or inside mouth or it's low-level enough where I can ignore it. There's mild pain on my scalp primarily along the sutures. They're still sore to the touch so I'm trying to sleep on my back which is very unnatural to me. Besides the sleep deprivation, I'm pretty much back to pre-surgery energy levels and have honestly been for a week already. I'm fighting the urge to go out and be active when I should still be resting.

I've started messages and silicone strips for the only visible scar and these treatments have already had effect. Minoxidil for the transplanted hair and obviously it hasn't been long enough usage to have visible hair regrowth but it has slowed down shock loss.

Now that the swelling is down and my vision is back, I can look in the mirror and appreciate the results. And yeah. The struggle was worth it. I love the changes, looking into a mirror and seeing my face now is euphoria-inducing. I dunno think I'm kinda hot now too... I can't wait until the hair grows back and the healing process is fully complete. I'll be unstoppable catgirl-smug

[-] nemmybun@hexbear.net 27 points 1 year ago

Lots of exciting developments happening lately. I got my FFS surgery officially scheduled and it's less than a month away now. Electrolysis is going well; my upper lip is almost clear (at least for this growth cycle) and my facial hair is visibly reduced in most areas except chin. I bought and used an epilator for the first time and though I was worried about pain at first, it's honestly nothing compared to what I've been going though every week with electro. I'll be starting speech therapy for feminization soon. I've been more social in 1 month than I was for all of last year, and I've already started work on (further) radicalizing my new friends. Oh and I'm like 99% sure I'm going to get the job I really want that I interviewed for recently, mostly because my resume was put forward by the boss and have other recs from inside the org supporting me.

[-] nemmybun@hexbear.net 21 points 1 year ago

Can anyone lend me their credit card number, name, exp date and CVV? There's a neat trick I wanna try catgirl-happy

[-] nemmybun@hexbear.net 24 points 1 year ago

Electrolysis has been going well but I wish when my tech wants me to turn my head so she can reach parts of my face, she would stop saying "face the wall" kitty-cri

[-] nemmybun@hexbear.net 22 points 2 years ago

adhd autismYeah I know I can just go to the comm but I don't feel like it, trans mega is my safe warm blanket space

Okay anyway so I know I have ADHD for sure, like not only was it easy to self-diagnose but I got an official diagnosis from a psych so that's like all sorted.

Autism has been way harder to pin down. Like there are some criteria I resonate with like a lot, and there's some where it's the complete opposite. And maybe some a mix?

It doesn't help that ND people I've talked to about it have been 50/50 as well. "Yes you do" "Nah you don't" That's not helpful!

Someone said take the RAADS when you're not on meds or stimulants and then try it again when I'm on them. I thought it was silly but I took the test last night with no meds/stimulants and got a score right on the border, and then I took it again today after my meds kicked in and I got 10 points higher?

Chat does adderall cause autism alex-aware

Ok but seriously I do understand that ADHD can mask autism criteria so it does make sense that I'd relate that in a mindset where my ADHD stuff is reduced that I'd be able to see more of what's underneath but... it's so much on the edge that I'm still confused. Do I just have like the la croix of autism?

Where's the comprehensive AuDHD test when I need it?

[-] nemmybun@hexbear.net 26 points 2 years ago

I can't stand when people bathe themselves in cologne/perfume. You don't need that much! I shouldn't be able to smell you from another room, and the smell shouldn't linger in rooms you haven't even been in!

[-] nemmybun@hexbear.net 24 points 2 years ago

No training! Only voice! only-throw

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submitted 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago) by nemmybun@hexbear.net to c/gamedev@hexbear.net

A little over 2 weeks ago, I had once again started working with Godot, determined to finally learn the software so I can bring my many game ideas to life. And then I stumbled and failed as I usually do as my ideas were lofty and my skillset meager. I think it was the Mark Brown video that finally made the (obvious in retrospect) idea sink in that there was no way I can do the more complex games I wanted to make without first having made a bunch of simpler projects to nail down the fundamentals. So instead of trying to follow a grand plan, I just opened up a old tutorial I did and started adding stuff purely by vibes. And it fucking worked because after 2 weeks of intense hyperfocus I was able to put together an actual game that works (so far) and has most of the basics of the genre! Sure it's only 5 minutes long and full of stolen assets but I'm still very pleased with the outcome.

I started with the GDQuest Vampire Survivors tutorial and first decided to change out the graphics and give it a theme. What would be an amusing communist theme? Stalin crushing hordes of fascists. I decided to use Metal Slug assets for most of the characters and weapons (which had the bonus of getting a lot of practice in with animation because holy shit those spritesheets are huge). After I changed the graphics, I gave the solider a death animation instead of just disappearing. I thought the same death every time was boring since the soldiers had so many death animations in Metal Slug, so I made a system for randomly choosing a death scene each time. Then I got nostalgic for cheat codes from old games so I figured out how to add a text input box and made some effects for code matches. Every time I got bored or frustrated with an element I was working on I would come back and add another cheat, sometimes even it was just a bit.

And it sort of fed into itself after that. I went back to the soldier. I wanted an leveling system, so first I needed gems to fall from defeated enemies. Those gave XP which needed to be tracked, then I needed to trigger a level up screen where random options can be chosen. It started with a basic screen where 3 upgrades could be chosen. Then I added dummied weapons into the mix. At first the options could be infinitely chosen, but I was able to limit each option to 5 levels, which each level being a unique upgrade.

I got bored of working on that so I went back to enemies. I made 2 new variations: ones that I thought could have interesting attacks (though I never got around to adding an attack for the pirate variant). Since I didn't want them to appear at the start, I made a game timer and assigned a difficulty counter that increased every minute that changed the enemy loadout and spawning ratios. With all this game info to be tracked I created a UI to track important info. Then I made a boss with multiple attacks, 2 phases, adds, and a custom health bar.

I was creating larger challenges but with my hero only shooting a simple gun, it was time to add weapons. I added 7 in total. An 8th was originally planned for parity with the 8 upgrades, but I never got around to fully implementing it lol.

Then it was just some polishing left, so I added a title screen, credits, game over screen, music, and any sound effects I didn't get around to adding yet. Oh and options, so volume levels and fullscreen mode could be adjusted. And then any last passes for animation adjustments, bugfixes, sound balancing, etc.

I probably did more that I mentioned because it all starts to blur together towards the end. It's still a little janky in areas and I'm sure a lot of my methods and solutions are inefficient but in the end, it still seems to work and that's good enough for a learning project

Here's some screenshots!

Title screen:

Swarmed by enemies:

Using the "gorbachev" cheat:

Level up overlay:

Boss fight:

I have a packed exe that I can put up on a file sharing site if that's allowed here and anyone expresses interest in trying it out

Links to the game:

Windows version

Linux version

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Brain hurty but I'm gonna keep at it

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submitted 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago) by nemmybun@hexbear.net to c/mutual_aid@hexbear.net

Hi all, I've completely run out of money and I have a couple needs coming up soon. I need to pay my phone bill and my partner needs to send off time-sensitive documents for their disability claim soon. I think I should be able to get by with $30.

[-] nemmybun@hexbear.net 23 points 2 years ago

late night blehpostingSometimes I feel sad about starting HRT in my 30s. I feel like I'll always regret spending my 20s trying so desperately to live up to everyone's expectations while disregarding my own. Not even fully understanding what I wanted because I wouldn't listen to myself. I wouldn't allow myself the truth. Told myself to just keep going, it didn't matter which direction. Every direction is away from where I was, who I was. Gaslighted myself. Ignored that voice until I couldn't any longer. Drowned her out with drink and drugs until that stopped working too. It came to a point where there was no more distractions and no more escape. Some eggs crack gracefully from within. But eggs that crack under external pressure only fall to pieces. Whether I was ready or not, I had to find myself and put myself back together in a configuration that fit me.

I am glad I ultimately figured it out even if it was not in the graceful way and I'm happy with myself and how far I've come even if it took me awhile. Though I can't help but wonder how things would be now if I had been stronger and braver and ready to cut ties sooner. If I had started HRT in my 20s (or through some miracle, my teens), would I feel better about myself if testosterone had less time to do its damage? Would I feel like less of an outlier and more connected if I was closer to the average age of the wider community when I started? How different would my life be now if only I could've found my way sooner and not worried so much about the opinions of others? Would I be spending less of my time writing all this self-absorbed sadsack shit online an hour after I should be asleep and more time touching grass? (probably not that last one)

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