beating myself up
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I uninstalled fluffychat since i couldn't add any emotes to a chat room . I don't remember the GitHub password so now I can't do anything. so fucking stupid. socializing with people is difficult even w someone I've known for years like my therapist . I freeze up then can't get out.
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___ my brain feels like it's broken . I keep reading articles from therapy service websites just to make myself more angry. more than 3 years of therapy yet I feel worse. I don't even want suggestions from mental health 'professionals' since I know it's the same bullshit Abt 'loving your body'.
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i don't know what language to learn, I used to be interested in learning Indonesian but lost interest. i want to learn a language but getting anything done is frustrating . same with writing song lyrics/poems. i wrote something week ago but can't think of anythingspoiler cw dysphoria and si/depression
feel trapped. honestly considering dropping my therapist since everytime I vent to her about sensory overload or transphobia, she tells me to get over it. idk whats the purpose of therapy if it's just her shaming me for not 'controlling my emotions'. i have doubts about me 'getting better'. have thoughts about screaming and beating people up. aggravating that no one listens to me , even mh professionals. am glad I stopped menstruating but paranoid about bleeding again.